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2010-03-11T16:09:00.003+08:00

fear the day will come,
i cant see u anymore.
there wont be me,
tat the end of the world.

no trust no hope,
the lonely world of mine.
no pity no love.
the sad thing of world.

the only thing i want,
u know it well.
the only fear i hide,
i'm the only one.

2010-03-11T02:22:00.002+08:00

a thousand mile away,
but holding on tight.
tonnes to say,
but no one care.

just for you,
but take it away.
only you,
but move away.

hope to hold,
and hope to kiss.
far away
and it my sin.

hate to born,
but wish to live.
like a star,
and holy king.

2010-03-07T15:41:00.003+08:00

not seeing u is nothing,
missing u is everything.
cant tok to u is small thing,
but not hearing ur voice is bad thing.

the short little fishball face,
jumping up and down.
the hot temper
and weak little hair.

quarreling of small thing
and angry with big thing.
everything over
in just a simple night.

the 4 letter word
make a big stand here.
the word that nv gone,
miss.

2010-03-03T22:19:00.002+08:00

boring boring boring.
life without u is reali boring and meaningless.
how i which i can teleport.
to the place where u r now
haix. left my guitar with hong hao. and now he is not in singapore. sian. haix. wanting to write a song for her before she come back. so hope hh faster come back den i can take back my guitar from him. think next week onward will be choing wk ba. no life. without u reali is no life for me. haix.

a long wait,
hope is not waste.
a long call,
waiting for everlasting.

day and day pass,
hope i have success.
a wonderful day,
to make u proud.

came back with a smile,
is a long wait.
seeing u on the spot,
turn my mouth on.

3 word,
2 u,
1 meaning,
i love you.

Label: waiting for u to come back wor=))

2010-02-21T04:48:00.002+08:00

waiting:

out for a celebration,
back with a surprise.
calling the night all,
but just 1 of the call.

waiting in the loft,
hoping it to be more.
a lonely call,
make the whole thing off.

2010-02-16T21:29:00.003+08:00

happiness:
a bird in the sky seen untouchable,
flying to ur arm like king of the world.
feel like touching,
but it give u fear.
memory of everything,
is precious.
the world of happiness,
is in ur hand.
never keep it,
it the end.

broken glass:
a broken glass,
a darken sky.
no rain,
no goodbye.
wander soul,
going die.
once for all,
it's the last time.

2010-02-11T23:13:00.003+08:00

hi. very long never blog le. haha...
i didnt blog is becos i donno wat to blog about. however i feel very very down today. tat y i m here to write something.

let start with a story ba.
very long ago, there was a guy with a golden apple. many people said that the golden apple was a fairy's house, and so the guy nv eat the apple as he was waiting for the fairy to come. one day, he met a lady. the lady became very good with him. they start to be a very good friend. but one day the lady turn into a fairy and stay in the golden apple. the guy was very shock. but he was also very happy. cos he found the fairy. everyday he will tok with the fairy and play with her. but one day, the fairy was gone and nv came back. the guy was so sad that he got no mood everyday. everything that he was use to be good in, he didnt use it anymore. he turn himself into a useless person. one thing people say about that guy is he was so afraid to eat the apple again.

short story. haix.

i wander y all story will always come to a sad ending.

a happy starting,
an exciting going,
a bad ending.
turn a man a round

nv a good ending,
a happy going ,
a bad starting.
unless a falling star came.

a waiting person,
think that he was useless.
hoping for a change,
but hard to explain.

when he was needed,
he was helpless.
wanted to give the protection,
but he was rejected.

useless person,
useless world.
pity him,
but not the world.

a happy fairy,
a happy her.
but nv will he,
imagine a world without her.

to be afraid,
and keep on continue.
but nv will he
going to be serious.

anyhow de poem. lol. sound stupid. haix. time change a person so fast. how i wish i can reali travel back to the past. no pain no worry no sad. a world of joy and happiness. but i'm still living happily in this world. hope i can still stay like this forever.

2009-11-15T02:18:00.002+08:00

damn damn long nv blog le ba... nothing to blog so nv blog lor... but this 2 day felt very down.... i feel that i'm very useless.... haix... donno wat to say abt myself.... i donno y... thing that i said which is the same as thing that other ppl said make a different... wat i said like doesnt make sense but wat other said can make thing differently.... hence don u all think that i'm useless? i really disappointed with myself..... maybe not on my face but deep in my heart.... haix... this isnt the 1st time le.... it happened many time before.... but still i cant do better... that my fate? my life?...

label: you nv know how heartbroken i was.......

2009-10-17T16:30:00.002+08:00

do you know that what he had told you, is actually what i had been doing but i just never tell you. cant you sense it? remember what i had said before? i said that i will accept all the thing that it is from you, be it negative or postive, i also don't mind.
all right la..... chill... nothing much de la.... just feeling tired... need a rest le... haha.. cos just came back from camp.... ok ba... see u all soon...=))

Label: i know...

2009-10-06T15:15:00.004+08:00

booo.... very long never blog le wor... just come in write some nice poem that all... haha.. but today i will blogging ba...cos very bored now...

erm sure blog randomly ba.... well china trip was fun and exciting.... can say i really learn quite a lot of thing at there. like how to hand wash the clothes, cementing the wall, paint the wall, make tea, etc... lol... during the weekend, we went shopping sia... had bought alot of thing... but nv buy the shoe that i really want... sad... there cant find.. even if got also very ex... around 200 sing. ... haha... but never mind la... bought alot of thing can le...haha... went back singapore on the 28th sept.... the flight was delayed.... so we reach singapore at around 11plus. then bought 2 bottle of voka, 1 red wine and 9 can of heniken... woohoo... gonna drink it soon...haven't touch them yet..haha...

ok that all about china trip... haha... recently have been working.... this 2 day off... so went to accompany honey.... but 2day she will not be free... cause she going to hospital to visit her friend... so can't see her 2day le... sian...lol... then the follow 4 day also working... then also can see her... more sian...lol... ok la... then i think later jiu go out with jm they all ba... they say going to watch movie... hope can go out... or else very bored sia...lol...

k la.. bye everyone=))
Label: lucky=)

2009-10-03T01:24:00.003+08:00

我只想告诉
当你看到天上的星星时,
每一颗都是我在说我爱你.
当有整风吹过你时,
那是在说我想你.
当太阳的光照着你时,
那是我在拥抱你.
当天空在下雨时,
那是因为没有你在我身边我很寂寞.

Label:waiting for u wor!!!! LOL...

2009-09-07T00:14:00.002+08:00

天下父母亲,
爱儿女是天性.
当儿女谈感情,
年龄可是要担心.
姐弟谈情最吃请,
为何父母要小心.
只要他们是真心,
一定能感动父母心.

2009-09-05T11:48:00.003+08:00

woo.... every long nv blog le... my blog look dead.... haha.. some come here to blog lor... or else someone going to say why i nv blog de...lol... have been alot of day...so i sure say it randomly ba....\

14-28 of aug
i have been staying in the sch loft... studying for the exam and oso playing=)).. those day are wat i wont forget...cos some important tin happen to me on those day=))... i sure not elaborate ba...haha... exam finish we go east coast park cycle....

29and30 was resting at home.... haha

31/8

this was the day i go celebrate my honey birthday... she alway tot tat her birthday date was a cursed day to her.... cos many bad thing happen during her birthday... but i still bring her go out.... bring her to watch movie etc.... but nothing happen... but she say mayb not so fast...lol...

honey just to tell u i'm not scare... so don worry... i will be there for u if u need help....

1/9
went to sch ard 3 to help prepare the food for the camp on ubin.... after tat went to watch movie with clique.... quite funny movie and abit touching...cos some 1 beside me cry...lol....

2-4/9

have a horrible day at ubin.... boring also... but still make some friend....=)) have seen many beautiful scenery

4/9
went to meet my sec sch friend after i came back from ubin.. was tired but still wanted to make it for the gathering... cos it like once a year thing.... den went to meet them at suntec.. ard 7pm den meet dao them cos be4 tat they were singing k..lol... went to eat some buffet...lol... tat was not so bad.... den after tat leave early to look for honey... went to watch show with her... den coax her to slp den i leave....

that all ba.... still early to write abt 2day...lol... next time den say ba... take care every1....

Label: age=x

2009-08-31T11:52:00.001+08:00

happy birthday honey=))

2009-08-08T19:45:00.003+08:00

something wrong with me... i donno wat thing wrong.... but it just not me... i donno wat the sudden change in me.. tat make me dislike myself...in fact hate myself....haix.. has my tolerance reach it limit? or was it cos my carelessness and slip out of my control?... haix...... maybe i should be the 1 to say sorry ba... for been so cool or dao and fierce to u.... but, pls don force me to do thing anymore le how ma??... cos i know myself how well i am... i know u care for me.... but i just don like been force to do thing.....ya... u ask me to do i will do de.... but just don force me..... this should be the last time this tin happen le ok??? i'm sorry too... once u saw this msg me ok?=))

haix.. this should be blog at ytd nite de.... but lea... i just don feel like blogging ytd.... so i jiu go slp 1st lor..... den till now den blog.... tml national day le.. hereby wish singapore a happy 44th birthday 1st=)) haha..... tml maybe going to sch study 1st... den go watch firewk with my sch mate they all...lol.... maybe...cos not comfirm yet... haha... yeah... later go to play mahjong.. haha.. very long nv play with my family le lor....lol... haha... going to chop them 2day....haha... 2day nv go wk... den go extend my MC.... cos still got abit cough..... but i not going to MC myself from the mahjong de.... HAHAHAHA!!!!

ok ba... nth to blog le la... blog next time=))) byebye

Label: i'm SoRrY too
Label:MaHjOnG!i!i!i!i!

2009-08-06T20:03:00.003+08:00

yo yo... long time nv post le... know wat... i kanna h1n1 sia.... donno how i kanna de.... lol... but i now better le... at 1st got headache, fever, sore throat. den next day i got flu, back ache and cough.... den i no choice have to go see doctor.... but the doctor nv say anything lea... just give me 3 day MC... ask me stay at home... den eat he give de medicine den jiu OK le... i think is not h1n1 ba...lol.... past few day reali feel very terrible... the headache and fever is reali unbearable..... but i still pull through le.... haha... this 2 week got test, so got MC also no use. cos still have to for the test... i don wan to skip those small and easy test.. which can help me pull up my mark... so no choice i still go sch for the test lor...

haix...lol... like a lot of project to do sia... got to work hard for it le... ya...

ok ba... think i have to go rest early le ba.... bye everyone=))... will blog again next time de...=))
Label: don like the feeling of falling sick=X

2009-07-26T01:56:00.002+08:00

yoyoyoyo... long time no post le...haha,.. so i'm here to post again...

erm past few day de thing jiu don say le ba... cos was like doing project....
let tok abt 2day ba... haha...
firstly must thank wendy, yennting, jiameng, hong hao, sam and jeff... for celebrating my birthday at an advance 2day....
morning wake up at 10 am den go eat and go west mall meet them...sam, hh and jm 1st... den go eat swensene... lol... was quite ex ar... haha.. lol.. but nvm la... once a blue moon.. haha... after tat go sing k... haha... sing till very high.. and it very cheap also... worth it.. lol..sing till 8pm...den go west mall eat KCF... eat 2 piece chicken... den chat awhile... some thing shock me which was a surprise la... erm 3 girl walk in and give me a note.... and it say: " Bk, wish u an advance birthday.. meet u outside burger king" lol.... i tok wat thing sia... tok the girl wan date me... chey... lol.. but i think awhile i knew wat happen le...lol... den jiu go out lor....den yt and wendy was outside... lol... we play till very high lor..lol... but cos quite late le so play awhiile only...lol... chat awhile den go home le...lol.....
today was quite happy la.. thank alot to u all.. will rmb today

Label: i think it time i take off the necklace...

2009-07-17T13:18:00.004+08:00

haha being very long since i blog le... haha... 1st of all... will like to wish the twin happy birthday which is on the 13th july ... haha... cos nv blog den cant wish u on the day.... psps.... haha...

okok... actually suppose to have camp de... but cancel due to h1n1.... sian.... but nvm... cos the next camp they can get a loft for us...hope so...lol... haha... erm 2day nv go sch...cos wake up headach sia.... den got cough and flu... sian.. scare i ganna h1n1 lea.... my freind la... tat day ganna den still come sch... but that was like 1 week plus ago le lea... i think won ganna le la...lol.... haha...

erm have been slacking in sch since the sch reopen from holiday sia... sian.. think i reali have to start study le... or else cant score the target that i wan for my result le... sure start tml...haha.. got alot of project also... haha... reali gonna finish all this project by next week... den i can concentrate on study the rest of my project....haha...

many ppl maybe be asking how my life ba.. haha... erm i'm fine... been busy in sch, wk on weekend, and playing game at night... haha... erm can say i like no enough time for a lot of thing sia...haha... but i got to plan my time table again le... so any1 wan date me up pls 1 week at advance... best is b4 wed.... cos tat the time i need to write my schedule for my wk... haha..tat mean Mon, Tue and wed have to book me le... haha...

if u were to ask me,
i will say i donno.
being with this,
i will be gone.
trying to hold it,
stop my breathe.
i think tat is going to be the end.

tat all i going to say...byebye... book me ar=))haha..

Label: the end.

2009-07-06T22:20:00.002+08:00

yoyoyo... haha... here i'm blogging again...

erm been busy playing dota this feel day... have not been playing since quite few month le... lol... erm but i still got study hard and wk hard..lol...
last sat went to sch help mr lee with some workshop thing.... den went to meet wendy, stephy and yennting with lionel, hong hao, jiameng and ian...lol... erm went to escape this time... finally the sky is bright de..lol... but play half way it rain again...den we went to have our lunch.... awhile later it stop le...lol....den we continue playing... lol.. wan to play the hunted house de... but some of them scare...don wan go....den not fun de....lol... we have been playing the pirate ship tilll alot of time lor.... till we know the person incharge and wat they need to say.... lol... play till i and hong hao want vomit lor...lol... but fun... haha...erm stephy left 1st cos she meeting her friend..... erm den we play till 8pm .. cos it close le.... den no choice lor... we jiu left for our dinner at ehub.. the bbq resturant.... cos we got the free meal... the combo we buy from the escape entrance.... den eat le wendy left cos she also meeting other ppl.... den we slack awhile at gerela... den go home... erm the day was ok ok ok la...lol...

den sun jiu slack at home lor... Mon which is 2day... have lesson at 8am... slp for the 1st hour during lesson... cos damn bored... hate lecturing.... arrrgg... wake up le cant slp liao...den no choice play com lor...lol.... den play awhile jiu go do some assignment tat we were told to do..... den after lesson i jiu end sch le... went to look for jm they all... den went for lunch with them lor... den jiu go watt up slack awhile... den jm they got lesson... den i nothing to do.. accompany yt awhile lor... den wendy came look for us.... but awhile later i leaving le...cos looking for sam for pcn project.... den do till 4 like tat we jiu watch movie tat sam download...lol... cos donno how to do le...lol..den went home at 5plus.... have dinner... den jiu play dota with Sam le... play til very bad... haix... sad... lol.. den here i'm blogging...lol...

haha... a lesson for u all :
生气是拿别人的错来惩罚自之
the real opponent is yourself
success is not final, failure is not fatal
failure is the beginning of Ur success
learn from ur mistake and and not fall for the mistake
nv give up so easy. cos when there a will there a way
nothing is impossible but not all is possible as well.

haha... actually there is many more de...but suddenly cant rmb..lol... haha... haix suddenly feel so lost inside here... i still haven feel the rite time yet... wait for it ba.. although it is irritating but i just have to bear with it... tat all ba..=)).. ok ba.. nothing to say here le... bye everyone.. and take care=))

Label: the lost inside here...

2009-07-03T10:16:00.003+08:00

hehe... now suppose to be in sch de... but i pon my 1st 2 lecture... now at home.... cos i too tired le... reali... being busy with my work, study, outing with friend... everyday very late den slp... i think it time i plan my schedule le.... haix....

ok.. let say abt fish and co ppl ba.. lol... ppl there are quite friendly except some of them la.. erm some of the manager are not nice... lol... but it like tat de la... in a management team there is alway a few black sheep de ma.... haha....

haix... not very please with my result... haix... 2 test... ECAM i got 68 only... which is a (c)... did quite badly... haix... and for EMD... the teacher is a fuc-ker..... na bei... purposly go look for other ppl mistake... den minus mark.... wtf... i got 95 for the subject... surpose to be full mark de la.. cos unit nv rite... and some more is not the ans unit nv rite lor... chee bye.... lol..... den later still got ECM test... haix... sad sad sad la... later got to study le....

a close play
make a feeling.
to get it
need a planning.
it being hit
and being staying down there.
only an fairy
could save it back.

haix... so fast time past le... and it July le... tat mean it the 7 month le... lol... time reali past very fast... haix... i just hate time past so fast... haix... don say abt it le la....

haha.... erm boring sia.... i think i got to choose a day where i rest for the whole day le....lol... being tiring myself for nothing lor..... haix.... bad bad bad... lol.... sian,... have not being playing my guitar for like a w eek le... due to my guitar ganna tuned by some1 ... and i donno how.... sad sad sad.... haix,.,... but no choice... i think need to save money to go buy a tuner le lor... sad sia... haix... wtf.... if not everytime cannot play... arrr!!!!... lol... erm ok la ... i going to study le...next time den update my life...lol cya...

Label: went back to the past hao ma?

2009-06-24T23:50:00.000+08:00

yoyoyo.... haha... erm 1st of all... happy birthday stephaine=))... haha... hope u enjoy the day with us and like the present we gave u=))... lol...

ok quite a few day nv blog le... but it just normal la... have been wking lor.. but on mon(22/6/09) when ktv with bros(ps and hl)... lol... when k garden at sergrangoon garden there... at 1st we tok we were lost lor... but ended up found the place...lol... there reali quit cheap lor... 10 per person only... if more maybe a bit cheaper lor... abit la... cos 1 person is 6.90 on weekday la... week end is 9.90... but add the mike charge and tibit charge and severice charge ended up 3 person sing cost 10.50 like tat...lol.. quite cheap rite...lol...some more is like sing from 2pm to 8pm anre d include 2 drink... much more worth it den kbox rite...lol... next time wan sing k sould go there sia...lol...

erm den tue i was wking..morning i meet bros again... at 1st just wan slack only... ended up go eat lunch and den play bball...lol...den went home change den go wk... till night go meet jm , lionel and wendy for supper... lol... went to lao pa sa eat.. only i and lionel buy food to eat.. cos wendy and jm don feel like eating...lol...but we all share la...haha... ard 1plus like tat den go home..lol...

today lea... wake up very early... ard 9.30... actually don feel like waking up de... but no choice... have to wake up... cos going out...den have to go do my passport.... but some thing happen ended up nv do.. den go ps hand something to my manager... den chat awhile with my manager den go ps walk awhile... look for stephy present..den went to pasir ris le...lol.. erm meet lionel 1st... cos he at there le... the rest was still at bugis or at outram!!!!!.....lol... den play acrade while waiting for them lor... awhile steph and jm and hh reach le... left yt... haix.. don believe me will be so punctual sia...aiyoyo..., haha... den at the end all reach le... have our lunch cum breakfast at superdog...lol... after tat when to escape... but too sad...it was raining... haix... so escape have to postpone to next sat...lol.... but we went for 1 hr of bicycle riding, playing true or dare(actually only true) for abt 1hr or more than tat...cant rmb clearly..lol... den wait for kk and wendy... den jiu go celebrate stephy birthday.... lol... photo ma... lazy to post up...some more i don have.. it all in my facebook...lol.... after tat actually wan go bar de... but at the end donno y nv go le... den slack ard... till stephy wan go home le...den i and kk go home with her... lol.... the taxi uncle reali like tat the 1 big round den go reach la... i was like a bit stun lor... cos i not very sure if i'm rite ma... as i not reali very good with the road... but i know only abit... den i nv say anything... lol... but after awhile it like reali don look reali good... but i and kk also nv say anything... cos we donno if is it reali correct anot... later ma lu...lol... but when reach stephy say last time is around the same price... den we jiu nv say anything lor...lol... at the end send her up le... den i and kk take bus to bb interchange... den we jiu go seprate way le... lol... den reach home ard 12plus like tat... lol...

to stephy: don be sad le...it ur birthday u should enjoy ok... cheer up=) hope u like the present=)).... and enjoy the day...lol.... last but not least... happy birthday=))

ok that all abt today...lol... erm just to add on some thing... it been the 3rd day tat i haven been touching my guitar le... haix... sad... still learning shuo hao de xin fu... hope after this i reali can start learning canon in d le... jia you... haha.. ok le la... actually now is 2.28 am le... got to slp le.. bye....

Label: happy birthday to stephy=)
Label: to be or not to be

2009-06-18T23:59:00.002+08:00

hahaha... very long nv blog le hor=))... lol.. so I'm here to blog or else some ppl say i nv blog le...lol...

erm now is holiday=))... finally common test ended... but it was just a small test la... exam is the big picture... so still have to prepare for it=)).... erm b4 the common test, lol... it was like having fun la...lol... erm 1 week b4 the test our teacher organize a camp for us... it was mend for us to study de.... however... we that this camp like having a free chalet...lol.. but food we provide ourselves and no BBQ la....lol....the place we stay is call loft@94.... we stay inside is like a normal 3 room flat with 3 bedroom, a living room and a kitchen.... can u imagine it... it was like a house for us la...lol... OK.. erm inside we of cos do study la.... but after we reali study finish, of cos is time for us to play la...lol... we play mahjong ar, poker card ar, drink wine ar... lol.. all slot of thing we can think of and possible to do without getting any complain we jiu will try to do.. we even have ktv section at night...lol... funny like hell la... o ya... forgot to mention... ppl i have been with during this camp are: Me,kinkwok,jiameng,honghao,lionel,samuel,royston,ian,wendy,stephaine,yennting. lol... we study together and play together.... haha... of cos we didnt reali slp alot even the night b4 the test, i and Lionel also slpt the least...lol....overall the camp is fun, but this isn't a good word to say la...cos it was mend for us to study de...lol... so shouldn't have fun la...lol...after the camp have 2 day rest at home... however it was like rotting at home la..lol...
first day of holiday, it have a outing with hh, jm, kk, lionel, wendy, stephy and yennting. too bad short of sam and roy...lol... went to watch ghost of girlfriend past. not bad. very romantic show. however this show like affect me ar.. make me thing of the past...haix... but i reali like the show very much=)).. overall nice...4/5 rate...
b4 the movie we went to a cafe and chat... celebrate hh birthday as well... he ganna shock...haha... lol... how he like the day...lol... after tat we chat till the time for the show...
after the show we went to walk awhile den have our dinner... but stephy went home 1st... cos her mum will worry...lol.... we jiu went to thai express to settle our dinner... however i and kk nv eat.. cos house got cook...=))... den after tat jiu go home le... i went home alone... but they wait for me...lol... thank guy... i only know yennting go home with other guy... den the rest went to opposite side take bus home...lol... went home den eat play com den jiu slp le...lol...
next day went sch for stupid thing. den went interview den went home le..
the following day start wk le.. quite boring lor.... cos new ma... nv make dao alot of friend yet.. cum there isn't alot of ppl coming to eat yet... wk till 11 den went home le...
today, same lor.... wk as usually... but got sam accompany me today...lol.. but still abit bored lor.. cos we both got our own thing to do...he busy i jiu very free.. i busy he jiu abit free...lol...den like tat lor... wk till 11 also... tml wking same shift also... lol.. i think meeting up with loft grp tml... but not comfirm yet...lol... c how lor.. haha..

erm i notice something. a person who look strong actually is quite weak inside, however those who look weak , they are weak...(i not refering to strength or muscle all this).. it is these strong ppl who reali need alot of support, encouragment and help from family and friend.

okok tat all i wan to say... i also donno want say wat le... suddenly forgot every thing...lol.... next time den blog ba...lol...

Label: a promised promise.
Label: shou hao de xin fu ne, i learning it tab=)) hope to play it to u=))

2009-06-04T01:19:00.002+08:00

yoyo... back to blog le... haha... one camp have end and yet another camp waiting for me le... haha...
i reali going to study hard le... exam coming in another 4-5 day le.... wawawa... donno if can score anot... reali wish i can get 4 point sia... reali wish.... hope i can score well.... wish me good luck also ok....=)) hahaha...

notice tat watever i had learn for guitar i can use it now sia... haha... but now i want to learn quite a few song... canon in d, more than word and here without you... going to use 1 minth plus to choing all this...=))... haha... hope i can learn it as soon as possible...wah haha....

ok going to bed soon le...haha... nights=))...

Label: a sense of heavenly?

2009-05-27T23:50:00.002+08:00

yoyoyo... miss this word ba...haha... wa it been a busy day for me sia... i mean this few day.... haha... erm busy studying and teaching ppl.... i feel tat i like been very hardworking sia.... lol... actually i play even harder...haha... erm and i serious of getting 4 point this time...

haha... i had told myself... not to continue my past de footstep anymore... got to be like how i study in sec life... study hard and play hard le... and not pon-ing anymore lesson just to accompany friend le.... haha... cum this few day got alot of camp coming... haha.. so i wo be blogging for quite some time unless something happen lor...haha...

btw i miss playing guitar.. my guitar like rotting le...lol... after common test i got to play le.. i swear... haha..

wat does it mean? is it a change of joy or another disappointment? i donno... i'm confuse... i donno wat to do... seriously.. wat can i do and wat i shouldn't do i reali donno le... maybe i too tired this few day le ba... got to rest more le ba...

what you say is what i want.
giving you without any chance.
shock to you make to laugh.
hope this the only last.

got to slp le ba... tml quiz... wish me good luck.... =))

Label: can i fall in love again??

2009-05-25T00:20:00.002+08:00

hi, here i'm blogging again...lol... bored sia... want to go slp soon le... suddenly feel so sian... donno y also... all right... let tok abt some tin ba... lol...

erm this few day still de same lor.. reali focusing on study... lol... so long nv meet out with some of my friend, den when my friend ask we wat i have been doing this few week, and i say studying they like don believe sia...lol... maybe i had change alot le ba...lol.. think abt it.. i last time like don study de, cos of... but now so hardworking in study le den they don believe lor..lol... erm not only studying la... now i starting to go gym le.. cos i signing on for the army.... hence need to go take my nafa 1st...lol.. sound not like a good idea rite... but no choice lor... haha... want earn some money while studying ma... some more i can focus more on study..haha...
wa that day go gym was like killing sia.. i think i over myself le... i let musle pain for 3-4 day liso still haven ok yet...lol... i think i last time lack of this kind of training tat y i like tat ba...lol.. so i going to train more le...muhahaha... aiming for my pull up is 14 time standard pull up jiu ok le... tat is an 'A' for nafa... lol... i wan to get all 'A' for my nafa sia.. den can get bonus money...lol...
ok other then study and gym, i like got alot of camp now...lol... next week got study camp again.. but tat is for the student leader if EE de,.. hence i have to go...lol... den after tat got common test camp...lol.. tat is to go sch study lor.... so i can no need go home den go sch again ..like very mafan like tat.... so i jiu go for tat camp lor...lol..den can shun bian study with my friend.haha...
erm i like very busy hor... haha... but not reali la... cos there still so free time... those free time is reali for me to relax.. like go play bball.... but these free time is very less...cos most of it was use to study with friend... lol.... i seen like a nerd now sia... study study study...lol... but not reali ok.... lol... cos i not only study i also play very hard ma...haha..

it was u
who lock the door
when u leave
but now
i afraid to open the door
to let any one come in

ok ba...i going to slp le... next time den blog ba...haha... nite readers...

Label: studying hard and playing hard.

its u who cause me to put a stop to me...
since tat day and maybe forever

2009-05-18T10:22:00.002+08:00

yoyo long time nv blog le...loll... was very busy this few day... haha.. today nv go sch... cos over slp cum there is only 1 lesson... so nv go lor...lol.... i donno y my alarm nv ring....stupid alarm clock.... lol.... erm 2 day reali feel like resting at home.. don wan go any where le... cos past few week like nv slp dao..... but later i have to go and get a MC 1st..so still have to go out awhile lor...sian..lmao.....

maybe all the study i doing now tired me out le ba....lol... past few night i was thinking... i doing all this now to tired myself is it worth it?seriously, i donno... i just don feel like thinking anything, scare will make me go to a path tat i will regret again.... seriously la... study is reali wat i want now.. but to make myself tired to stop thinking, maybe is just for a time been only la...but i donno how long more.. haix...hope it will be over soon... =[x]

ok..tml i will be going for an interview to sign on for army.... wish me luck...haha.. cos if i get it... i can no need wk during my ploy time.. as i can forcus on my study le... muhaha... cos they will me paying me while i'm studying....haha... and every sem i past all my subject i get additional $1200...wahahaha.. lol... but i cant wk to earn extra income unless the job is no cpf de... but no cpf de job i feel tat no good lea... cant make a saving for myself when i grow old.... sian.... but will think abt it 1st lor.... hope i can get the army sign on 1st.... den consider if wan get any other part time job... haha.. wish me good luck ar...

ok just took a quiz from this site: http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

that my result.. i feel tat almost all i agree except some part of the seriousness of my love. am i so flirt and seductive? lol... and i'm very serious in choosing some to be with... lmao... lol...

haha... past few day was having study camp... fri to sun...teaching those year 1 de ppl lor... lol.. i wasnt tat good at engmec... but while i teach i suddenly know all le...lmao..lol....ltech also.. i like know all also sia,...lol.. funny... some of them is reali waant study de.. but some is like just come to ton de... playing all the while lor... haix... it their ducture anyway... so i don care.. just care for those who are serious in studying..lol... erm and during this 3 day was the day that i was thinking abt wat i have been doing lor...lol.. ok don tok abt it le... erm overall the study camp is fun and worth it... but lea... no food provided and mr lee keep on change the schedule tat i and jm plan b4 the camp de.... causing the whole camp not reali well organize... but it still ok la.... and there will be another camp for me too... is for year 2 de student leader study camp.... den i and my sch clique maybe planning another study camp for our own de... we will be studying hard and playing hard...haha...

ok la.. going to see doctor le..... next time den blog...haha.. wish me good luck...

Label: when will it be?
Label: good luck=))

2009-05-09T01:48:00.002+08:00

1st of all, hereby have an advance wish of all the mother in the world a happy mother day....=)) kai su abit cos donno when will be my next time i will be blogging again..... haha...

ok... now the time is 1.50am le.... an i not feeling tired... donno y sia...lol.. just cant fall aslp and was like alot of thing flashing in my mind...lol.... ermm..... so i gonna blog till i tired...lol...

later got to wake up at 10am.. cos going celebrate mother day at an advance with my aunties and grandma... erm my mum side de la.... lol... father side de.... donno when...lol.... tin later will be another boring day ba..... haix....

erm currently i was reali studying sia....during this few day,...lol... finally i understand a chapter tat was study by myself... after this 1year pplus de ploy life... it the 1st time i understand a chapter.... lol.... tat y i said, i have been slacking all the while last year.... haix... i reali aiming for very high score this time... got to wk hard Boon Kiat!!!. JIA YOU!!! i gonna get a gpa of 3.9 at least... my target... haha... okok.. i had make a deal with myself... if i cant get it... the 1st 2 week of holiday i won go out... hahaha.... stay at home rot.... haha.... DEAL!!!!

haha... tat my deal of myself...lmao... like idiot rite... tat wat ppl say me sia... sad.. she know who she is...lol... nah just joking;...lol... btw i just love the song photograph alot.... but..... it bring memory back to me.... lol....

Every memory of looking out the back door.
I had the photo album spread out the bedroom floor,
It's hard to say it, time to say it,
Good-bye! Good-bye!

Every memory of looking out the front door,
I found the photo of the friend that i was looking for,
It's hard to say it, time to say it.
Good-bye! Good-bye!

tat my memory ba...lol... not gonna say much abt it.... haha
now i notice something....lol... when wan to say something tat u don think is nice to say out... or like is boring to just say out... it best to make it into a poem...lol.... i feel tat making poem is fun... nice... and interesting....ya....lol... with it emo de or happy de also fun, nice and interesting to do...lol.. haha... next time all my feeling will be in poem ba...haha... if i can make it into 1.....lol....

lamo... still not tired sia... sian... haha.... nowadays.... dota abit sian le... nv play like for going 3 week le...in sch also nv play le...lol... now in sch... erm like not as fun as b4 le.... i not refering to the lesson la... i mean my mate.... other den like some time joke ard... no other event le... all like abit scattered le... sian.... example... some time they go find friend during break or after sch... like no more bonding le.... haix.... sian...

erm..... i still thinking,... other den studies now, wat my other target..... haix... alot of thing are just asking in my mind.. like angel and demon quarreling with one another on my head like tat sia.... erm maybe i think i still need time ba... as it still not yet recovered..... maybe some more time ba....

if the pain and the hurt,
are just as deep as the sea.
the scar and memory,
will always just be there.

ok ba... i think i better force myself to slp ba... if not tml sure tired de....lol... bye everyone.....

Label: memory?

the photograph

2009-05-07T00:23:00.002+08:00

hi... here to blog again.. lmao..... sian... some time some thing just make me very like no mood.... haix...

life are just fill with up and down,
cherish the up and learn from the down.
we were born in an unfair world,
but it doesn't matter.

learn to cherish,
make u happy.
study the mistake,
make life better.

so our life is just study.... study the everything ard u... not only the mistake tat u make... and also those success and happiness tat u have been thru.... thing abt it, i'm still learning... i want to make my life better... but it still the matter of time. however, after so many month of trying, i think i reali tired...is it the time to give up making my life better? NO!!!!! i think ii just need a break...preharp, a short break ... haix.... i maybe have numb myself enuf le ba... all the busy wk in sch, teaching tution to make my time occupied, staying back in sch to play or study all these, playing bball with bro, playing guitar at home, etc... i think i should stop all this for abt 1 or 2 week ba....

i need a long rest will do!!!!!

haix... nothing much to say le ba... bye guy..... want to go enjoy pls call me ...... i want to reali enjoy myself for awhile....

Label: REST

我的爱还在吗？

2009-05-04T20:29:00.004+08:00

all righ... done with my new blogskin... nice?....lol... i think ok only la... if not cos there is something wrong with my previous skin i lazy to change de lor....lol...
today nv go sch... wake up headache,.. cum my back have been aching since sat le.. den i suspect is dengue fever... but no fever lea... want to go sch de... cos don wan miss lesson cum today got presentation to do... but my mum ask me stay at home... den i jiu stay at home lor... but sian... scare will deduct my mark den cant get 4 point le.... haix... hope my MC can excuse me....
afternoon ard 2pm den i go see doctor..cos everytime morning i go oso alot of ppl must while slp awhile more den go see doctor...
wah afternoon oso alot of ppl sia... and hg ployclinic has renovate till quite nice...lol... wait till like going 5pm den my turn.. den the doctor like rush train like tat.. very kan jion.. den ask me wat happen den any how check me den ok le...just give me some pain relive de medicine and headach de medcinie and donno wat medicine de... den jiu ok le... it like............ dotsx la....aiyoyo... den go get my medicine den jiu go home le....
at home wan study de... but head pain till no mood to study....haix... next mon den do my revision again ba... haixhaix.....

look like i reali have fall sick le... after so long of "suffering" ba.... like wat my blog say... i may look strong... but i'm weak inside...... i think i need to go have my medicine le... bye bye reader... next time i den blog ba.... bye...

Label: still can't figure out wat it is... and still donno wat i want...

maybe there isn't le ba

2009-05-03T23:37:00.003+08:00

a falling night is when i a wander soul appear.
tired thought is what the soul are running away from.
life of the soul are bad and disappointed.
and the soul are now being appear.

running and running,
hiding and hiding.
but thing away being in the way.
full of tiredness is what i can say.
thing that i left are nothing but pain.

seriously, I'm a bit tired... tired of what?. haha... tired of wandering no where and just studies... know what... suddenly i was like lost... in what way? lost of my target... like lost everything in my life... i was like...... i donno how to explain.... i was like the wandering soul... wandering around doing nothing with no sense of direction some more..... seriously... i feel like giving out everything now... cos i was like start to feel tired.... i donno how to explain my feeling now.... a wandering soul is just an example but is not total what i mean.... haix...

.....................................................

life are just unpredictable....haix... i was like a bit stressed up le ba.... i donno... i just too.... i donno how to explain.... haix don say le la.... mayb i'm too tired ba... go to rest now le... good nite...

Label: what kind of feeling is this!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Label: is this another kind of pain? the numb one?

does love still exist in my dictionary?

2009-04-27T22:42:00.002+08:00

a long friendship, that don't know if it still exist.
a love that were deep, floated on the sea.
life of unexpectation, that shoke us.
and a friendship that u wander, so do i.

haha.... a poem tat i sudden think of... lol... actually this poem cant say is abt love la.. but also cant say there is nothing to do with love... let u all guess.. haha... erm inspiration from someone blog... lol.... haha,... erm so go all my link see if u can see the same inspiration as me ba... wahahaha...

lol... erm that abt my poem ba.... erm haven been blogging for like a week le... erm can say i no time or busy in study... cum everyday come home abit tired le... so jiu don feel like blogging.... erm i don wish to blog abt wat thing happen la... cos if going to say abt everything it can take me a day sia... lol... erm shall say randomly ba...

erm this few day have been busy studying... and i reali is studying hor!!!... lol... if u ask me y a sudden of wanting to focus on study...lol... cos i notice i had been very slack in last 2 sem le....damn slack... got chance to pon tan sch jiu pon tan... ended up, nearly get suspend by the lecture due to attendance no meet... but lucky, i some how meet the requirment of the attendance needed...lol.. and cos of some other reason which i don wish to say la... so i tell myself, wat past is past, those past tat causes me to be like tat will be my past. and it will be a past tat teach me some thing,... haha ...ok so wish me luck as i aim to score a gpa of 4 point sia... look like i set a very high target sia... and i like have make the 1st step toward my target sia.. cos today my friend was playing game will i was studying.. although i got play a while but when it loading for the game which is damn long, i was tdoing the home wk sia... i cant believe myself tat i did it....lol.. cos slacking have been like an addiction to me le... hope i can reali get over this slacking habit...haha.....

erm ok la... don wish to say more le la.. will update u all some more maybe tml ba...haha... cos going to slp le..haha... erm ya i still training some song on guitar... hope can play new song soon...haha.. bye bye...

Label: and i wander too.......

2009-04-20T22:38:00.002+08:00

hi... sian sch start le... wat to do... 1st day of sch jiu got project to do le... no mood at all.. fcuk.... btw i saw ying ting in my class today...lol.. 1 year of sch in ngee ang 1st time saw her in sch sia...lol.... damn it.. next week have to present the project le.. haix... stupid subject... tat last for 4 hr and teacher toking bullshit.. errrr..... cant stand it.. den expect us to do the project by next week and present... errr!!!!!... don tok abt it le... haix...
end sch meet class mate.... at first tok all going to pizza hut and eat de... but at the end.. only me jia ming samual and jeffery go eat only.. every time eat only 4 person de... sian sia... and mostly i and sam..... dotx... eat finish le play pool ... but jeff go for his stupid cannoing 1st... stupid.. train train train.... train so much also like tat....lol...but any way... good luck for ur incoming competition... haha... must win hor,.... if not i laugh at u till sia hor.,...
erm today pool... realise tat i like deprove le... may be quite long nv play le ba... but still manage to catch up the score with sam... haha... erm but was disappointed with my skill today la... preharp... cos thinking of other think when playing ba... haix....

erm my previous post, i think i had offended her... but seriously, i didnt mean it de.. serious... i not laughing tat it was ur retribution... but watever it is... there isnt any offend on it... sorry if cos any misunderstanding..... sorry....

got to go and slp le ba... tml schooling at 9am... cya....

Label: sorry

2009-04-19T01:31:00.002+08:00

haix.. suddenly feel like blogging again... something make me down suddenly... feeling very down now... haix... i donno wat to say...

some time i was thinking.. was it her bao ying... not to mention who.. was thinking.. alot of thing... or wat happen to her was my bao ying.... she sad i sad. she is down i;m feel down too... ya.. she has past just a few month.. wat abt me... it going to be half year le... wat i got.... nothing ba... just an empty promise ba...

thing have changes alot... i reali miss the past.... if u ask me wat i regret the most now.. i will ans: nv cherish the past... the 1 i love the most which i nv love tat much b4... the 1 friend i have ard me, all the past... all the happy moment tat i nv cherish... tat wat i regreted the most...

haix.. the the problem with us ba.. the human being... once lost den u know wat is important... this phrase reali make sense... now i know wat important.. and i reali going to carry on cherish it now.. hope everything will be fine for me soon...
btw i falling sick again le... cant fall aslp also... feeling abit hot hot de.. and stomach not feeling well also.. i think i try go make myself slp ba.. don wish to think le... bye reader... hope i can feel better tml...

label: an punishment to me ma?or it for her retribution?

song song song.. guitar guitar guitar.. it the only way to numb me know.

2009-04-18T15:36:00.004+08:00

hihihi... how u guy?...haha...long time no see me ar... not i lazy this time... is cos i very busy the past few day..... can say i got enjoy abit during the past few day... but i can also say i feeling both emotionally and physically tired....
ok during the day b4 13th, was play bball in the morning with hl bro they all... erm there is 1 night went to accompany hl. cos something bad happen to him... i think i should not mention it ba... cos if i mention i will remember of my past..... b4 the 13th, was having a life where morning play basketball, afternoon play com till night... ya...
on the 13th...haha.. was a camp tat i have been waiting for... sorry hl bro cant accompany u all go play bball.... ps.... report to sch at 11am... prepare all the thing needed for tml.. ya.. den practice our dance at night till 11pm and den bath le have our supper... with some friend,.. come back watch some show den slp le..
on the 14th
it was the offical FOC EE Camp...haha.. i was asign to act as an new comer to bring the new comer in... den after tat... we were divide into group... the sl have already have their group.. so the new comer just go to the group to meet us... my group is call astro... each group is futher divide into two more group.. and the group tat come with me, ken, luqman and zhao fan is call astro rocket... haha.. have some ice breaker game at first... den for lunch... den back to have some game den went for dinner... den get them to make some cheer and dance... but we only manage to do the cheer 1st... haha... ok... den have our advanture game... till like 10 plus den went for our bathing.. den we sl have to go for meeting... lol.. alot of meeting de... den we went to bath le..den go meet my group cos they planning their dance... till like 2 am... den we ask them to slp... then i go slp le... cos too tired...
15th
it was the 2nd day of camp.. wake up at 7 am... was told to wake up at that time... or else wanted toslp longer de...lol.. den bring them have thier breakfast... den bring them go practice their dance again... most of the time was i toking and the new comer toking... follow by luqman and ken den zhao fan....den after 1 hr of pratice, they were divided into their own classes... and i was assgin to b13... play some game with them till have lunch.. den after tat was water game.. water game was in group... haha... it was the funnest.... i like this part the most.... wah... but i was being raped....lol... ny the new comer...lol... ok let me explain... when the game was about to end... all my group de new comer come and grap me... making me wanting to fall.. till the 5th guy come grap me.. i cant tah han le.. den i fall...lol.. den they rape me with water... .... and there was mud la.... wth hell.. lucky can wash alway the mud... haha... of cos i get to revenge la... at the battle ship station...which was my station... i get to splash water at them.... haha... song ar.,... ok... den the last game.. was water bomb... haha.. we do the water bomb and throw at them... hahaha,.. fun... den went to wash up.. den have our dinner.... after tat was to go for the dance practice again.... den we sl go for our practice.... so sian... haha.. we tok we cant make it for the dance.. cos was like to rush for us as we got no time to learn...ya... den no choice lor... ok... the new comer do their dance and cheer 1st... den there is some special program.. some singing... haha.. den it the sl turn to dance... woohoo... ended out.. it was ok... we all was ok with the dance.. haha... no camp fire... donno why.. den have our supper... after tat was light off le... but, we nv slp... i went to change 1st...den come down meet the new comer... play some game with the new comer.. at 1st only 5 of us... 2 girl 3 guy... include me... hahahaah.... of cos with a acceptable 1 la... but not choi de.. only acceptable only... which mean slightly above average... slightly.... ya... den play with them the whole night...actually wanted them to slp de.. but cos... if they slp they will ganna drawing on their body.. so they scare till don dare to slp..lol.. ar going to 7am i cant tah han cos too bored le... den slp with kk and 1 guy donno wat name in the hall...where the new comer slp... den kk and the guy ganna draw but i nv..lucky...haha.. den i wake up... saw them ganna draw...lol...
on the 16th...
which was the last day.. haix..think tat it was last day le jiu sian... cos have to leave the girl le...lol... ok.. nothing much on this day..just some breifing... and take some goodies bag...that all... den reach home around 5 plus..den bath awhile slacj awhile.. have dinner...den slp till the next morning le... which is ytd...hahah...wake up eat play com... add alot of ppl in both facebook and msn...lol.....

ya... tat all the enjoyment i have... but i'm tired.. for physically u can tell le ba... .all those game...lol... ya... for emotionally... i don think i wan to say so much le.. let me think abt it 1st....
kk ba..noothing to blog le... tok to u all next time... byebye...hahaa....

label:tired in both physically and emotionally

2009-04-09T23:03:00.003+08:00

halo... here i'm again.... lol.... nah..boring..nothing to do, so here i'm bloggin as i cant slp anyway..wahahaha... actually don wish to blog on ytd and today de... cos i think i will blog emo thing....lol.... haix...

hhm... let see.. interview a job this afternoon with hl bro. sake ssushi..haha.. hope they can post us to hg point..near ma...haha... but tml den know the ans if they wan hire us ma... it like tat de la.. so wait tml lor..hope it a good news...hahaha....
today my dad very scary sia.. so angry.. cos of my sis... haix.... hope thing getting better...

erm.... donno want to blog wat le...haha.... don blog le la... next time i den blog...lol...

label: let cherish the future=)) look forward!!!

it will be 5/3year and it being 4 month

2009-04-06T23:48:00.003+08:00

yo... long time no c le ba...muhahaha.. lazy and nothing to blog this few day.. but cos very boring now... so here i'm blogging...muhahahaha...

sian i injury my arm this morning when i playing basketball... still can lift up my arm but will pain.... ya... sad... erm recently have being playing basketball, play guitar... haha.. last week just celebrate my small sis birthday.... bring her go watch hotle for dog...lol.. was quite nice.... at 1st go watch the movie tok will be very sian... but ended up.. still not bad...haha... can go see....

sian... being very tired for alot of thing recently....tok life will be better.. but doesnt seen so without a job now... haix.... tired tired tired,... tired of waking up early play basketball just to train... tired of staying at home. at the same time not feeling like going out.... tired of being alone le....... tired of boredom... etc etc...... haix...

still.. the past is the past...miss the past alot... studying together.... drinking together... wk at nite together.. going out together... playing basketball happily with carefree.... go out watch movie.... still my sec life is better.... doesnt mean my ploy friend not good... but wat i mean is that i miss the fun i have during the sec life..... doesnt mean just in sch.... like wat i mention go out watch movie, having chalet playing true or dare.. play card...lol... all this... erm..... still the past is the past.... tat y i say... mermory won be forgotten.... and some of it will be my most percious one...

haix... life is like tat... nv cherish the past and u will regret in the future... now i reali realise the important of cherish some thing.. in fact some one.... wat to do... it past le.. so i just have to look forward for the future and cherish every thing every sec..... so i won live with more regret anymore... hate living in the world of regret...

sian 2 more week and my sch going to start le... on the 20th april... and it going to be my sch reopen le....arrr1!!! time pls sstop...i haven earn sao money yet.... arrrr..... cant enjoy in ploy if i got no money... sian... some more my fncking pay haven come yet.. 1month plus le lea.. still haven come.. hear tat they have sent the time slot to the finance department le... they are settling asap le... hope i can get my pay soon.. so i can pay my bill... arrr!!!!...sian sian sob sob.. haix....

k ba..nothing to blog le.. tml playing guitar the whole day i think..lol.... train for the song lucky by jason marz de.... hope i can play it... arrrr..... bye bye... see me next time.. muhahahaha...

Label:cherish every moment i have now....

2009-03-31T01:05:00.005+08:00

ok back to blog again... cos notice something... it a complicated thing. and it give me an idea of a song...i will just call it heng tong de ai qing.

ji de ma,
wo men zai yi qi de ri zi.
wan le ma?
wo meng shi zhe me gou ri zi.
tong heng...,
tong heng ni suay wo de na shi ke.
bu neng,
bu neng mei you ni de chun zai,
heng tong....
na shi heng tong de ai qing
shui neng.
zai ba wo tai hui guo qu.

ni..... de yin zi.. yi jin bian de heng wo hu le ar.
wo xian zai.. zhao hui, wo meng yi qian de guo qu..
yin wei wo..... yi jing kuai wan le, yi que
yin wei ni... yi jing bu zai wo sheng bian..

tong heng...,
tong heng ni suay wo de na shi ke.
bu neng,
bu neng mei you ni de chun zai,
heng tong....
na shi heng tong de ai qing
shui neng.
zai ba wo tai hui guo qu.

yin wei ni yi bu zai wo shen bian hao jiu,
wo you bu neng mei u ni de chun zai,
wo hao ai ni, you hao xiang ni,
sou yi wo, xiang zao hui wo meng heng tong de ai qing.

wooo owoooo

ni..... de yin zi.. yi jin bian de heng wo hu le ar.
wo xian zai.. zhao hui, wo meng yi qian de guo qu..
yin wei wo..... yi jing kuai wan le, yi que
yin wei ni...
yin wei ni yi jing bu zai wo sheng bian ..

seriously this song is inspiration by some one... not me la... haha... erm i will try form the back ground music when i had tune my guitar .....haha... donno nice anot...haha.. wait till i done with all the song den i post ba...haha... as in post the song...haha...

2009-03-30T11:58:00.002+08:00

hahah,.. long time no c... haha... nv been blogging this few day cos abit no time, lazy, and busy...lol.... haha let say randomly ba....
25/03/09
erm wake up very early...cos going interview cotton on job... wah.. the standard there very hire lea,... so nv get hired... cos got 1000++ go intereview.. den they choosing only 50.... dots.... it was like...suat impossible le... den jiu nv ganna chosen lor..haha... den go find gl...lol... she say i go find zy nv find her ma... so jiu go find her lor...lol... den eat lunch with her...den saw rebacca, den chat awhile den meet yi da...den awhile jiu go home le...lol... den go rest den play com eat dinner den slp lor...haha...
26/03/09
cant rememeber wat happen n this day... if i not wrong i was slping the whole day at home.. playing com ba...lol... didn't go out...cos was tired...if i no wrong is like tat...haha...
27/03/09
oo... didnt wake up for bball with hl they all...cos was very tired... some more my phone on sliene, didnt heard dao hl call me... so jiu nv go in the end le...haha... den wake up ard 11 plus... have my breakfast cum lunch brought by my mum...haha.. eat lor mee...wah the dao gay more den the noddle lor... yuck...den eat le play com... play till ard 3 plus going 4plus... recieve a call from zy... ask me go down... as i told her on her tag board, i will go down de... so i jiu go down lor... lol... eat a bit of claypot rice cook by my mum,..... yummy... very long nv eat le...lol... miss it...ya... den jiu go down amk hub.... look for her lor... chat with her... chat till forget need teach tuition...haha.. den jiu postpone to tml morning lor...haha... help her buy dinner le..den i jiu leave le... den reach home eat abit more cos hungry./...lol...den play com watch tv awhile... chat with mingsheng awhile den watch tv again den jiu go slp le...
lol i got look like ur sch de guy mea... i so rare... who can be like me... so good...lol... no offense ar...haha...
28/03/09
erm.... wake up at 9plus... go teach tuition at ave 8... till 11am den go home prepare everything...cos going to bring my 2 sis go my ah yi house celebrate my small sis de birthday a an advanvce... play mini pool at her house...lol.. very small... need alot of skill de... so it like another ind of training of pool for me...lol... den eat kfc cum pizza hut...call delivery de...haha... wah eat tilll very full... fcuk the kfc store man... give us spoil de coleslaw... hai me cant eat...haix... my favourite coleslaw...haix... nvm... den play at her house till ard going 7 den go home... sit her husband de car go home... reach home bath watch tv den play awhile of com den slp le...lol...
29/03/09
today wake up ard 11... haha... den go out eat... actually teaching tuition de... but postpone to ard 5 like tat...lol...cos haha... accompany some one la... as she wan mocha ice blend from the coffee bean... ( my crystal jade ar... haha... jokin jokin)... o ya some 1 still own me crystal jade also hor.... erm i think she know who she is ba....hahahahahahahahaha.....erm ya... to both of you ar... i don wan crystal jade my bread ar....muahahaha...lol... den chat till like going to 5 den leave... den went to teach tuition... lol.. that kid ar.. is my worst student lor... haix... no choice.. for the sick of earning money jiu have to bear with it lor... haix... lol.. lucky got his sis to help me discipline him....haha.... teach till 7 den went home have dinner... watch tv awhile while my small sis and dad play viwawa game...lol... den play com at nite den go slp at ard 12 ba...lol
30/3/09
erm wake up at 8am.... cos going to play bball with hl they all at sergangoon... lol... wan to go play at seng kang there de...but some lazy.. next time lor...there nicer to play ma..lol...haha... shelter some more... den not so hot.... but the problem is... no water... have to walk to compass point to buy.... arggg.... lol.. den we play till ard going to 12 le den go eat... hl got thing need go meet gf den nv follow us... ate with them den go home le... in bus a fcuking aunty very kpkb sia... the check ez-link card de ppl for nothing get scold by her... den io can tahan her le i turn ard scold her... lol... say wat she just doing her job... for wat complain to her...den b4 tat she got say they government selfish and greedy ma... stilll say wan complain lee sian long...lol.. (donno how to spell) den when quarrel with her tat time i say... got ability de hua go complain lee sian long la... say say only... mouth say chee bye happy ar... lol... like tat say her... den she nopthing to say... den i also keep quite... den when she going down tat time stilll say the check ez link card de.. say tat now she have to pay extra... den i say na bei la... 40cent extra only riite.... come i give u la... i throw the 40 cent at her... den just nice reach the bus stop.. den door open den she alight... she nv pick up the coin...lol... den the check card de was like also shock lor.. but she still got say thank you to me la...lol... reali bu tahan this kind of person lor... they just doing their job ma... for wat go complain and spend her anger at the check card de person...llol.... den reach my stop i jiu go down lor...den jiu go home... on com check something...den bath den feel abit tired den go slp... den... fcuk... i miss my enrollment timing... sian..den have to wait till 10 pm den can choose... cos i over slp...(very tired ma...den forget put alarm also..) den 10 pm choose tat time... cant chosse same as my class mate de... but nvm la...cos not all choose the same.... almost all differetn... haha... den i jiu choose different lor... don need to be the same de ma.. unless both wan to wk at the same company lor...lol... and fight for the place... lol...

haha...ok la tat my event on last week.... haha..

learn something from karim... when you love tat person, don say u don love tat person le... cos u will regret for the rest of ur life... i felt it true...haha...

erm ok... reali need to get tuner from ps bro le... or else bored to death at home le... haix.... sian... want to play guitar at home also cant... cos not tuned properly... donno which itchy hanh of my sis go touch it...arggg.... sian... next time going to put it some where high so they cant reach it le...muhahaha... ok ba..nothing to blog le... going to slp le.. haha... nite every one...

Label:to the very past, to the past, or to the future.

a mixture of thinking in my mind

2009-03-25T01:18:00.002+08:00

haha.. very long nv blog le wor..haha... been busy this few day.. haha..

got to tune my guitar le.. very bored this few day.. reali need to find some day to go n borrow bro's tuner from bro le... been ard 1 week plus nv play guitar le.. sian like hell... lol... ok let tok abt tis sat and sun and mon and ytd ba.... haha....
21/3/09sat

wake up at 9am. prepare everytin ok den went go ps bro hse 1st... den go cine find hl bro and his gf.. sing k box..lol... den after tat when go play guitar hero.. lol.. his gf wan play de...lol... den go play catch bear.... actuall wan catch a bear de... spend a few dollar den think tat later no money use how.. den nv catch le...lol... den go watch movie... watch legend of chu-li.. wasnt very nice la.. haha... but some part still cool... haha... den after tat go get an earpiece and return something... den after have our dinner and den jiu go home le..cos his gf cant go home too late...erm was like abit shag for hl bro lea... cos can c u nv enjoy much... sry ar... den went home on com awhile den slp le...

22/3/09sun

wake up at 9 plus... have breakfast with parent and den pass something to kelly... ( sry ar so late den pass to you..) den went to cherie hse teach tution.... teach finish le.. tok going to find law and my sis they all.. but abit too late le.. so nv go.. den straight go ps bro de chalet.. erm walk at e hub with them den go back chalet slack... watch campass superstar.. laugh like hell at the aijia..(donno is it this girl, she say wat sing the song for the died friend de)..lol... laugh like hell... lol... den start bbq... den eat, den sing b'dae song, den take photo.(will upload the photo when i recieve it) den back to chalet..play a few round of bluff den go out walk walk... actually wan watch movie de.but no movie... den walk back to chalet..lol.... den play murder.. was quite fun.. reali.. chalet cant miss this game..lol... den around 4 i go home with franky... and his gf.... cos near... cum they all wan slp.. so tired.. den don wan play any thing le... so jiu go home slp better lor... cos nicer bed..lol... haha..

23/03/09mon
wake up ard 1pm... wa like pig sia.. no la cos ytd slp at 4plus lea... lol.. den hl bro call for dinner... actuall wan jio ps bro de.. he slping...lol... den i and him go eat lor... den go home try some dota game with him.. den play play play.. till nite le... lol...have dinner den slack awhile at home.. den go play com again... den slp...

24/03/09 tue
wake up at 8am.. cos bball at 9.. meet hl bro at 8.45.. den go sergangoon.. play awhile raining.. den shag.. den plan to go cpp there de bball court.. cos there got shelter... wa there quite big sia...and quite nice to play... play till 12 plus.. den go home change le.. dengo amk hub find zhiying.. she ask me go find her la..lol.. den walk a big round cant find where she is.. when i was abt to msg her.. she appear le..lol.. accompany her go buy milk tea.. i tok bubble tea de.. ended up is mos burger de..lol... den accompany her chat.. till 4 den go home SLP..lol.. den she have to tahan another 6 hr..hahaha.. wake up ard 6plus have dinner.. den watch tv.. den 12 plus on9.. den now nothing to do jiu blog lor..lol... sian... tml, erm i mean today nothing to do.. sian.. den tml i mean thur going to interview cotton on job i think.. with my sis den ps bro de sis de bf..loll.. hope can get the job..haha.. ok la nothing to blog le... the song next time de upload... cos donno y this few day my com abit laggy..lol.. haha. going to slp le la... nite guy...

Label: need a job urgently.. arg

is this a hint form the god of telling me wat to do?...
how i wish i have an ans now..
it getting me mad

2009-03-21T01:24:00.006+08:00

erm hi hi... lol.. boring now ar.. so come here to blog..recently have been sick also... sian.. down with serious flu and nose block.. arr.. irritating... lol.... cant slp for many day le.. very late den slp.. donno y... maybe still thinking ba.. haix.. have been looking for job sia.. like fail lea...sian.. got to find some more le... if not no money use le...sian..

haix.. tml hong leong birthday le.. got to go and celebrate with his gf and pohseng... haha.. last year nv celebrate with my this two bro.. this year got to pay back le...lol... tml.. erm no can say is oday hl b'dae... tml ps b'dae le...lol.. this 2 day got to burn my pocket le... sian..... some one got job pls intro..thank alot..haha...

haix... gayan u might be rite... haha.. thank... but i still need some time... ya.. let me think a little more...ok.. haha.. thank anyway...

ya... time might help... and may not help.. so.. still have to depend on fate and destiny...prehape destiny more ba..lol... sometime i donno isit heaven trying to fool me or wat sia....lol.. when time to forget.. it appear in my dream... when time to let go.. thing happen ard me(like song tat suddenly played or ppl word) told me not to...lol... donno is fated or wat sia.... sian... tat y i need time to figure out sometin... a riddle inside me......a very hard riddle tat need a very strong brain to break...

there a song very nice... i listen it recently...haha.. enjoy ba... (will post the song later..very laggy...hehe)

为了十月六号那一天
我走遍了几条热闹的街
只为了寻找一份礼物
你喜欢的生日礼物
就在你生日的那一天
我把礼物送到你家门前
你说不必了不是说好了
已分手了嘛
*********
你曾说过分手后
还可以做朋友
我送你礼物你却不接受
还叫我忘了你
从此不要再联络
让彼此都快乐
你曾说过分手后
还可以做朋友
我你礼物你却不接受
还说我会找到一个
比你更好的女人
*****************
为了十月六号那一天
我走遍了几条热闹的街
只为了寻找一份礼物
你喜欢的生日礼物
就在你生日的那一天
我把礼物送到你家门前
你说不必了不是说好了
已分手了嘛
*********
你曾说过分手后
还可以做朋友
我送你礼物你却不接受
还叫我忘了你
从此不要再联络
让彼此都快乐
你曾说过分手后
还可以做朋友
我送你礼物你却不接受
还说我会找到一个
比你更好的女人
********
此刻再也忍不住
眼泪不停地滑落
颤抖的双手捧着礼物
往回走
你曾说过分手后
还可以做朋友
我送你礼物你却不接受
还叫我忘了你
从此不要再联络
让彼此都快乐
你曾说过分手后
还可以做朋友
我送你礼物你却不接受
还说我会找到一个
比你更好的女人
*********
把礼物留着给她更适合

haha.. wat u all think?.. and wat you think? u say after break up we still can be very good friend... and it was u who say let be friend better... now?.. it like stranger.. is it wat it should be after every break up? no it not... like zhiying and me.. we still contact.. still good friend.... like welmen abd kelly.. they still chatting happily... but wat is it now.. is it u telling me to stop?.. but y heaven telling me other thing... y ppl telling me other thing... haix.. ppl doesnt mean my friend.. i mean some one else... haix.... sign*... wat to do.... fate ba...

Label: fate and destiny ba
Label: u are just like tat... when ur mind are fix.. and tat wat u want..

can i still say it? or i just lecturing?

2009-03-17T16:55:00.003+08:00

用表白换一份期待
能不能就少一点忐忑无奈
心还绕着你徘徊
难道真是爱
泪水流过才明白
爱不爱原来心里早已存在
幸福不在千里外

haha... nice.?.. i find it interesting also.. learn it from somewhere de..haha... boring sia... nothing to do.. sian.. actually going out de...but... from alot.. become alittle go only... den jiu abit sian diao den nv go lor..... very sian... haix... how i wish one day the 7 of us can go out together sia... hai.... i tin it nv be the same le... last time the seven of us unite and have fun... now, scattered le....=(... sad sia.... no more the same from the past le lea... sux.... so much fun in the past... but now no more le... haix... wat happen..is this our destiny again? or someone fate?... i reali hate like tat sia... happy being together at first...but ended in such a way.... wth wtf... how i wish i can have a wish tat can be granted... ya... ok ba...nothing to write le... next time den blog.. or maybe later when i free ba.... siannn......

Label: back to the past
Label: siannnnnn

2009-03-16T22:57:00.003+08:00

sian... sian sian... looking for job lea.... sian... the stupid kovan rm... trying to show attitude to me sia... i know he hate me cos leave without saying... but he nv ask the reason y i leave 1st... haix... some ppl jiu shi like tat lor....不分清红赵柏.. den any how jump to conclusion lor... haixhaix....

can say i regreted, but cant say tat also..regreted cause now no job le...no money.... can say not regreted cause,....... (cant say)... haha learn something just now....

对我好的人，我会记得他们。
对我不好的人，我会原谅他们。
心里的话想说却不能大声的说。
心里的痛，却不能让他们知道。
又有谁能了解？？

the above poem quite simple la... can apply to me also....haha... wat to do... cant do anything also...haha... sian.... sian,..... sian la... so cinfuse now.... feel like going depression le... haix....

o ya...very long nv play my guitar le.. sian... got to go and learn some new song le....

haix.... freeaking tired now.... tired of thinking... tired of helping... tired of protecting... tired of being "alone".... tired of alot alot alot of thing...arrrrrr.. so tired.... but i just donno should i... should i just..... the word they say keep flashing in my mind....i think i need some more time to think ba...

wa realise tat i very long nvn write emo post le lea...haha..... today i think it gotcha be emo de ba... haix... ok ba.. back to thinking le ba... next time de npost again ba.. the time i post it got to be i think ook le... ya.... take care every one

Label: think think think....
Label: do i still?

2009-03-14T21:17:00.002+08:00

yoyoyoyo... how every 1..haha... very long nv c dao me post le ba...haha... cos been very busy... haha... okok.. let strat from monda...haha...
09/03/09
tis day..haha.. nvm nothing... okok.. erm wake up veryveryvery early... at 5.45 jiu wake up le.. must be wandering i holiday le y still wake up so early ba...haha... cos goiing to work...haha... at expo... cos there got furniture fair for 4 day.. den work there lor... hl bro call me go de... work as like ppl come to the counter den get a pass from us den can enter the hall to see the furniture... those furniture is for world wide trader only...lol... alot of very nice furniture... like it alot...haha... some of it is limited edition some more... and some of it only like the whole world only got 1 set...haha... den wk till like going to 6 plus..den end wk... haha... make quite a few friend... haha... wa realise that in this world reali got alot of rich ppl around the world wor...haha....
10/03/09
today wake up early also... same time do the same thing...haha... same time end wk also.. haha..but 2day after wk nv go home straight..instead go hg pt... have dinner with bro...haha... haha... 3 of us very long nv like tat eat dinner le wor..haha... den go chat chat... chat till like going 9 den jiu go home le.. cos my small sis got home wk to ask me....
11/03/09
same thing again......... enjoy the time with my collegues...haha.. same time go home again... but 2day nv meet ps bro... haha
12/03/09
same thing again... haha... but today end wk at 5pm... got to miss my collegues..haha... went home straight... cos going to camp... went home le pack my clothes den straight away go out le.. haha... go meet sam 1st... eat dinner and chat chat...haha.. wa this few day got alot of ppl say xing shi to me sia...lol... haha... den ard 9 went to sch for my camp... actually the camp is morning de....but i special...haha.. den jiu go at night...haha... wa we stay in like a flat lea...haha.... like chalet lea... they say we are the most lucky batch... cos we the 1st who stay in this kind of room during our ee foc camp (training)...haha... den chat chat...play card.. till like going to 4 plus le den some cant take it le... say wat tml will be very tired day... so all go sllp.. den 7am wake up...lol...
13/03/09
wake up at 7am.. all go wash up den eat breakfast... haha..... den have morning run den learn dance...lol... den have luch...guess wat we having for lunch...lol... bbq... haha.. we buy the own food buy sch pay... wa.. have very full... den rest awhile we have water game.. 1st 2 round nv get wet de...but.... ganna sabo... lol.... play alot of fun game... very fun... make quite a few friend also... haha... den have dinner ard 7 plus.. den jiu end of day le...lol...
14/03/09
i pon morning run 2day jsut to slp.. cos ytd nite very late very late den slp...haha... den the whole week like nv slp enough...haha... wake up at 8 plus... den go for dance lesson...haha... finish up all the move today..haha.. will let u all c our dance in the facebook...haha...lol.. den have our lunch... den do alot of some thing..haha... den end our camp at ard 6 plus... haha.. going to have another camp on 8to10... this is the preparation camp... den 13 to 16 is the offical ee foc camp...haha... going to have lot of fun ba... haha....

this few nite have been chating with my friend... chat abt quite alot of thing.. haha.. finally i realise.... fate reali can be created by us... destiny is already been decided b4 we born... example... we are destiny to be together.. and is fate tat brought us together...get it?....haha... we created fate 1st.. but is destiny tat think tat we should be together ma... haha...get it?haha... i going to create more fate... ya.. joking la.. let natural take the place... haha... seriously... i still very confuse..tat y i this few day cant slp well... reali very confuse...

label: u know wat.. after so long, i still do .... ...
label: very tired... but just cant slp.........

2009-03-08T17:27:00.002+08:00

yoyo..haha...back here le...haha.. sian... my com de charger spoilt sia... den nnow using my sis de com... monday den can go repair.... sian... haha... erm actually i very confuse now... haix.. abt something...b4 tat let tok abt wat happen the past 3 day ba.... haha...

6/3/09 fri
my uncle call me go help him wk... den prepare ok le... wk at ard 1.30 pm... to 6plus going 7pm... den eat dinner den go home.... den went home change le, go meet some 1 tat i nv expect tat they will call me to meet them..lol.... drink a couple of beer with them and chat abit... den go donno where de.. haha... drink abit more of wiskey... haha... i think cos of the beer den i got the feeling of vomiting sia...lol.. cos i don like to drink beer de ma...haha... den till ard 3plus going 4 am den go home....

*thank for sharing so much with me... i believe u can do it de...(upgrading)... ya.. haha.. good luck ok... didn realli tell u all much abt mine thinking... next time will tell u all more..ya.... take care...

7/3/09 sat
wake up at 10am.. eat breakfast den use awhille of com, my charger spoilt.. den jiu nv play com le... den goo slp.... slp till 4plus going 5 pm wake up hungry again, den eat dinner early lor...lol... den watch tv watch till 9 plus... den go slp le... den stupid karim play donno wat MIA... lol.. nv tell me early... haix me donno wat to say to bro...lol... next time tell me early ma...lol... haha...den cant fall aslp.... cos was think of wat they told me ytd.... den jiu nv go slp... den jiu go watch tv watch till 3am...den slp...

8/3/09 sun
wake up ard 11... den eat breakfast den go meet hl go kovan interview job.... but the incharge de not there... so tml den go again...haha... den went to mac eat hl de double cheese burger...lol... den go hgm find job... but some wan full timer some have to wait aprail den can interview...lol... den no choice lor... we go hg pt interview ntuc de..haha.. wirte form le den wait for phone call lor...haha... den i go hg pt there de court bball... play awhile den a match den i go home le... den go home slp awhile... but cant slp... den jiu come here blog lor....

i have alot of thing suddenly questioning in my mind... friend say don... they say hold on.. my heart is having a mixture of both... i donno wat to do sia... shagged... reali shagged... haix think blog till here 1s ba... next time den continue... byebye...

Label: very run in my mind now...

2009-03-06T11:37:00.003+08:00

here a quiz... haha... some one sms me to do de...l?ol...

ask at 10 people to do this quiz once u have finish the quiz
1)shi wei
2)cherie
3)law
4)cherilyn
5)boon yuen
6)my sis
7)jiaming
8)chermaine
9)kai jie
10)zixin
quiz
1) u believe in fate/destiny?
ya

2)what do u want in your life now?
erm.. everyone happy, especially her..=)

3)do you intend to make relationship complicated?
of cos no la...

4)who always make you laugh?
me myself

5)who are you missing right now?
secret...

6)if you have to choose, friend or love?
depend...

7)what is life to u?
erm... a living thing.. ya..

8)if u have some thing troubling u what will you do?
hide it ba... till cant take it jiu go drink lor...till drunk den forget everything faster...

9)who do u admire(not like) the most?
donno

10)when is our birthday?
28/7/1991

11)what do you do when your are moody?
make myself tired like go play bball, drink, slp.

12)who is/are the person/people you trust most?
last time is her... now only my bro ba...

13)do you believe in seeing the rainbow after a rain?
ya.. nice...

14)if you have a dream come true what will it be?
live happily ever after with my love and everyone happy=)

15)do you believe in eternity love?
last time i do, but not anymore

16)what feeling u love the most?
to see everyone ard me happy..

17)what feeling you hate the most?
being betray and ..... the feeling i had now...

18)who care for you the most?
i don think there is anymore le ba...

19)what do you think is the most important thing in your life?
currently now, family and friends ba...

20)what do you do if nobody care for you any longer?
erm use to it le la...

21)what will you do if your bf/gf two-timed you?

erm... let her choose lor...either him or me.... she chose who she happy can le ma... she happy i happy... cause i love her. and got to let her choose her own happiness...ya..=)

haha the end... still got one more quiz sia... wait ar... is ask by cherie, my sis and karim...

1. Besides Ur lips, where is the favorite spot to get kissed?
errm.. cheek~ i guess

2. How do u feel when u wake up this morning?
erm ok lor..

3. Who was the last person u took photo with?
i fculking long nv take photo le lea. i think is her ba...

4. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
erm think not reali ba.. from young parent jiu very strict le.. i hate it.. haha..

5. Would you ever donate blood?
ya.. can save life ma..good lea...

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was the opposite sex?
erm got....

7. Do u wan someone dead?
of cos no la..aiyo...

8. What does ur last text message says?
lol.. i delete away le la.. forget le..haha...

9. What are u thinking right now?
erm earn money...

10. Do you wish someone to be with you right now?
erm next time den tell u all...haha..

11. What is the time you go to bed last night?
1am puls ba

12. Where did you buy the T-shirt you are wearing now?
dunno. siao so long le how i remember...

13. Is someone on ur mind right now?
there alway is...

14. Who was the last person who texted you?
kelly

10 people tagged to do this quiz.
1)shi wei
2)cherie
3)law
4)cherilyn
5)boon yuen
6)my sis
7)jiaming
8)chermaine
9)kai jie
10)zixin

15. Who is 2 having a relationship with?
o my sis and law lor

16. Is 3 a male or female?
male

17. If 7 and 10 get tgt,would it be a good thing?
erm..no idea.. i think still can make it ba..haha...

18. What is 1 studying about?
engineering

19. When was the last time u had a chat with them?
erm ytd ba...

20. Is 4 single?
nope..

21. Say something about number 2?
stm

22. What do you think about 3 & 6 being tgt?
erm.. they already together le.. still quite good..haha...

23. Describe 9?
o blacky ar...haha..

24. What will you do if 6 n 7 fight?
impossible la...they donno each other...haha..

25. Do you like 8?
donno lea...haha...

the end of quiz 2..haha.. okok la.. laterat night den blog..haha.. going to prepare and go wk at my uncle there le..haha... cya 2nite if i have time to use ....haha...

2009-03-05T23:34:00.002+08:00

woohoo.... sian now sia... this morning(5/3/08) wake up at 8am..by hl...while ytd nite slp at 3am.... so slp only 5 hr... den go meet hl play basket ball... paly awhile ps come... wa very long the 3 of us play ball together le...haha... play till 12 rain den stop... den go mac rest awhile...den go eat... eat fish soup rice...lol... quite nice... very long nv drink dao like tat de soup le... haha... eat ok le den take cab back hg... den pei ps buy drink while hl go home.... den my sis call me go ktv...den go lor.. meet them(my sis and law) ard 3... at hg cc... sing till 7pm... wa quite ex lea...lol... sian...reali no money le..haix... wth...haix.... reali have to hunt for job le... or else...die.... haha...think going to stay at home till i found a job le..lol...haha...

got to go kovan and get my typhoid le... cos no pay from mac if nv get it...lol... den got to find job le... or else no money to use le...lol

erm ya... life is just slightly better for me... other den job thing.. got event to fill up my life... but.. it still different... haha.. nvm.. slowly ba... haha... wat past is past le. now just have to apdat to the future..haha... so, ya... haha....

hehe... very long nv play my guitar le..lol... got to touch up abit le...lol...hha... and ya... still editing the song...lol,... haha...

sian... been like playing pool, bball, and gym... nothin much...lol... haix... got to brighten my life abit...haha... yeah...

sometime just want to say....nvm..nothing..lol..haha... it like tat..some time somthing are just hard to say, hard to show...hard to do... and hard to let u know.... get wat it mean... nvm ba..haha...

ok ba... nothing to write le.... post the song when i'm done ok...haha... bye..>.^

Label: new life le ma?
Label: can i say?

my special memory

2009-03-05T01:30:00.003+08:00

yoooyoo..nv c me for how long me.lol... haha/.. have been busy looking for job sia.. sian... must wait for interview sia...lol.. okok....let tok abt something tat i have been missing so far ba..haha...

2/3/09
lol... wake up by hl bro... cos ask me go play bball.,.. den 8 jiu wake up le... bath,prepare ok den go meet him.... den take bus to sergangoon interchange there... haha... den wait for them ok den we start our game..till ard 12 we went for our lunch... den go home le... den rest awhile den play a few round of dota with them... lol... till lunch den rest awhile den f
forgoten need teach tution... postpone the time by 1hr..haha... den teach finish le go home den play dota again at night...lol... den slp le...haha...
3/3/09
wake up ard going 12..meet hl bro for lunch cum breakfast..lol.. den home for dota again..till like 3plus... go bath prepare den meet my sis and law at ps... cos go find job...lol..... go walk walk awhile den go kovan play pool....lol... still quite ok with my skill..haha... den have dinner at the punggo nasi lemark...damn ex la..lol... and thing also very little... but still ok la... 4 chopstick... haha... den went home le... reach home dota again..lol.. nothing to do jiu like tat ma..haha.. cos my life now._______...hahaha..den slp ard going to 3 am...lol...
4/3/09
this morning wake up..mum brought breakfast give me eat le...lol..thank.. haha.. den went gym with law...lol..been long time i have been going to gym le..haha.. gym till 2 plus den go hg plaza play pool again..lol.. no choice my life is like tat now..haha... den went home bath le go meet law again.. cos going ps watch movie...haha... today watch k-20... it like yizhi mei tat show..hhaha... erm abit bored, but still ok la... 3 popcorn for tat..haha....den went to kovan pool again..haha... haix, 2day wasnt very happy with my shot..lol... although some shoot was quite nice, but wasnt happy overall...lol... donno y... unable to focus... haha... don care la... maybe something have been bothering me alot ba...haix... nvm.. don tok abt it..haha... going to live on happily ma...haha... bleahx... ok den ard 10 plus go home... have my dinner...den rest awhile den bath den wait for my dad play finish his viwawa game... den i get to use the internet..haha.. den here i blogging again lor..haha...
recently have been thinking of a song remember?...haha... i found some word to fill in my song le..haha... some inspiration from some one special..lol... no la... actually is from chermaine blog... her word give me some inspiration...lol...

erm will post the song lyric when i have edit finish the song...haha... so stay tune for my new song...haha... okok?,,,,haha....o ya..the title of this song: secret 1st..haha... next time den tell u all...haha... bleahx=) >.^ ...haha...

oya... more and more ppl have been falling sick le.. pls take care everyone... drink more water and have plenty of rest ok..haha... take care=)

Label: actually all those is wat i wan to say...
Label: my life have change cos of u...

It painful to c u like tat.ya.

2009-03-02T00:15:00.004+08:00

haha... nv will i know.... it an lesson again.. another lesson ba...haha...
a changes, change the whole person... lol agree?...haha.. u nv know.... when a person will change...
life is unfair, but this unfairness is just an lesson... get wat i mean..haha...
love sux, but love give happiness.. lol... wat a conflict... ppl live in the world full of love. it give happiness but it hurt...
u know wat ppl live for? love, money or just cause of the sick of living..... lol wat ur choices? ppl live in the world of love are stupid.. but they live in happiness... ppl live in the world of money they are clever, but they all too busy... ppl live cause of the sick of living cos they going to die soon... is tat wat ur explaination?
haha... remember i had tok about a story tat i read last time,...lol... i had read finish le... lol.. i will just say abt the ending ba... haha... cos i also forgot where i stop le... ok let just start from they had alot of quarrel.. they quarrel alot of time cos of something...(the something very long. just take it as something)... finally, the boy tok the girl tat wat she want... but the girl reply tat she is tired... very thing have been change.. and she is tired... and the girl say tat is better to break up.... the boy was disappointed... the boy nv agree at first...and he just went home... the break up thing have not been mention for a few day... den one day the boy ask the girl again... this time the girl still want a break up.. so the boy just agree... cos he had think.. think alot...he think tat it better for her to be happy if he reali love her... so the boy agree... a few month later, the girl had a new boyfriend....the boy wasnt sad.. he is happy for the girl.. but when ever the girl need help, the boy will just try to help the girl secretly... the boy also found out that the girl had a diary of their past.. and he borrow it form the girl's sis... he read all of it.. realise tat he had done alot of thing wrongly... he wrote down all the thing tat the girl want.. after tat, he tried to past the note to the current boyfriend the girl having... but on the day when the boy tried to go find the girl boyfriend, he met an accident. the boy was seriously injury... he had an 8 hr of operation. the doctor the his parent to be prepared for the worst. the girl didn't know abt it. the boy was in the critical state.. and he manage to wake up and tok to his parent for a few moment. he told his parent tat he don want the girl to know that he got the accident cos of wanting her to be happy for the rest of her life by passing the letter to the boy..... in stead, the boy wrote a letter for the girl... and ask his parent to pass to her. and also pass the letter tat is for her boy freind to her also.. on tat day, the boy die. the letter was given to her when the girl went for his funeral when she heard tat he had die... after the furneral, the girl went home and read the letter... the letter said:

dear the girl,
when u have seen this letter, i may not be in the world anymore. i just want to tell you i'm sorry. i had read ur dairy, and i know tat i nv take very good care of you. have been hurting you.. i'm sorry.. i nv knew it till the day i read ur dairy....but it was too late le.. u had left me for another guy. but i'm happy for you. but i hope tat guy will treat u better than i do... so i had wrote a letter for him. pls pass it to him. you know wat, i will nv forget the time i had with you. the love we had. the time we went through. nv forget all the "1st time" we had like givin you flower, kiss, movie,etc, all the first time.. ya.. u make me grow. although u hurt me, but i don blame u. is i make u tired at the first place.so i don blame u. watever it is.. i hope tat u will live on happily without me. all the while i had tried helping u secretly. but sometime there is something tat i cant help u. tat was when i felt that i'm useless, and hopeless... wat ever it is.. i just want to tell u... i love you... remember to pass the letter to ur boyfriend.. it will bring u happiness. pls. don be sad after reading all this.. continue to live happy with ur bf...

love you
the boy..

the letter was written with tear... as there are droplet on the paper of letter for her... after she had finish reading, she open out the letter that is for her boyfriend. she read it, and she blast with tears. she cried saddly for the whole day. cos the letter wrote all the thing tat the girll realli want from her love ones.. all.... all of it that she want....the girl was so touch tat she cried... but she know tat it too late le.. cos the boy had die le... so the girl continue to live with the her boy friend now... as wat the boy want..

tat the end of the story.. i donno how to summrise the ending part ar.. so sound abit not nice... haha... but it quite touching la... u tin la... for girl: if u had break up with ur past bf, and he secretly help u do alot of thing or fulfuill alot of thing, and even write all the thing tat u reali want ur love ones to do it for u to ur bf.. will u touch?...lol... i donno.. cos there just very few guy will do this kind of thing...lol... haha..

lol... this story is abit same as the lesson tat i say.. this the boy live in the world of love, money, and at the end in the world of the sick of living....the boy live in the world of love where he and the girl love one another deeply.. but the boy also live in the world of money in the center part. making him busy, den no time accompany the girl. den back to the world of love again, where he is hurt, and denlastly in the world of the sick of living. which causes his lfe at the end...lol...

seriously, life is just unfair. and we just have to live with it.. learn from it. as ppl change, we have to accept it. some but not all... get it...haha... ok ba.. i going to slp le... later have to wake up at 8am. for a bball with hl bro and friend. afternoon still have to go play pool with sch friend...lol... so nite reader.. anything just call me...

Label: life is just unfair to me, but wat can i do. it fated, my destiny.

love you
the boy

2009-02-28T17:57:00.003+08:00

yoyoyo...believe it... i just woke only sia... as i mean, i till now den wake up..lol..cos ytd go ton ma..haha.. lie to parent tat i go camp... so i can den ton de...haha.. ok let tok abt ytd ba...

27/02/09

erm morning wake up at 6.15.like tat... den go bath le go sch... have my breakfast 1st... den go for exam... erm quite easy but abit careless..haha... think a b is still possible...haha.. finally exam finish le... so we going to nick's house celebrate it..haha... but we go suntec watch movie 1st...haha... watch marley and me.. funny, sad, and quite nice la..haha... watch till 2 plus like tat,....den go walk walk awhile.. cos later going eat sakae sushi... but hl bro call me... for a bball game... den i nv go eat with them... went to serangoon find him.. play a few match.. last match is very rough... with other ppl de la... they play till fcuking rough lor... my hand, back all injury sia... lol... play till 6, take train back to suntec cos from there go nick house...lol... reach there, sam still with his friend eating, den i jiu eat my dinner 1st... haha... cos very hungry..haha.. den eat le go back find them... den jiu go nick house le... haha.. at there 1st tin i do is go bath 1st..lol... cos very hot after the bball game..lol.. haha... bath le den play some card game, guitar, chat... till around going 11, we go eat supper.. haha..at 1st going to eat katong laksa de.. but close le...lol... so nv eat... haha... den jiu eat the shao rou fan beside the katong laksa store... eat finish le, den go 7-11 buy some drink... ahaha.. den went back to nick house... lol.. den play card, guitar, and chat again... den awhile later, was piss off lor... some of them slp... wth... come out ton den slp...haix... donno ton for wat lor... but cant blame la... they got train the next day... i think we choose a wrong day to celebrate le lor... still planning to drive nick unlce car go out explore... or just use leg go out walk walk explore explore... but, haix... everything ruin.. was quite disappointed... den left me sam yusof jm and lieon.... we sit near the balcony...chat lor.. chat abt our past..haha.. den till 5 plus all go slp le... den i play com awhile... freaking boring den also go slp.. haix.. den 7 all wake up... den all go wash up den leave nick house le... den some go home, some go eat.. me sam and yusof go city hall walk walk 1st den go eat.. cos the haven open ma... haha.. ate burger king de breakfast.. their harshbrown so cute de.. small and round de...haha... erm still quite nice la.. haha... den after tat jiu go home le..haha.. den after tat jiu slp till now lor... lol.. den just eat finish den jiu come blog le... haha.. haix.. next time if going ton again, make sure next day all of us is free de... den can have alot of fun le... haix...

ok tat all abt ytd..haha.. this few day may be busy looking for job... haha... so anything just call me or sms me...
btw remember the song the darkness tat i post tat time?... there some changes..just scroll down and c.. the title has also been change=)
actually got alot of thing to say de... but, i don think i should tell... haix...
lastly, have been writing a new song, still finding some word to filll in some of the blank in my song.... to express some thing out.. haha.. will post the song too..haha.... take care everyone...

Label: Tired
Label: tin tat in my heart

learning is not childplay, no pain, no gain

2009-02-26T00:23:00.000+08:00

告诉我怎么能忘记你的笑容告诉我怎么做才是普通朋友
found this on friend msn nick... quite meaningful... to me..yay... lol..

2009-02-25T21:01:00.005+08:00

yo... back to blog again le...haha... how every1... quite long nv go look 4 my friend le... donno how u all.. haha... erm me busy studying now lor... waiting for the last paper on fri jiu ok le...haha... den after tat going to have camp...haha.... ok ba.. le tok abt wat happen this few day ba..

23/02/09

wake up at 11 like tat den have breakfast with mum... den jiu go sch le.. nv study... cos no mood..haha... den jiu play dota lor... alone.. den sam wan play... den jiu a group of ppl play le..lol...play play play till going 6...den stop... study awhile den jiu go le... acctually wan go home de.... but go home nothing to do... so go lot 1 lor...lol... at first go me jia ming andyusof de...but yusof suddenly got thing on... so he nv go le...den go lot 1 eat long john again... lol... eat den tok awhile... denactually wan watch movie de..but i budget...so nv watch...haha... den sit at mac chat... chat alot of thing... very funny... 20 years later... i going to open a resturant.... every 1 must come ar... haha.. chat till 10 plus... den go home le...haha... reach home bath le jiu slp le...

24/02/09

same wake up 11 go eat breakfast with mum... den jiu go sch le....nv study also... watch se diao yin xiong zhuang with jeff... haha.. watch till eposide 19 den we play dota le...haha... again dota sia....lol... tat our life in sch lor...haha....actually just pass thing to sam den have to go le...but suddenly wan play...den 1 round den go...haha... play till 3 plus den i jiu go le... go ps meet law... cos actually going interview de... but at the end nv....haha... cos something on..haha... den jiu go play pool.. wait 4 my sis come....den play awhile jiu go le...haha.... cos my sis eating dinner outside...lol... they eat long john again... lol... ard 8plus go take mrt home le...haha... in mrt saw miss toh... my sec sch form teacher... lol... chat awhile den i have to alight le...lol...den go home lor... eat dinner le den wait 4 my sis use ok com i den use com lor... den awhile later i go slp le...

25/2/09

2day over slpt... actually meetin jia ming at 9 de. but i overslpt... 8.30 den wake up..lol...haha... den go sch lor... wait with him for his friend.,..lol... erm long story..so don elaborate le...haha.. wait till 11 plus den the girl come out le..lol... den go alumni club hse eat... lol.. i nv go there b4 sia...and i nv know it in our sch...haha.. cant blame ma... i hardly stay in sch last time...haha... either pontan or after sch jiu rash home le... lol... so cant blame me..haha.. eat fish and chip... erm quite filling la... haha.. drink honey lemone... after tat we jiu go study le..with his friend..lol... study and play guitar during break...haha... teach jia ming a bit tin abt guitar... haha... slowly learn and u can de ...haha.. den study finish 2 paper jiu nv study le...cos everything the same... haha..,. den play guitar.. while jia ming and his friend da qing ma qiao... haha... play till hong hao ask us wan paly dota ma.. den i play on jia ming com... den jia ming jiu play my guitar..haha... den da qing ma qiao with his friend again.. was like i at there quite pahsae..haha... don dare to disturb them.haha.. let jm enjoy ma..haha.. den i jiu play 3 round of dota with hong han, nick, and lieon... haha... play 3 round 3 round they tok i jai ming.. say many time i boon kiat le but they still call jm..lol... den abt 5 plus we do find nick they all while jia ming send his friend go take bus..lol...purposely create this chance for him de..haha... den ard 6 jiu go home le..haha... den reach home actually going eat with law de..but my dad got tabao food for me.. den nv le lor..haha... budget ma... or else this fri no money use.... haha....

den here blogging le lor...haha... hope faster AC test finish..den reali can enjoy le... haha.. ok ba..nothing to blog le... haha

*karim- hei i found ur song..westlife de close..u online i send u...
*jia ming- slowly learn... and slowly got chance den grab it...lol
*chermaine- sorry ytd accidentally press dao and call you...sorry

Label: faster test finish
Label: sorry

u nv know the book by judging the cover

2009-02-22T02:32:00.000+08:00

hai... i donno if i had done the right thing ma. really donno. but wat i wan is just bless. nothing le. i donno if wat i had done will make her angry ma. suddenly got alot of bad feeling. really. just simplely wanting to bless u all. ya.. hai. if wat i had done is wrong, i'm sorry. really sorry.

just want to tell you. i had nothing much that i can do for you. just a simple thing i had done. i hope it won make u angry.. lastly take care.

haix. let tok abt wat happen the pass few day ba,..

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it my 1st day of exam. haha... had advance math. erm still can do la.. haha.. nv study much... got reason la.. but i don wish to say.. haha... secret..haha... lol... after test went to have lunch with friend... den go study... lol.. tml math again... but is engineering math... haha... after this sem, we are free from math le... but will miss it.. cos overrall my strongest subject is still math ma... haha... nv reali study.. cos all very confident le...lol.. except me... cos i nv listen to class ma...ahha... but in the i also nv study..haha.. also go play with them awhile... den go find some 1..cant say who,... cos will get kill...haha...

[20/2]

had engineering math at 2 pm... mornin go eat with mum... den go sch le.. haha... erm paper quite easy la... but some very tricky... think can get at least an B ba...haha... after paper went to slack awhile at someplace in sch... actually going to study AEL de... but cos going to teach tution, den nv study... go home but bag 1st, eat dinner, den i jiu go teach tution le.. haha... teach till 8 den go... study abit.. but totally don understand... cos i totally nv listen to lecture abt this topic... cos... erm i think i don say better ba..haha... not cos i nv pay attention in class hor... is other reason...haha... den no choice lor... call my friend tml go sch early teach me... lol... den around 10 jiu go slp le... but cant fall slp... wait till like going 1plus i den fall aslp...

[21/2]

wake up at 5 pm... very very tired... cos ytd nite nv slp well... den go wash up, bath le jiu go sch... actually wan slp in bus for awhile de.. but just cant fall aslp..haix.. donno y... nowadays, my appetite drop by alot le. den like very late den can fall aslpl... actually i reali ver tired de..but..haix.. i donno y just cant fall aslp...haix... reach sch around 6.45am... den wait for my friend, jeffrey. den study all the important thing... cant expect that i can 1 shot learn all ba.. but i just can remember all..lol... donno y.. in test, i can do almost all... lol... i tin can also at least get an B... haha... lol... hope so..lol....haha... after tat i, sam, yusof, and lieon, (they are some of the clique that i always hang with in sch) go hougang with me... lol...cos that time i go cck with them ma. den now they come hg with me lor...haha... eat kfc at mall. den go shop for sam thing.. he buying present for his friend... but nv found anything nice den jiu nv buy... go plaza play pool... wa now plaza de cue ver worst lea... so we play 1 round den jiu nv play le... we go kovan play... haah.. play arcade at first...den go play pool... haix.. think abt it...actually pool cause me to be like tat lor... like wat some of u all know ba.... cos of pool, haix. don tok abt it le ba... haix.. donno is it my skill improve le or they lousy... 1v1 i win all...haha... so i overrall winner.2nd is samuel,3rd is lieon and last is yusof. i think is i lucky ba...haha...
now actually i hate pool.. every time i play pool, i will think of something. which reali is my fault lor. haix... donno wat to say la.. i indeed is a failure... till now den realise wat she want.... haix.... and it too late le..haix
after pool, we go amk cos they want watch movie.... reach there, all the movie quite late le.. so nv watch lor... jiu just play arcade... saw hl and crystal in there.haha... den play till like going 9 le go coffee bean sit and chat while waiting for bro to end wk... haha.. so coincendent lor.. the 3 brother is at amk hub... i, ps and hl is the 3 bro..haha... actually quite long nv go out 2gether le... sine new year eve... erm chat abt alot of thing with them... haha... tok abt one another life...lol... next time i tin they will share more ba..haha... cos only sam and i share the most...lol... cos sam is like have a better realtionship with me then the other.. .den i is like any1 also have good with...haha... cos i the joker around them ma..haha.. tok till like 10 den all jiu left le...lol... den go take 159 with bro.... go home eat.. lol. reach home den realise tat i haven eat sia...lol... stupid rite... haix.... erm eat le play com awhile den jiu go slp le... cos tml goint to teach tution again...haha...

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2day overslpt sia.. haha... reach the tution place at 12.35..wich is actually 12 de.. breakfast nv eat jiu go teach le... lol... teach till 1 45 den left le... cos donno wat to teach the boy le... cos i teach too fast later he forget again... he very forgetful de.. so nv teach alot... teach 1 chapter finish... lol... now i realise tat pri sch and even lower sec de studies is like very easy sia... the boy i teach is pri 1 de... damn easy la... reali ver ver easy... tat y i can teach very fast.... haha.. den another 1 is a girl..she sec 1.. wa her sec 1 is easier then my sec 1 for like 5 times la...lol... reali different le...haix... den she also can 1 hr teach finish 1 chapt lor... but i don dare to teach too fast... cos scare over take her teacher den i got nothing to teach at the end of the year... yaya... haha
after teach finish jiu go home..nv even eat... cos donno lea.. not hungry lea..lol... reach home was looking at some one blog... very long ago de blog... den i realise alot of thing.... ya alot... it like, i have been beaten by alot of ppl after read finish all the past of the blog... i just wake up.. but it too late le...haha... nvm la... happy can le... ya.u happy i happy...haha...
lol....read finish was very bored...nothing to do write out a summary of every thing...lol... write finish le den still bored...but my dad ask me eat dinner 1st, cos he cooking today..lol.... den eat le... went back to my room play com... hope karim looking for song...but cant find it... haha... it call close-by westlife... she say very nice den cant find den ask me find for herr=/ lol... ps ar find bu dao... haha... den nothing to do again... go play guitar lor...haha... haha 2day learn a song... can 'it all about you'... lol...bro i know how to play le.. next time play together..ok..haha.... den play till 11 plus stop... cos late le... den jiu play game again lor...haha... play till now blog again...haha....
ok ba nothing to blog le... next time den blog ba... haha

label: sorry if i reali did something wrong. i don mean it de. reali...
label: to late to understand it now.
label: it all about you=)

2009-02-18T21:55:00.004+08:00

yoyoyo...remember the song the darkness?.... haha.. play it ba..it on top.. it abit soft.. so it may be abit hard to heard.. pls off the song on the side and play the avove song if u wan to heard it.. haha.. this song tell my feeling now.. haha.. yaya.. erm i know i don have a good voice.. so pls bear with it... haha... enjoy=).
btw it going to be called: "cause i want you to have your happiness"

(cause i want you to have your happiness)

life in here are scary,
and it were nv, be the same.
evrything have change,
till i cant accept all of it...

the pain i have, the hurt i got,
is the 1st time, i got..
but all tis ,isnt under control,
and i had nv wan it to happen.

we just end it with a simple msg ,

and i hap no choice but to agree.

cos i want u to have ur happiness..

but this isnt, wat i want.
cos i just want a simple life, with you

it just a simple ans,
tat make me miserable .
i cant do anything,
i had to live with it.
just to make you happy.

right here i'm crying,
deeply in my heart.
thinking of our memory,
cos i cant just erase it.
i know i have to forget it,
but this will nv just be it.
cos that not an simple memory

so i will jjust keep it

we just end it with a simple msg , and i hap no choice but to agree.
cos i want u to have ur happiness..
but this isnt, wat i want.
cos i just want a simple life, with you

how is it?...haha.. this song at first is dedicated to someone de.. but now.. i tin is no need le ba..haha.. take care very one... tml my test le.. haha.. wish me good luck!!!!!

label: good luck

2009-02-18T01:51:00.003+08:00

haha.. wa so late le still blog sia... haha... i donno y? i freaking happy sia.. haha.. damn happy... haha... at least i make a right decision... haha... ya. u all may think i pretending... seriously.. i'm happy... cos i understand wat i doing... i know wat i doing... at least i had done a righht thing.... at least this is wat i can do ba... haha...

here a proverb tat say: when u cant get ur love, let ur love be happy, and u will be happy..

finally, i saw her happiness... but i hope her parent will recover soon.... may god bless them..ya, i'm happy... haha... lol.... i know wat u guy are thinking... but tat not the way la... reali...

thing like slightly better for me... A LITTLE BIT better only la... haha.. i realise that there quite a no of friend tat care for me 2.... ya.. tat wat i have been wanting all the while... although just 2or 4 of them.. i'm already quite happy le... haha... i think it better for me to continue to be a joker in my clique ba... that the only way to see me happy also... haha... and of cos, make ppl happy...=)))))..

let tok abt today ba...erm morning wake up go eat with mymum... den go sch.. actually going to meet a friend for lunch de.. but ii forget...haha... so forgetful nowadays ar...haha... so i jiu just go sch study only lor..haha....finally, i have proven myself abt my special ability le... remember i told u all that my friend say i got special ability... tat is i can learn thing very fast.,... haha..just a few hour i only everything abt my advance math which i fail my common test de... erm wait.. not everthing la... still got 1 part still not very sure..haha... and suddenly from the advance math i understand all of my engineering math... my friend ask me how to do and unexpectedly i can solve the question...haha... i reali quite suprise... haha... but it reali going to crack my brain if i continue to use this ability... cos i have to 1 shot remember everything lor... haha.... study till i finish 1 test paper by myself den jiu nv study le... cos my friend they all distract me ma.. all wan play game..haha... den jiu play with them lor...haha.... play till 7plus, acc 1 of my friend go cck eat... haha cos nv go eat lunch ma... so jiu acc go cck eat lor... haha... acctually got 3 ppl go eat de... but 1 suddenly cant go den jiu left the 2 of us lor.. haha... eat long john again...haha... eat finish only 8 plus...den don feel like going home so we all jiu just tok tok and chit chat lor.. chat abt alot of thing....ya... got chat abt our past. joke,many other thing la...haha... ya quite happy... very very very long nv chat till like tat le... ya.. chat till going 10 den jiu go home le... ;)

reach home around going 11 le... on com, look look around other ppl blog, den play awhile of game, den play till now come blog lor... ya... hahaha...
erm got alot of thing to say to alot of ppl ar... so every one go look for ur name ok=)))))

karim: hei, read wat i had tad on ur blog?.. yaya.. that the main thing u need to have ok?... unless u saw it, den don think 2 much k...haha... i believe bro won bluff u de la... come on=)...okok? try to control ur temper la.... ok... haha... if not bro will be sad again de... ok....

bro: yaya... although i donno wat happen, but at least i know u all like quarreling... erm, just give her some time to change k..haha... don be sad... call me if u need a listening ear...ya... haha... like last time... =) okok?..haha... take care ar... got any thing sms me...

law.. forget to thank you for the valentine present u gave me..haha.. sorry tat i didnt buy any thing ar...haha.. cos i donno...haha... so still use to it to ur china phone?...haha.. got anything sms me and ask lor...haha...

sis: don say i forget u ar... thank 4 the valentine day present tat u and law buy give me de...haha.. thank=)... don keep bully law la... yaya...

chermaine: haha... i'm reali happy tat u found ur true happiness....ya.. serious...like wat the proverb said just now... the only happiness i can give u is to let u find u true happiness... and u found it tat y i happy...haha..yaya... hope u 2 last long ar...haha... got any thing tell me k...haha... take care... the promise will nv b broken...=) lastly, hope tat ur parent will be fine.. i will pray for them de...ya.. u must take care.... my dear friend=)

samual: thank 4 2day...ya... no pain no gain... haha... good luck 4 our incoming test=)

haha... ok.. that all ba.. haha.. wandering how my old clique doing... i mean those mac de.. haha.. hope u all are fine=)....;) ok ba.. i think i got nothing to blog le ba... haha... erm got any thing will come blog again de...haha=) take care everyone=);))))

label: i really happy
label: u all may not be able to contact me.. so jsut sms me n i may reply back=)
label: a new song will tell how i feel(soon)
label:page 7

2009-02-16T11:00:00.002+08:00

yoyoyoyoyoyoy..haha.. here i'm again...haha... kk let say abt something tat had happened the past few day....

14/2/09
it valentine's day.. yaya i didnt go out in the moring and afternoon.. actually wan go sch study de... but nv go... haha.. cos lazy ar.... some more no mood go out... haha.. den at night bro call me ask me go his house play.. think abt it.. morning they call me go out i nv go le... den since go his hoouse so near i jiu go lor... haha... if not they all will angry de...haha... lol... reach his house at his room tok tok play guitar awhile... acutally wan play mahjong or card de... but some ting happen.. erm it same as my cases sia... totally the same... wat i do he do.. but their thing happen faster then mine... erm i think i should not elaborate ba...haha.. haix... just a few word 4 bro sis.. 'make him touch if u wan it back'.... haix....
ok den i jiu left bro house with my sis and law around 1am at nite.. wah so late.. lor... went rest a while den slp...
15/2/09
slp till very late... den nv go teach tution cos reali very tired... den afternoon go sch study..wtf.. go sch play 1.5 hour de game den study..waste my time... den i study alone lor... haha... wah i so guai wor..haha... lol.. den study till 6 go home... very hungry by that time... no money buy food eat sia.. quite poor thing hor...haha...no work ma... reach home jiu eat le... haha.. play awhile of com... watch tv.. jiu go slp le...
16/2/09
haha.. just wake up.. den going to eat soon le...after i blog finish..haha....later going to sch study again... haha.... later at night i den blog again ba... haha...bye...

2009-02-14T15:47:00.005+08:00

happy valentine's day...haha... hope all the couple in the world will be happily ever after...haha...

while, i just pack my room just now... and saw something... haha.. a valentine present given by some 1...erm last year de la... haha... read through the note again think tat quite funny sia...haha.. the last 3 sentence say tat if u don't like the present den throw it away ba..haha... lol... a gift from u where will i bear to throw it away... haha... lol... think of it, i first time recieve that kind of present.. and seriously i like it alot sia.. haha.. it just tat i quite long nv take it out and see le... haha.. haix... let bygone be bygone by.. haha.... the last sentence say... lastly i hope we 2 can last forever. but of cos must see fate... hahah... that go to say:no fate ba..haha... haha... there 1 part but a photo of my dumbo.... ( ya. wat u say had come true. i see it i think of u)...haha... photo taken in a freezer. very cold but fun. yi jia birthday all the 9 of us taken a photo in a train.. it was ur most favourite photo...but i tin no more le ba.. haha...the bear i give u.. must be thrown away le ba... haha.... nvm la.... everthing it past le ma... left it also no use... erm i tin i still going to keep it ba.. cos it a special present i nv recieve b4.. haha.... happy valentine day to u;)...haha.... hope u enjoy ur day...

actually going out with bro,karim,sis,law,bro's sis, bro sis's bf 4 ktv de...very long nv go de..want go de...but tin of it, i extra ma... so nv go lor. plus, it different le.. haha... plus no mood la... sorry ar bro and karim... not i don wan go.the above are my reason..ya.... haha... hope u all enjoy today=)....

next week test le..haha... faster test finish le i gonig to find job le.. yaya... maybe going ps wk jong little with law. or may be park mall there de fish and co with my friend...park mall is just opposite ps..haha... or maybe wk at mall de cotton on=).... haha.. haix.. hope my gpa still can maintain at 3.5... ya.. quite slack this year...pon 2 many time le...haha.... don tok y i pon le la...haha.... erm...

sometime i reali don feel like studying le.. reali no mood ar... now i reali understanding the feeling of acting strong.. i nv show my depressed face in front of my sch mate. nv. i just create joke, play with them, ya. even they say those hurtful word.i just keep quite or just make a joke out of it. ya it quite tired acting strong sometime. some time at home it the same. just don wish them to know wat i doing, wat i thinking, wat i want... ya so far no 1 know. n i nv say.. some more i don wishh to say.ya. haha...

now. i only say everthing to my guitar... haha... play it make me feel better. make me smile. make me forget the pain i have. haha.... so interesting ba... musical instrument is like tat de... it the police of the sadness..haha... catch away all the sadness...ya.. haha... funny rite... but it jiu shi like tat to me...ya.. haha.. ok ba... time to play it le la... lastly... happy valentine day to u all..once again, hope all the couple now will last forever.. regardless of fate=).. ya.. tat my blessing... bro and law.... a more special bless to u 2..: hope to attend u all de wedding dinner..haha...take care every1=)

label:u know y it different
label:happy valentine day to all
label:guitar speak all my mind

2009-02-13T20:50:00.002+08:00

yoyoyo... here a phrase i leart 2day...haha....: "if u can't convince them, confuse them!"... haha... this phrase quite interesting hor... haha...but quite bad... cos it like wanting wat u cant get, make other cant get it 2.....haix... so try not to have this phrase as ur moto...haha..

bored is my life.
study is my hope.
u are my love.
future is my goal.
fate is my destiny.
destiny is my fate.

so let work it out!!!

haha... 2day got sch.. actually got morning lesson at 8am de.. but i pon... den wan go eat lunch with bro and karim de.. but over slp... haha... den wake up go sch... reach sch around 1pm.. den my friend tell me tat last lesson cancel le... den i was like wtf... haha... cos i go sch 1hr plus den lesson only less den a hour... den nvm lor.. go play lor... haha.. wa... we break our record of playing dota vs ai sia... haha... with my classmate... our 1st play is 10min 42 sec... 5v5 ai...
den we like still wan to break,... haha... we play normal mode lea... only all random mode... den try again and again and again... finally... our new record is 9 min 49 dec...haha.... all of us is like damn happy la.. haha... lol..play till 7 pm go home sia.... reach home ard 8.40... eat le here blogging lor... haha... next week test le...haix... got to study hard le.... ya...

tml valentine day le... don have the mood to go out sia... reali don feel like going out sia.. haix... kk ba... gtg le... going to study le... ya... bye every1...

label: valentine day is going to be different le...

2009-02-12T22:59:00.003+08:00

yoo... haha.. here i'm again..haha... just finish my sch wk.. sian ... quick busy sia.. but haha... still catch a moive with friend this afternoon sia.. haha.. we go see the bride war.... haha.. quite funny la... haha... erm the show still ok la.. not say very nice and not say very bad... haha.. thing still very confuse for me ar... ya.. haha... don elaborate le la.. haha..

ok.... erm test coming soon le... so most likely will c me blog abit less le... once exam finish le..haha... i will be back again...haha...

after test got to plan alot of thing le... wk all this.. hai.. haven find a job yet sia... shit... haha... must faster go get le... ya... or else reali reali no money to spend le... haha....

opp!!!!! valentine coming sia.. in 2 day time... haha... erm i tin... tat day i don go out ba... haha.. be guai ppl... study at home.. lol... not no ppl date me la... is just don feel like going out... of cos got reason de la... partly like wat i say just now.. i wan study... another part... erm i tin don say ba... haha...

tml last day of going sch study le... not i get kick out.. is study break le....tat go to say... i will be bored at house again... haha... nvm.. i tin i know wat to do le... haha... study and hunt 4 job...ya...haha.... tat the best way... haha...

~~thing happen let me just keep tinking of u again...i donno y... that my destiny ba... hai... take care~~

label:take care and good luck

2009-02-10T21:13:00.008+08:00

here i'm bloggin again....haha.... damn boring so i blog again lor... haha...

suddenly feel very sad sia.... donno y....suddenly feel tat haix... don say ba...

how i wish i will be there 4 u like last time... but i cant tell u any more... i reali want to tell u tat i understand u well now... i can feel how u feel... but no use le ba.. i cant say anything like tat to u le... no more like b4... ya.... this is my fate ba.... which was maybe created by u or my destiny ba... haix... i reali don wish to c u been hurt... but nothing i can do now... i cant say anything... or cant do anything for u now...

2009-02-10T15:45:00.003+08:00

haha...so how is my new skin...nice rite..haha... yea.... finally got new skinle...haha... or else ppl will say tat wat my blog very ma fan or wat ever shit sia... lol... haha... ok ba,... enjoy ur stay here...haha

2009-02-10T13:00:00.002+08:00

yoo...nv go sch.. haha.. lazy sia.... so i here blog again... just cut my hair come back... erm not say very nice sia.. abit disappointed... haha....

just saw a poem when looking for blogskin...
his is how it go:
it's a beautiful day
my cellphone rang
i pick it up to find tat it you
and you are calling to say tat i love you and i want u to know
when i'm with u i nv want to go
when i'm with you i love you more each day
and this is all i want to say

you make me smile
we talk or awhile
i think to myself and i know how u feel
cause i feel the same way
so i say, i love youand i want u to know
when i'm with u i nv want to go
when i'm with you i love you more each day
and this is all i want to say

sweet rite... haha.. i like it alot... haha.. the title of this poem i going to name it "i love you and i want u to know"...haha.... nice rite....

haha.. k i going to find a new skin 4 my blog le... haha.... later den blog ba...=)

2009-02-10T10:07:00.002+08:00

hello everybody=)...haha..here i'm again.... 2day no sch... cos 2day de lesson finish le... haha.. but later i going to sch to study.. omg since when i become soo guai=)...haha...that wat i say time pass tin will change=)... haha... okok.... let tok abt ytd 1st ba...

ytd wake up at 7... was abit tired and wanted to go back and slp de... but no choice later got test... lab test....haha,... so quickly go bath le den go out take bus... slpt in the bus awhile... lucky i got aet alram clock or else i jiu will over slp le and miss the bus stop..haha... it was stilll early so i slowly walk to the class.... den saw my freind jeffrey, justin and hong hao... they are some of the clique tat i alway hang with in sch.... hat awhile till teacher came..lol... teacher late sai... by 5 min... haha.... stupid teacher....lol.... ok took the test... erm quite easy la... not as difficult as i expected.... but there some mistake which like maybe minus 3-4 mark lor... lol...

after test when to blk 5 of our sch which the 1 tat we always stay there and play com de place....cos have to wait 4 the rest which was the 2nd batch of student to go 4 the test... den around 11.30 they came... they are samual, jia ming, nick, lieon, yusof.... lol... den we paly a game of dota cos vvery bored and we got 5.5 hr of break sia... played finish os like around 12 plus le... den we go canteen have our lunch... didnt eat alot cos donno y nowadays no wei kou... eat le den planned to go play pool near our sch de... but some don wan play so they stay in sch... den i, lieon, samual and jeffrey go play lor....

they all is like quite pro la... we play 2v2 at 1st... i and lieon team... paly 5 round... the score is 2-3... guess who win.. my team la... lol...den after tat we play 1v1.. the winner team play 1st.. which mean i v lieon... haha... quite lucky in my shot... and guess who win again... of cos me la... they where is my du shou...haha... den the loser team vs le... and samual won... haha... follow by the loser vs the loser.. which is lieon vs jeffrey... and a rule was set.... the final loser will have to pay 4 the whole game... haha... lieon loser... haha.. .den my turn to vs samual... same thing a rule was applied... the loser will have to treat every1 eat pizza hut... lol... at 1st i don wan de... scare no money pay ar.. haha... but tin of my acc.. i tin sch be enough ba.. cos got student price la... so we jiu play lor... i start to play abit serious.... lol... lost abit at 1s.. but manage to catch up at last... haha.... so at the end i win again...the overrall winner which is me=)))))....hahah.....lol...

den we pack up and went to pay the pool table rent... lieon pay..haha... thank ar=)... den went o pizza hut eat.. nv order.. all they order... cos not i pay ma... will shy if i just order.... lol... they order group set + 8 piece honey bbq drumlet+ crisscross fries... realise tat their fries like standard drop le sia.... my friend also say so... haha... lol... i prank my freind again... i uncover the top of the cheese bottle... den my friend go pour the cheese on his pizza.. and bomb... alot of cheese drop on his plate of pizza..haha... heihei don think is just me de idea hor... my 2 other friend idea also hor... haha... lol... eat and laugh sia... we also tok abt other think also... yaya... haha... and damn funny la... eat half way my friend samual suddenly keep look at some1 sittin behind our table... den we turn around and realise tat oooo.. he look at girl sia...lol... we keep teasing him...haha... den tat table of girl tat my friend looking at all go toliet... den i suddeny got an idea... haha.. i quickly take out a pen write his hp no. on a piece of tissue paper.. and quickly run to tat able and put tat piece of tissue paper on the table and run back to my sit... lol.... den my freind was so shy la...haha... lol... damn funny... den we was waiting 4 the girl to call.... lol... den wait wait wait... den we eat finish le we jiu go and pay money and den we go back sch 1st... cos going to be late 4 our next lesson le...

i think the girl also shy to call la... haha.... we keep toking abt this topic while walking to sch...haha... back to sch to have our lesson le... it free lesson again.. haha.. den was very happy la... do our own think... we there watch movie... 4bia.... the movie got mermory to me de... ya... some part of my beautiful memory de... haix.. don tok abt it le la... lol... my friend scare sia.... lol... even those who have watch be4 de still scare sia... lol... i was at there laughing and they also laugh at themself sia.... lol.... freaking funny....

lesson ended den we decide to go watch movie de... go cck, near the mrt station there de eng wah.... but we go there the movie was like all the next going to played de movie is 9plus... den i was liek wah lao so late... so i jiu don wan watch le lor... but samual, jia ming and lieon still go and watch cos tml no sch ma... haha... but still early den i pei them go eat mac 1st... damn long nv eat mac le sia... i didnt eat la... but i steal their fries and eat... haha... den while eating we tok abt my experience abt mac de.... they quite shock tat i can be a manager of mac sia.. and i told them i wk last den 1 year jiu be le... they more shock... lol...tok tok tok den nothing to tok le... den play riddle... lol got dirty riddle got funny riddle sia... haha... we laugh till stomach pain sia... haha...den nothing to tok le we go up play acarde.... haha... nothing much to play la... paly takedona... and find the difference... takedona got win got lose la... haha.. find the differece manage to find alot... but didn clear the stage of 18... sian... haha... den by the time their show going to start le... so didnt continue play le... den i jiu go home.. go home bath eat jiu go slp le..,.

haha... now just eat finish my breakfast den here bloggin le.. later go cut hair 1st den come home bath den go sch le... sian sia... test coming soon le... got abit of rush la... cos the whole sem i nv pay attention in class.... now need o rush in studying le... haix. but my friend say i still can make it de... cos i got some special learning skill.. lol.. donno is true or not.. i don even know it.. cos they say they teach me a few time i jiu know how to do le... lol.. i tin is they teach too good le ma... lol... kkk ba... wish me good luck 4 my test k... than=)

some time c u so sad make me shink ...... u nv promise wat u had promise me... don be bullied again... remember... u didnt promise...ya.... i cant do any thing now.. i am no body to u now... wat i can do is just be here feeling sad 4 u... haix... heartbroken 4 u...haix... no word can express my feeling is... no word... ya...

y all my friend around me start to have thing happening, her, kelly jie and my sis and law, my bro and karim, kelvin( although he maybe ok le), yi jia( like he had change to other guy),even my sch friend samual... ya... maybe it time for them to face some challenge?... or it time 4 me to c show... obviously i don wish to c show ma... but some time i just can do anything to help my friend... maybe god want me to know tat i'm useless ba... ya... tat must be it.. i just cant c any reason other den tat le... or is it i'm a curse... to cos friend around me to suffer... ya no pain no lesson... but y the pain is not in me?... y?... haix....

label:no word can expain my feeling...
label: i'm just a curse and useless...

2009-02-08T16:24:00.000+08:00

yoo...haha...back to blog again=)..how u all...haha... ermi still ok la.. haha...just tat freaking boring lor... u mayb wandering y i don wan go out ba.... haha.. it not that i don wan go out...it tat i got no money to go out sia... den now u wandering y i don wan find a job rite... haha... cos now i exam no time to wk also....yaya... u tin i wan to stay at home de mea...so bored...haha... somemore at stay at home i will... haix... u all won understand de la...lol...

sian going to have test soon le... haix... got to wk hard le... good luck to the rest of u all 2=)...

i notice tat i wasnt update to wat had happen to my friend sia... like kelvin, kelly law my sis, chermaine, lian shun, shi wei, yi jia, boon yuan they all sia... hope all of u are fine....
to kelvin: u are a understanding person... who speak like a man... i mean those matural word la...so don be sad to wat had happen in the past... yaya...
to kelly, law, my sis: all this mayb just a misunderstanding ba... k... don cause ofthe past den quarrel k... come on... we can still be good freind... don be angry with 1 another... cheer up...
to lian shun:yoolong time nv play ball with u all le lea... donno y we like quarrel sia... 4 nothing... lol... kk last long with ur gf ar...is yi ting rite... hope i nv say dao shi wei de...haha...
to shi wei: yoo also very long nv play ball with u le lea...haha... find 1 day play together la... haha.. hope u are still fine..ya... i know something happen... but just cheer up k... ya...
to yi jia:how u?... MIA ar... damn long nv see dao u lea... hope u are fine=)
to boon yuan... porn freak still watching ar...lol... how u?... next time go out 2gether la...haha
to chermaine: iknow the reason...(wat u writing in ur blog)...but just cheer up k...i tin u had misunderstand ur parent le la.. they are not don wan see dao u...is tat, maybe cos u have been wking everyday den they just asking if u going wk taka ma nly la...i mean just normal asking la... ya.. u must be quite stress of alot of tin ba... ya... feel free to tell me... although we had ... but we still freind ma.. ya... cheer up k=).... don giveup so easily... ya... there alway ppl supporting u... remember k=).... free we go out again lor...haha.... with shi wei they all=)...yaya... miss the past tat we all go out ba... ya i miss it 2..haha... k ba... take care k=)... cheer up ar=)....
to karim:aiyo... don say i 4get u la... take care k... don quarrel with bro le la... some time just let 1 another la....lol... ok=)... last long ar..=)

haha... k ba...it time i end my post le la... shall blog again sometime=)

2009-02-07T01:14:00.002+08:00

yoo...long time no blog le.... haha... how u all..=).... hope all of u are fine.. i'm fine..now taking a break from my assignment.... thing still ok to me...expect looking 4 job.... i have to wait till i get my typhoid from kovan den i can get my mac pay sia./.. sian...haix... den the kovan boss don wan give christine so tat she can pass to me... stupid boss.... den must wait till he wk den can get from him... den he is like only wk on this sun de graveyard... den i promise the ave8 de rm le... say by this sun sia... den how...arrrr.... lol.... tin i wait at the kovan till the boss come lor.... sian;....

haha... now sch start to be busy le... haix.. regreted this sem nv study hard sia.... even the clique that i alway hang with in sch say tat i can do very well de lor.... is just tat i nv study hard... haix...but there is a reason tat i will do this de ma... but nvm.... i tin i now study hard still can catch up ba... haha.... hope so... btw thank kelly jie 4 encourage me 2=)....

law sorry lea.... i reali by 2day den know tat i need to hang in my assignment by tml 7pm.... sorry if i got like hai dao u...=X.... sorry.... tml i promise will lend u my you so call de lappy de.... ;)...

tin like have change alot around me... ya...there a word tat say... everyone will change.... i agree... they may change by a little.. or maybe by alot... haha.... i agree i also will change... once i was i mummy boy... change to bad boy... change to okok but still like will tok back to parent or like show off... change to now...?... i also donno wat i had change to... cos no 1 tok me abt it... haha,,... ya... once i was like so bad.... tat y i deserve tat day ba... haha... lol.... erm i just wish to say to my friend around me tat, i don mind u all change.. but hope u all won change alot... and if ever there is any comment abt u all... hope u all don angry, don get offenced by me ar... just, u know so small tok like tat la... hope if there is ever this kind of case.... i don mind u all give me comment abt me... yaya.. cos i willing to listen to u all.... if u all don like my behavior, and u all tell me, and i go fan xin fan xin.... and if i fan xin dao i got wrong i will change... yaya... haha.... i won blame u all de la... in fact i will thank u all... cos u all make me a better man=)....haha....

haix, next next week test le.... have to jia you le...=)... haha.... hope my gpa can get 3.4 at least.... haha.... don dare to set high ar...cos my common test didnt reali do quite well... haha... this 2 week reali have to use my super power to study le...haha...

o, sian quite long nv play guitar le... nv play dao any song this week... cos no time ar...this week reali very busy 4 me.... sian.... haha...

sometime i wandering, wat my goal now..... everytime b4 my slp.... ever since 'then'... wat am i aiming for?... haha... u all must also b wanderin wat my goal now ba..haha... erm actually wat i wan now is quite simple....
1)do well in study so i can go university
2)have a simple and happy life(if can with my loved one for the rest of my life)
3)play guitar
4)earn more money so next time my parent no need so tired

haha.. tat my current goal... now i just need to concentrate on 1 and 4... 2 and 3 can do it anytime... haha,,, it tat 1 and 4 have to work harder... yaya.... haha...

k ba... tat it for my break le la... need to go and continue my assignment le la...=)... see u all next time=).... hope u all have a good nite=)

label:fate decide destiny or destiny decide fate....

2009-02-01T13:13:00.002+08:00

arr...head pain now... haix.... ytd must be drink abit 2 much le,... haix... head damn pain now lor... arrrggg..haha... stuipd boon kiat wat u had done ytd nite...arggg.... haix... i also donno sia.... but wat ever it is.... sorry.... i reali donno wat i had send u tat day... sorry.... wat i promise u had alway been in my mind... reali.. haha... i will try to protect wat we had promise de.. haha... kk ba... wat ever i had say don angry k... i also donno wat i had send u sia.. haha... serious... so don angry ar... take care=)... u don 4get me hor.... lol... as a friend la... haha...

okok... back to my guitar le.. cos also donno wan blog wat ...haha,,...
happy birthday karim.....=)... mature abit la... haha... last long with des=)....

Label:watever it is... u will alway be remembered=)

2009-01-31T18:39:00.005+08:00

(the darkness)

g d7 f c
am f c g

c
life in here are scary,
am-------------------f ----------g
and it were nv, be the, same.
c
evrything have change,
am-------------------- f ---------- g
till i cant accept... all... of... it...

am-------------------f
the pain i have, the hurt i got,
g------------------- d7
is the 1st time, i got..
am--------- f
but all tis ,isnt under control,
g----------------------------d7------------g\
and i had nv wan it... to.... hap...pen.

g-----------------------------d- ---------------f------------------------ c
we just end it with a simple msg , and i hap no choice but to agree.
am---------------------------- f
cos i want u to have ur happiness..
g -------------- d
but this isnt, wat i want.
c----------------------am-------------f------------g
cos i just want a simple life, with you

c am f g

c---------am
it just a simple ans,
f ---------------------- g
but tat make me miserable .
c
i cant do anything,
am
and i had to live with it.
f------------------------g
just to make you happy.

g------------d7
right here i'm crying,
f--------c
deeply in my heart.
am-------------f
thinking of our memory,
c-------------g
cos i cant erase it.
em---------------d7
i know i have to forget it,
f--------------------c
but this will nv just be it.
am---------------f---------------c-----------g---------c\
cos that not an sim....ple mem.or.y..

g-----------------------------d- -------------f-------------------------- c
we just end it with a simple msg , and i hap no choice but to agree.
am----------------------------- f
cos i want u to have ur happiness..
g -------------- d
but this isnt, wat i want.
c----------------------am-------------f-----------g
cos i just want a simple life, with you

c am f g x2

yes.. this is my song.. no time to upload how it like cos my hse very nosie ar... cant record... next time i will post it de... ya...some part there have been change...

ok ba... that all ba.. take care... will upload the song of how it like de...=)

2009-01-31T13:24:00.002+08:00

yoo... here bloging again...haha.,.. ytd nite my bro send me a song... sound quite real to me... tat song call '傻瓜' ... lol... ok pause the song on ur left and play the song below... inside the bracket is my comment..k

Éµ¹Ï - ÎÂá°

其实他做的坏事我们都懂(ya i know...but i nv say)
没有什么不同
眼光闪烁暧昧流动(tat wat u have)
闭上眼当作听说(tat wat sometime u do)

其实别人的招数我们都懂(i know.. it the same as u)
没有什么不同(ya totally the same)
故作软弱撒娇害羞(tat wat sometme u do also)
只是有一点别扭(ya i agree.. u also sometime like tat)

傻瓜也许单纯地懂(sound like you.but is me)
爱得没那么做作(i may be, but)
爱上了我不保留(tat wat i do..keep it)

傻瓜我们都一样(ya i'm a sa gua.. i same as u all)
被爱情伤了又伤(this is the 3rd time and the deepest)
相信这个他不一样( i reali believe tat u not the same as them)
却又再一次受伤(hai now i still get hurt)

傻瓜我们都一样(ya)
受了伤却不投降(till now i still cant give out i don understand why)
相信付出会有代价(ya i give up alot of thing. reali alot just tat u donno)
代价只是一句傻瓜 (tat wat i get ba)

understand?those in bracket is wat i can say abt myself by the lyrics... haix... there is time i tok i had let go... but.. i haven't... i just don understand y god have to do this to me... a challenge tat i nv want... ya... not going to say much le....

Label:page:7
Label:i nv want it at 1st..nv..

2009-01-30T23:45:00.000+08:00

yooyooyoo... back to blog le... haix.. cant fall aslp jiu come here write abit of bullshit lor... 2day don reali have the mood to do alot of thing... haix... 2day wake up very earily.. cos got sch at 8... wake up at 6.30...normally wake up at 6 de... haix... ytd note drink abit so know tat morning sure cant wake up de.. so purposelywake up late lor... reach sch ard 8.15.. nv go straight to class, instead i go eat breakfast 1st.... den go class.... now i late 4 class is like very normal le.. haix,... since when i become like tat sia.... haix... haix.... seriously.... everyday i don have the mood to go sch... i just go 4 the seek of the attendance only lor.. haix... i also don wish to say y i no mood la.. just tat... haix... nvm la.. u all won believe n understand de la... haix... actually got listen till 5 and have a class test at 4 de... but i pon cos of some reason... and i also don wish to say y la... haix... haix... u all just don understand...
i leave sch at 12... reach home saw shi wei le.. rest awhile tilll 1 plus... den wake up prepare to go out with my sis law shiwei kelvin... hax... go ps watch movie.... watch ink heart.. erm okok la.... after tat go play pool... haix.. no mood sia... no mood n feeling down....
haix.... haix..................... i notice something,,, i have a secrete diary in my laptop... 2day go find something den saw it.... i decided.... most of the sad thing i going to write in there... but i will put up the page that i had writen...1 date per page.... haha... kkk u will c it under label:.... haha...
k ba.. i also donno wat to write le.... didnt play guitar this few day.. cos reach home also quite late le... pai nian... go drink with friend... 2day watvh movie...den no time paly... haix.. tml reali must enjoy it sia... mayb will post the eng song i wrote de tml...haha.... wait ba.... hahaha.... k ba... reali got nothing to write le....

Label:down, miss, pain, sour, ache.
Label:page:6

2009-01-27T14:49:00.002+08:00

back to blog again... just end wk.... 2 day last day... haha... tml sch le... haha...
ytd i slp.. and i dream of some thing that reali very real....reali very very real... n i know i'm not drunk.... seriously... i dream tat... something make me very happy... u know?... the hug and kisses is like reality... i can feel it... but wat disappointed me is when i wake up.. everything change again... the world tat i nv want... how i wish i can stay in the dream 4ever... just 4ever... haix.....n nv wake up... haix.... that dream make me very touch...the word she say the move she do... is like recorded in my brain le... i have been thinking if i realli dreaming or is real... and i have been keep on thinking of it...
haix,... tok till here ba... next time den tok abt other thing..
Label: 'miss alot' is the phrase, back in past is wat i want, n now is diaster....

2009-01-26T23:47:00.002+08:00

yoyoyo...just came back from amk...1 of my relative hse...haha... 2day morning wk at ave 8 till like 2.... haha.. quite fun... very long nv wk in mac le.. i tin i old le la.... haha... or maybe cos i very very long nv like 1 person run 3 station le... haaha... 2day run hashbrown, run line 2, run runner at 1 go ar.. haha... very long nv like tat le..haha... afternoon run kitchen... with an aunty... haha... and tat was when crowd in tat time... haha....
kk finish wk jiu went home bath... haha... wait 4 my parent come back den go amk awhile den go her hse... haha....very long nv go her hse le.... go pai nian with her parent and ah ma.... haha.... also quite miss them... ya...
u still the same ar... have that cute face slping... haha.... reali miss those cute face that u alway show me... haha,thank 4 the food... reali thank alot ar=)... very long nv chat with u le.. actually got alot of word to tok to u de...sorry ar.... nv reali tok to u much... cos i don reali know how to tok ar.... sorry...
lol... they said tat i slim le... haha... i also nv notice dao...lol....my cos reali my wei kou reali drop le ba.... haha.... but c u finally eat alot le i also very happy.... haha... like tat den healthier ma...haha..
around 8 i leave le.. cos need go back amk again... haha...
k ba... gtg to go and slp le... later still need wk... haha... good nite every1
label:'miss' is the word...

2009-01-26T00:17:00.002+08:00

yoo!!!!! happy new year...haha!!!:)

moohooo.... i hereby wish every1 a happy new year n wish every1 a healthy life, good result, guai guai... live happily...good luck.. good fortune...haha... nice ba... ok... last of all... get more more hong bao n enjoy ur life...haha,..

moohoo... just now play mahjong lost 25 sia... but nvm... new year ma... is ok de la... can win back ma...haha... but i notice tat i have been down on luck ever since something happen sia... lol.. hope this new year can clear all my bad luck away... haha...den good luck come come...

haha.... ok ba gtg n slp le.. don post so long la... cos tml morning still have to go wk.... haha...bye bye=)

2009-01-24T01:13:00.002+08:00

yoo yooyoo....haha..wah so late le still blogging.... haha....cant fall aslp ma...
haha... kk let tok abt 2day.... fcuking suai 2day lor... ok.. wake up at 6.30.... wash up le go prepare den left the house... take bus 101 to monfort there to chang ebus de... ok i was tired... reach monfort feel slpy... den i was not wearing my spect... den i saw a bus came... i tok is bus 74.. cos i saw 7 and 4... but i nv saw completly...but jiu bored the bus le...cos scare late jiu nv care much le....
ok starting was as usually... den i was very tired... set alarm den jiu go slp awhile... when i wake up(the alarm have ring) i saw i at serangoon when i suppose to be at amk by that time... deni relise that i took the wrong bus...but nv still can take just tat it very long... so bo bian have to pon the 1st lesson lor.... den carry on take... den slp awhile... till dover i tok tat the stop to alight... who know it not... have to go climenti alight...lucky there also got bus to my sch... but have to walk very far.... nvm... so reali have to pon the 1st lesson....
k... den reach sch at 9.30... wait till 10.... den have test... autocad test... was quite easy la... but the question abit tricky... have to calculate out alot of tin and the time very little.... nv complete... left a few text nv write, the rest do ok le.... so it like lost 2-5 mark ba... nvm..... this year aim 4 pass jiu hao.. next year choin.... haha... cos i was like performing not so good this year...
and something weird... sec sch teacher like send my imformation to ploy sia... all the EE teacher like know me sia... they like how axtually my result should be sia.... lol.... den they keep nagging me... haha... bobian... this year slack alot le... next year reali must choin le...haha....
ok back to topic....after test i saw my phone... nv tok tat i will recive that msg.. nv... was shock... and happy...
after tat those clique i alway hand with during sch like ganna infected by me sia... almost all say wan pon math tutorial lesson sia... lol.... cute la... i was super duper happy la... can pon a lesson with all my friend... den we decide to go pizza hut eat... haha...damn funny la... my friend ganna prank by me the 2nd time lor... i lossen the cap of a cheese... den my friend take n a pool of cheese drop on his table... we was like all laughing like hell la... laugh till full le... i was not reali laughing la... cos this kind of prank use to it le... alway prank ppl like tat de ma... omly stupid ppl will be prank by the kind of joke lor...aome more before tat we was toking abt this kind of prank lor... cos last time he also prank by me like tat b4 ma... den who know ganna agian... lol....
eat till like total 50plus... only 4 person eat... the rest wan eat budget meal... haha...
eat finish le was actually planing to play pool de...cos freaking long nv play le... but left 2 hr... den jiu don feel like playing le... next next mon den play.... 6hr break sia... haha... jiu go back sch lor... back afew round of dota.. cos nothing to do ma.. bored... bobian we jiu play dota lor...
den have 1/2 hr of lesson... cos teacher nothing to teach... jiu leave early... after tat jiu part from them le... cos later going to teach tution...now nv take wrong bus... but caught in a traffic jam sia... haix.. sian half lor.. don dare to slp... cos once i slp ... jiu will tried... tired jiu don feel like teaching le... some more i have been postponing the lesson a few time le... so bo bian have to bear with it....
went home 1st... put laptop..eat abit go teach tution.... teach till 8 go find bro.... at amk hub... he still working so i go walk ard... c got any nice clothe to buy... have seen some.. but not planing to buy 1st... cos today going to bugis and penersular to walk and see.... haha...
den zhi zhong call me sia.. was quite shock la... very very very long nv see dao him le lor... actually wan me go ps find him de.. he alone ma... but i promise bro to eat with him later le... so nv go meet him... next time will jio u out de... haha...
fianlly 10 le... bro end wk le... den he say going ave 8 eat...cos meeting karim... den ok lor... since he pay 4 the cab... haha... eat at the new open duck rice shop... ok la... quite nice...haha... can go try... yaya give 3.5 chopstick... haha....
den jiu go home...bro send karim home 1st... den take bus home... wait 4 mine bus fcuking long la.... den nvm... when bored the bus... i overshot the stop... have to walk back 1 bus stop and den walk to my house sia... fcuking suai rite... haix... den reach home ganna scold by my dad say y nv wash the plate... wa lao... my sis at home the whole day she don wan wash nv scold her scold me.... fuk la... den fucking suai lor... hai... tin have to go paipai le... haha...
den now bloging lor... listen to song... den c which song nice and can play on guitar de... jiu go find tab and learn... lol...
o ya...chinese new year coming in 2 day... here i wish every one a happy new year 1st... haha... hope every 1 will have a happy life, good fortune, healthy life and good life... haha....my new year wish alot sia....
1) every1 around me healthy
2) every1 around me happy
3) no more lonly
4) more cash=get job
5) simple life
6) she is happy with her life now
7) good result(den mean must choin very hard le)
8) guitar skill become pro(also must choin and learn from more person la. like law and bro)
9) can learn to play panio (hoping to find some1 tat can teach me panio lor)
10) create song tat singer can sing my song
11) no more sad thing happen anymore for me...(concentrate on studies, no more dating le... unless that girl can touch my heart. which is reali quite hard.or unless is_._._............. haha)
12) more new clothes, new guitar, new hoody, psp, new laptop(this have to wait no.4 ok 1st)
13) more freedom from parent(like can ton at ppl hse le)
14) less naggin from parent, teacher(shag sia all teacher know me)

still got but forget le... haha... this are all the 14 tat have to be done la... the rest 4get le jiu 4get le...haha... hope to full fill all my wish... may god bless me....espically no.4,6,7,8,9,and 10.... haha... kk.... blog till here ba... haha... cos also donno wan blog wat le... haha.... erm next time den blog ba.... haha... o ya... i have already decide ok for my eng song de tab le... hahahaha... and decide to change abit of the text le... haha... soon... very soon u all will going to hear my 1st new song le... hahahaha.... good bye... blog again ba... cya..

label: wait

2009-01-22T21:00:00.007+08:00

here i'm... and tat go to said i'm bored... haha

kk... let tok abt something..... erm kk... now i found the tab of the day you went away and something tat i already know... haha...now learning.... but sian... haix... i have to jia you le... haha...

new year coming le..hope to get lot lots of hang bao...haha.. no money le... now only hang bao can save me le...haha...

my exam also coming soon le... still trying to wk hard in it... but really need time ar...haha... have to score well le... anyway good luck to those who haveing exam soon.... haha....

haix... life still the same... wake up early in the morning, go sch, listen song, play game, study abit, go home, slp... haha... no event sia..boring... but life still have to go on... haha... i still live till ok la... haha... but reali very boring.... haha...

wahwahwah..... i stilll hate myself sia... reali don like myself sia... haix.... no choice ba... maybe tat my fate.. or maybe tat my destiny...... i have to live in myself ba... (profound ba,.. but i donno how to explain...) haix...

label: no u=no life
label: fate and destiny!!!!

2009-01-19T20:08:00.002+08:00

here i am and tat mean i'm bored now... haix... boring so come here anyhow blog lor....haha....

look like it proven tat time can change a person... haix... don wish to say abt it... just make me more sad...haix... how i wish the time tat i totally ___ __ __ ___ can come soon.... haix.... wat can i do... i cant force it... so just be it ba.... haix... nvm... good luck any way....

kk... a few day ago... i trying to compose the background music of the english song but i tin i still need to edit the song text abit..haha... once complete will pose...haha.... kk the below song it wat i want to play at guitar...
1)take me to ur heart
2)the day you went away
3)something that i already know
4)face down
5)bie shou wo de yan lie ni wu suo wei
6)hurt
7)all good thing
8)open your heart
9)qing fei de yi
10)guan huai fang shi
11)cai hong

haha... any1 got the tab can send me.... please...haha.... will be very thankful for tat....haha

k ba... sometime i just wish to live in a simple life.... tat all i wan... but i can.. tin just coop out... something keep happening... haix... maybe it my own problem ba... but watever it is.. hope u guy can live happily without me... take care every1.....

haix blog till here ba.... c u next time...haha... when i'm bored....

Label: goodluck and take care.....
Label: faster the time come....

2009-01-16T20:12:00.006+08:00

arrr...down with fever.... now 38degree le....sian...haix.... sorry law nv go pei u watch 2day..next time k... i reali sick....
haix...wake up tat time already not feeling well le... but have to go sch cos scare attentdance not enough den i cant take exam.. as starting of the term i pon alot of time le..... haix.... no choice.... who ask me want to......... haix.... don talk abt it ba....
sian next week got alot of class test n quiz lor... haix.... reali sian la.... haix... den now sick...don feel like study... abt no mood to study lor... haix... now can only wait till i recover i den got mood to study .... haix... k ba...

recently, i had been thinking of writing a chinese song... it still in progess... n the back ground music of the eng song i make last time is also still in progess...haha... once done i will record n post... still learning the song of canno in d and finding the tab of guan huai fang shi... look busy rite...but actually very boring.... but no choice ma.... kill time jiu play with guitar lor.. haha...

some time i wandering.. like wat law had ask me..did i still wan jio u back? but i don dare to tin...each time i tin i will remember of our past...and it hurt... panifully... there is also some time i ask myself...do i still love you?or do i hate you?do i still have the right to love you?and the ans is i donno..y do i love you... cos my heart only have you? cos i reali love you? y i hate you? cos u hurt me badly? cos u left just like tat?do i have the right to love you? no,cos i donno how to treasure you and i donno how to love the way you want? yes,cos i love you deeply? and i treat you very good b4?all this make me very confuse.. make me... i donno...maybe i should not have love you from the start ba... if not we now maybe still very good friend.....outer most... i hate myself... the hate is like.... veryveryveryveryveryvery hate myself.... haix...too late le ba... i said i want to let go but it reali very hard for me it been one month and 8 day le... y i just cant do it...haix...i hate my self alot arrrrrrrr.......!!!!!!
Label: Eu Boon Kiat SUX... I HATE HIM... I hate myself....
Label: the tear just roll without knowing,....

new song i just tin of.

TiTle:zhi hao ran ni zhou

hai ji bu ji de..
wo meng zai yi qi de shi hou....
tian tian dou heng kuai le....
you shi wo re ni sheng qi,
nan ni jiu bu li wo...
dan wo zhong hui zai ran ni kai xin...
zai te bie de re ji, wo zhong bei yi ge jin xi...
zai reng ni heng gan don...

chours:
dan zai ni li kai wo de shi hou....
ni sou zai ye bu ai wo...
wo bu zi dao yao sou xie se me...
dan wo zhi hao ren ni zou....
yin wei wo ai ni...
wo yao ni xin fu...
sou yi wo bu zai he ni zai yi qi...

zhi chong ni li kai...
wo bu zai yi yang...
tian tian dou heng bu kuai le...
dan wo you neng zhe yang...
jiu zi how gu dan...
zi ji cheng dan xia qiu...

rap:
ni zhi bu zhi dao, ji bu ji de, wo meng xiang yu heng jiu de na duan mei hao gou qiu, tian tian zai wo nao li, ran wo mei tian dou zai xiang ni, bu chi bu he bu shui bu wan bu zou bu zhan de shi shi ke ke de gua nian ni..

yin wei

chours:
zai ni li kai wo de shi hou....
ni sou zai ye bu ai wo...
wo bu zi dao yao sou xie se me...
dan wo zhi hao ren ni zou....
yin wei wo ai ni...
wo yao ni xin fu...
sou yi wo bu zai he ni zai, yi qi...

nice?...haha.... suddenly tin dao all this de... suddenly got lin gan de... haha.... will go modify and also work up the background music den record and post...haha...wait and c ba...hahahahaha

2009-01-14T16:06:00.003+08:00

hahaha.... here i'm blogging again...must be wandering wat i had been doing ba... haha...
actually nothing much la.... still the same lor... morning wake up, go sch, nv listen teacher, play com, eat lunch with classmate, go back lesson again, end sch play com again awhile, some time jiu straight away go home, reach home eat le play guitar lor.. listen to song. haha... now i notice sometin... listen to music can distress lea... haha... can like fa xie sia... n play musical instrument can like play out ur emotion den once play finish le jiu like feeling better le lor...haha...
erm like life less hor..haha... but bo bian ma... don wish to go disturb my bro... den now like not so close with those clique le.... so jiu stay at home lor... stilll trying to find job... haix.... sad case sia... donno when den start wking... haix... haix sch reali quite boring la... although i said i reali have to start wking hard le... but in sch is like dots... fcuking boring..... lecture teach like toking to no 1 like sia.... make very frustrated lor.. den once i frustrated jiu lost concentration le... jiu jio friend play game in class le... haix... but lucking i got strong learninig power... (this is wat my friend say de... it like fcuking high learning power, once teach jiu absorb de.. i myself also nv notice this...haha...) lol.... haix.... reali have to gan ba tae le...haha....
erm kk o's level result out le... hope u all can get to the sch that u all 1...haha...

law: got guan huai fang shi de tab... can send me... haha.... keen of learning that song but cant find the tab..

Label: i still need time to clear all this.....so fast 1month plus le..............

2009-01-09T21:14:00.002+08:00

yoyoyo...haha.. here i'm again...wah haha.... guess wat...i'm so happy for my result wor... nv study de me actually can get b+ for my math..and b for my AEL...haha... nv study lea.... also can get like tat de result....haha... haha.... wait wait.. i cannot don study den go 4 test le... must study hard le.... and i'm serious de... reali...haha... wait and c.... haha

haix..sometime i wandering...wat my life target now... i totally lost my goal.... i donnno wat to do.... it like last time i got proper wking state..but.....haix... now.. everything gone... seriously... stress is the word i have now.... haix... don think tat... wah i like free free de... no gf no nothing...nothing to stress of...but.... haix... wat can i do now... give up every thing just to .... but cause myself to... haix... sian laaaa.....

so no 1 have given me the ans of fate n destiny....come on.... faster give me an ans lea... haha... this question like challenging ar...haha...

woohoo.... time to rock my world le.... have to plan my goal every tin lea...... haha.... time to plan my world... plan my future...haha.... going to play my com game le.... byby....

2009-01-07T14:18:00.005+08:00

yoyo...now in sch..haha...boring sia... play com... bad rite... haha... but i not the only 1 lor... haha...all play game, watch manga, youtube, all those... haha... i guai.. i blog...ahah... teacher there teaching we use com like none of our business...lol.... haix...
aiyoyo... 2day get back 2 paper... 1 advance math 1 AC circuit de.... wah u guy will nv believe... i fail my AM...haha...luckily i not the only 1.... whole class fail sia....lol.... even those top student also sia...wth...haha.... 2 more paper to get... this fri den get... haha...
wa this few day reali very sian lor... at home do nothing... watch tv, play com.... haha... play guitar... haix... mo any 1 can found the tab of guan huai fang shi please e-mail to me.... the song quite nice sia...i wan to learn... ahaha.... haha...these few day i found a song quite nice... this song wake me up sia...

you yi zhong ai qin jiao fang shou

nice ba...haha... it suddenly wake me up sia... this is the song... that give me many inspiration... haha...
kk .... later donno going where sia...home very sian lea...aggrr... hehe...so sian lor.... oo i go find job...haha...latedr go out explore find job...haha... kk kk ...gtg le...lessson going to end le...haha...bye every 1.... wish me gd luck 4 my next 2 paper sia.... haha

Label:it still haven posted

2009-01-04T18:23:00.003+08:00

now damn bored sia... haha... just now while slping i thinking of something...
is fate decide our destiny or destiny decide fate... haix...
destiny is wat u had to do when u are born... tat mean is some slot of ur life mission... while fate is like u meet some 1 today, tml u meet him again accidentally, the next day u meet him again accdientally... tat mean u and him have fate... but fate can be created.... destiny cant... so is it true tat destiny decide fate... but if we create fate, dose the our destiny change?.. haix... no 1 know the ans... onli god.... haha.... very profound right...haha... kk any think abt any thing abt this two word pls come and tell me,.... i also very curious..haha....

ermx... tml start sch le...sian... actually i don reali like go sch sia... not fun de... my life reali getting more and more bored sia... bro accompany gf... don feel like disturb them... mac friend like nv contact le some more some of them wking..... sch friend go out also not fun de...sian.... reali sux sia... still finding 4 job... hope can get 1 soon... haix...

k ba... think i going to play my guitar le.... nothing to do anyway...haha... improve my skill 1st haha... bye bye... hope some 1 can call me go out sia.... byebye

label:fcuking boring..... help me....
label:it still haven post... haix........... ieu, idu, isu

2009-01-03T23:27:00.003+08:00

yooo.i'm back..haha... wooo hooo... how is ur new year... haha.. had alot of fun?... oohhh me?... haha... erm still ok la... haha... actually don reali feel like going out with u all during the eve de.. like i quite extra lor...haha... i tin 'u all' know wat i mean ba... but no choice... later every 1 not happy... haha... so i go lor...but i go u all say i high over den say me siao=(... =x... wa lao... haha.. but nvm la... at least i make the day 4 u all...haha... at least i make u all laugh make u happy... haha... but ... erm nvm ba... don say abt it.. haha... oooh 4get abt the rest of you all... haha... okok let start from the begining... haha...

on the eve... morning i wake up... have breakfast with my dad... wa very long nv have breakfast with my dad le... haha... eat le den go back home.. haha.. atcually going to play mahjong with either my family or with hl bro de... but i grandfather go wk... hl tat side not enough player.... so nv play lor... slack at home play guitar... haha.. (now onli have guitar pei me le... haix... but nvm...) haha.. den play den till 6 ps bro call me to go prepare... den prepare le meet them at ave 8 de mac....meet dao sao 1st.. den ps came le.....den wait 4 my sis and my sis-in-law... haha... wa while waiting 4 them i real very hungry sia.... haha... den on the way to amk hub, i remember hl bro... den i call him... he meet us at amk hub with his gf... o ya we go amk to watch movie...watch yes man....

ok reach amk le... go find hl bro... erm it like quite long the 3 of us go out and happy le wor... other den christmas la...erm go buy ticket 1st with my sis and law.... den b4 the show start. law want to play the bball de acrade... 'wa not bad ar...must have train alot wor'... haha.. den b4 went in 4 the movie, went to buy bread... we smuggle...haha... (bad sia we all... break the rule... aiyo...)haha.... erm den jiu went in watch the show...haha quite funny.... but......

den after tat we went to get cab to clark key(hihi donno how to spell)... didnt reali get to see the full firework...cos somepart block by a building...den meet dao christine and da sao de family... taken some photo with them... as some of them i know de...haha... lazy to post the photo...next time bored den post some of the photo ba...haha.... den po de sis and her sis de bf came... we actually ewan go ps eat steam boat de...but at the end end up eatting at a coffee sshop... haha... after eatting... went seprate with hl and his gf le...cos they going home at segrangoon.. den i and the rest booom to my hse...haha...

slack at my hse awhile...den we all slp..haha in my hse...o my.... tat all for eve...it may look simple...but haha in between there is some funny part ba me...like shouting JIN DO YUN.... haha.... shy to say out the rest ar...haha...

on new year... ooo my... donno y my dad like angry...don allow i n my sis go out... haix... den ps bro come my hse... we play guitar the whole day sia... quite bored... den law came my hse also... but everything just bored ar... haix... o they eat dinner at my hse...haha...but sorry ar...not much dish...haha... ard 10 ps bro go home... ar 10.30 law go home... haix tat how i celebrate my new year sia... wth...haha/...but nvm la... stay at home=no need spend money... no need spend money=save money... haix reali in need of money ar... sia...reali need to get a job... haha... slowly ba... haha...

okok let tok abt some thing else...haha... erm this few day reali bored sia... at home...haix... tat the life after.......... this few day there onli 4 thing accompany me.. guitar, elephant, com, mp3...haix...wth... i donno how long i can stand it... haix... o my o my... driving me crazy sia... haha... but i'm going to stay happy...haha.... cos although i'm bored, but nothing is making me sad at home,just tat sometime.... haha... so stay at home also help me save money... o my.. i got 2 day nv spend dao money le lea... wa wa wa...haha... kk must continue like tat save money le... or else on money pay sch fee sia.... hai....

karim: treasure him ar... he is my gd bro lea... haha... the 1 month i ready cant help u much... but remember wat i say...just go figure out urself... haha...gd luck... hope u get something he like....

law:wah not bad ar.. treat my sis still quite good ar...haha... better be like tat to her 4ever k... don be like tat bastard... understand...haha....

christine: erm i get wat u mean... i agree i donno how to love her...as i'm not a good guy... not a good bf....haix...there just alot of tin i donno how to say... and i don tin is convient to say out here... haix...contact me when u are free ba... haha... u also don sad le k... cheer...

label:it still have posted....

label:some time i reali donno wat i want.. now i'm aimless.. i do need a listening ear... but i don wish to disturb other... how i wish some 1 can tok to me now...

label:i'm fcuking bored.... idu.isu.ieu

2008-12-27T17:52:00.003+08:00

here some sight seeing i just saw in my com....

saw the cloud in the middle... like a some 1 riding the horse rite... nice sea viewing rite... btw this the place at sentosa..

this cloud look special rite... like those princess headband rite...

nice sunset rite...haha... wooo i like this... see the line of golden orange line tat link to the sun... like a metro falling down sia... wahhhh

2008-12-27T16:51:00.002+08:00

yoyoyo... back to blog le... haha...just finish playing bball with bro n friend.... wth fcuking tired sia... agrrr... thank to some1ask me call them till 3 plus lor...haha thank ar!!!.. lol... but it quite fun la 2day...haha... 9plus bro wak me up sia... actually don wan go de... but he call n call den pah sae ar.... jiu pei my bro go lor...haha... go north ave4 1st but alot ppl play full court... den we sian half... we go eat 1st lor... den decided to go hg point play... haha... play alot match... quite happy with my performent ...haha... wah wah stunner sia me..haha... my full moon finally 80% le...haha... so happy... learning more and more stun ...haha...woooo.... yeah yeah.... lol... crazy sia... erm ok back to topic... play alot of match with 3 other ppl... play 4-4... got win got lose la... but quite fun... den awhile the 3 ppl go le... den jee rui and ben(both my sec friend) came join us... jee rui play awhile den go eat with ben...haha,... den ben come back join us play 3-3... cos jee rui go find gf... play till 4 den go home... wth!! now veryvery tired lor... haha... but nvm... cos think of how i play just now jiu abit happy... cos very long nv play bball le... still can play till wat i nv expected... so abit happy ar... haha...
erm later going rest awhile while waiting 4 mum to da pao from ah ma house...haha... oya... tell u all a story...ytd nite while toking my friend say de... haha...

ok let call the person joker...
morning joker wake up go brush teeth..., brush brush den saw a bush of forest around his mouth.... so after brushing his teeth he shave off the forest... shave half way... joker accidentally shave dao his mouth...(lol)... a loud ouch from him... follow by blood... den he scold... knnbccb...#@#$%%%^$&$^$##@((&*&^%^.... alot of tin from him... den he shave off the remaining forest and get a plaster to nian on the cut.. den he go to the fridge, find something to eat... cos abit hungry... found nothing except an apple... den no choice he ate that apple 1st... while bitting, he broke his teeth..(haha)... den @##$$%^&*(*&@^%$%#)0*#&^ come out from his mouth again... after tat he wan to drink water... he pour a glass of water... and r=drink abit... while he place the cup on the table, the water splash out n went into his nose... n he choke and @#$%^&*()0(*&^$%$#% came out fromn his mouth again... after tat... it the end... haha... lame rite.. lol;...no choice... i bored ma... haha... but this reali from the idea of i n my friend... haha...
k la k la... time 4 me to go rest le... o o... bye bye... c u all again..

label: fcuking tired ahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!

2008-12-26T22:08:00.002+08:00

ya back here again.... sad sia... boring the whole day.... the rest of my life it the end le ma? haix.... wth manx.... cant go out with my 2 bro also... dont wish to disturb them with their gf sia.... "light bulb"... haha.... sian... reali sian... go out also need waste money...nv go out it so sian... wth man... my life sux after all the changes.... sux!!!!!!... agrrrrr....
haha....boring boring boring boring boring boring sia....... hei guy got job intro lea... haha... wk 2gether also fun ma.... some more help me kill time... so sian sia now... every day at home at home do nothing... waiting 4 friend jio me out play... play le jiu nothing to do le... haix... so bored lor.... agrrrrr........... wth wth wth.... save me... got job just intro me lea... agrrrr....
so sian now trying to fix my guitar... the string tat time my mum make spoilt... just got the string den now figuring how to fix it... agrrrr.... after fix ok le...haha... jiu suan le... can play everyday le....yeah!!!!!!
from tml onward i jiu more sian le lor..... alone le.... agrrrr..... friend around me it like....den me....haix.... sad sia..... wan find ppl go out also donno find who le...agrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!...
kk time to get back to the story ba.... cant tin of any new poem or find any new poem sia...

where we stop...erm let me think....arrr com lag... think next time den tell u all ba...haha... so sian.... nothing to do again le... haix... think i going to slp early ba... slp till tml afternoon.... o my o my... my life reali boring sia... after all the changes... it like........... but nvm... cos i my tat bad feeling is still there.... haha... although abit irritating... but..... nvm ba... no1 care anyway...haha... just enjoy wat i have now lor... but sux sia...sian sian sian.... haha.... k la.... c me blog again tml ba...if i'm bored...haha... seriously... i also donno wan blog wat...haha... k la...bye every1... hope to c u all agian if there is chance...haha....

label 1: i still haven seen it posted...
label 2: i had make a bet on it... but it the wrong 1... isnt wat u wan... mayb we are not fated ba... take care... hope u still can c dao me...

2008-12-26T12:27:00.004+08:00

yoo... how christmas... have fun... haha i bet ba... me? erm no... haha... it just a different christmas... every thing different le... mayb cos it different so i nv have fun ba....u nv understand la.... haha... aiyo... y care abt me..haha u guy have fun tat the greatest thing rite..haha.. yoyo... haha... but eve was still ok la... haha... i bet u all must have fun 2 ba..haha... o.o ..... now new year coming le... there alot more tin to do le... o my o my... tat bad(-.-)... erm new target to aim 4 le... aiming to have lot of skill of guitar panio and drum... o my, suddenly had a temp to play music sia... haha...donno y(maybe tat the thing to numb me also ba..) haha.. erm now learning guitar... still know nothing abt panio and drum... tin have to faster go learn le... is it 2 late le... aiya i so clever... very fast jiu will learn dao de la... no problem man.... haha learn panio 1st den learn drum... cos panio like harder... ahaha... next time who know i mayb a superstar sia... or maybe a famous song writer...haha
haix suddenly feel like drinking sia.. bad bad bad... o no!!! i'm addicted to drinking le... shit la... must control le.... haha... arggg... haha... kk k decided not to drink 2day le...next time..haha... aiya c how 1st la... haha....
erm now so bored lor... haix.... later had to pei bro go ployclinic take mc... stupid sia... don wan go wk la...haha... ytd 1plus going 2 slp... den morning 5plus wake up... had to pei my grandpa go SGH cos he going make his eye... haha... so guai rite.. o my... since when i become so xiao shun le...haha... haix.. but very bored sia.. arrrr... sian sian sian... haha.. i tin i going insane le... o no...haha... lol... erm bored sia any 1 wan go out jio me lea,,, haix... agrrrr...haha..

sian sia...this few day the bad feeling is back manx... b4 the break up i got this kind of bad feeling le... i tok something bad going to happen to me le... after the break up the feeling was gone.. but theis few day it came back again... o my... is it something bad going to happen... b4 the 1st time i had this kind of bad feeling i like had a bad dream.... like...haix not to elaborate ba... this thing like onli she know... haha... nvm the less person know the better... haha... mayb my day is numbered...hahaha.. o no no...maybe not..haha just another diaster to me ba... o no... i thinking of something now... haix i also cant force it anyway.. yaya..nvm... haha... the darkness don care manx...haha...

but now having a mix feeling also sia... feeling of go and continue... don understand ba...haha clever ppl will den understand wat i mean de...haha... go n guess ba... wan ask jiu ask me lor..i may or mat not ans u back...haha... k ba i tin rite till here ba..better go find tin to do sia...if not bored like hell agrr!!!!!!

label: it still not posted.. have u seen the wrong 1 or u didnt read finish...... the darkness don care, but do i care?ans:secret

2008-12-25T01:36:00.003+08:00

yoo merry christmas... haha... how is everyone.... got recieve lot of present? haha... hope u all have enjoy the day... chinese new coming again.... haha...hope can celebrate with u all again... haha....

2day i 'mayb looking' enjoying... haha...but not in here... my heart...

i nv c it posted out... donno if u had seen wat i saved.... haix... hope u like wat i gave u.... the double star hp accessories tat u wish to have as u mention in ur blog under ur wishlist... i donno if is it tat 1... if not, just hope u can keep it ba... maybe tat fate joking on me lor... if is, i hope u like it....

i donno... day by day passed, my feeling is getting more n more complicated... i getting more and more stress... i getting more and more tired... it tat wat i want... NO... i just numbing myself... wan ppl pei me cos got ppl entertian me den i won tin too much... make myself so tired so i can straight away fall aslp n won tin of anything when going to slp... but it not wat i want... yyy... y m i keep thinking... is it the end.... is it? arrrrrr... tat wat making me stress... tin and tin and tin... nothing come true... all is fake de... FAKE DE.... !!!!... nothing is real in myself le... cos i'm totally change le... totally...he(me) going to act strong le.... u will c him joking abt like there no sadness in him anymore... u will alway c him happy... cos he going to act like a strong man... no more showing his sadness... as he will only keep it to himself...suffering in his own world... tat u all will nv know...tat his darkness world...
this maybe the last time posting all his unhappiness tin in here ba... cos i going to the darkness world le... in here keep on thinking wat i had been think all the while... suffering wat i had been suffering all the while... numbing myself like wat i had been doing all the while... crying 4 wat i had been crying all the while...and make myself unreal... the changed Eu Boon Kiat.... bye bye everyone... enjoy the changed Eu Boon Kiat post from now on ba....

label:the only one to get me out of darkness is u

2008-12-24T01:33:00.003+08:00

2day is christmas eve... got recieve alot of present ba? haha....
2day there will be a surprise 4 u... haha hope you will like it.... hope tat wat u want de....

u know wat willl be best x'mas present 4 me... tat will b .u. ....
tml or thur u free? if u are msg me kk....

to u:remember to login to my blogger to c my post=)(the save draft on 25/12/08)

2008-12-22T11:31:00.004+08:00

remember wat day is it 2day... it such be our 500 day anniversary... remember wat i gave u during our 100 day anniversary? haix i tin wat i bought 4 u de 500 day annivversary is wasted le ba.. the star tat i fold last month i tin can trow away le ba... it another 400 star.. include the 100 i gave u during our 100day it will be 500stars le.... haix i tin the 400 can throw away le ba... hope u are healthy and happy now.. yup remember to get something from ur sis on the christmas eve... thank....

btw i saw this in some 1 blog...
I wrote your name in the sky,
but the wind blew it away.
I wrote your name in the sand,
but the waves washed it away.
I wrote your name in my heart,
and forever it will stay.

it seen true to me...

label: today is the day... nv fade...

2008-12-21T00:01:00.002+08:00

erm pls don come and read this 1st... read it only after u recieved something from ur sis....

remember=)...

i not going to post... i will save as draft.... u just come in and c ba...hope u will do it... thank...

Btw x'mas is coming... happy christmas everybody=)....
yaya i know u guy may tin tat i ok le.. just remember wat my last few post say ba.... tat now de me k....yup...take care every1.... u guy will onli c the post after she have seen ba... haha.,...byebye

2008-12-20T03:38:00.006+08:00

hei do u still remember we had a very nice time 2gether b4? maybe u had 4goten... but i will nv... cos i wont be going to 4get we once had a beautiful memory b4... although it reali hurt me now... but it worth.. don u tin so?our happiness... our toughnes?remember?.. still remember how i make u don angry me b4? remember the 4 word i write and send it to u by mms.... remember how many sorry i had worte to u by hand... d u still have it?... haha... it doesnt matter... cos it doesnt matter to u... anymore... it doesnt matter anymore... cos love there only need 1 person to remember every thing... do u still remember all the beautiful memory?take care ba............

the beautiful memory... will nv fade....
last word 4 u: i love you

2008-12-18T18:44:00.004+08:00

haix.... bad feeling manx..

i nv tin tat it ur fault at all u know?u know?.. can u ans me?... i'm reali very very heart pain on wat u say in ur blog.... very very... from wat u say to gs, i tin i know wat u wan to do to me from him... is tat reali wat u wan... u reali wan me to give up?...is tat wat u wan?... is tat????...

am i so hateful? am i?yyyy????
ya love sux to my life.... ARGRGGRR
i hate it.... y this kind of painful feeling nv end.........
god are u joking to me??
damn it laAaaaA..
i hate myself to the core.....
Eu Boon Kiat u are an IDIOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i tin i'm drunk... don feel like blogging le...
btw same thing if u wan c it...and the colour is the 2nd grey beside white..

2008-12-18T00:53:00.006+08:00

nothing going to be the same again ma?
y am i keep having this kind of feeling...
y i cant get over it... it been 1 week plus le...y i still cant get over it...
yyy... y am i nv realise it till ytd night... y... it 2 late le ba... i tin...
i tin i can only watch it happening ba... u know wat... i just cant believe 1 year plus de relationship and u say fade jiu fade... i reali don believe... is this reali wat u want..? reali?
ya wat can i do.. nothing but secretly do thing 4 u, care 4 u, and love u...
i feeling damn terrible now... any1 can save me........ reali feel like crying le
u know wat... nothing can change me back le... only u... but u don wan also dosent matter...
i just cant force u... i reali hope tat u will be happy without me... reali hope tat 1 day u will still....

hope to get some thing from christmas from some1... reali hope....
hope u will msg me again..
hope we can be like b4...

sorry guy... some part are only for her... if u wan c go my blog post and c ba... password ever thing also nv change dao...

label:i will wait 4 you to reply....

2008-12-17T14:30:00.004+08:00

back for chalet.... quite tired... haha... cos nv slp well...
first day in chalet:
shi wei they all come our house 1st den we go 2gether... acctually going with bro de... but he got something on so at night den go... reach there we check in den prepare all the thing... buy, play, gamble, cook... yup... erm den ard 8, bro and karim come... den go fetch them.. den we go outside eat cos they pah sae... lol... saw her when they eating at tea valley... wanted to call her... but donno y no word come from my mouth... den finish we go back chalet slack awhile... after tat we go walk walk den rent a bicycle and cycle ard the park till like 6plus am....den wait till 10 return the bicycle... den send them go take cab home...
second day:
after send them take cab, i and law c tat they all haven wake up, den we decided to go play pool 1st den have our breakfast... haix geting lousy and lousy in my pool le... haix... erm play finish pool den we go play acarde awhile den we go buy our breakfast... have our breakfast in the chalet... after eating finsh go bath den suddenly become very high... donno y... not sleepy at all... haha... den thay wan go watch movie but i don want so i stay with yi jia at chalet... den after they come back salck slack slack... till night go find kelly jie and her...do u know u make me very worry... walk the whole pasir ris park just to look 4 u...do u know how worried i'm?i was very tired but i still carry on looking... but ended up had a called saying that u all reach chalet le... so late le next time don go out drink ma... wat if something happen to u all!!!! haix... den i and law abit fan xin when we heard that they reach chalet le... den we drink the brezzer and cas... wa lao next time nv ever going to drink cas again... yuck...thank law 4 the wine... and THANK 4 UR YUCK CAS... haha... joking la... den we went back chalet after drinking the drink... we nearly lost inside the park cos we like walking round and round the park.... luckily i know the road... haha... at the end we went back safely to the chalet... at night was quite boring and abit moody... had a tok with my gugu outside the chalet... thank... maybe wat u say are right ba... went back chalet agian...den they paly game ... punishment drink the wine law mix... lol... but i didnt play... cos i was like very tired le... when lie down jiu feel like closing my eye... scare if i continue to play with them i will drunk... den donno will do wat... so nv play with them... went up and slp...but was........
till today we finally come home le... got a nice bed at home... but not sleepy lea.. cos just eat my breakfast... haix again... now abit high... but nothing to do sia... so here blogging...

sure blog till here ba...still writing some song.. wan to write chinese de.... any1 can give me any lin gan?

below is 4 some 1:

bro and karim: thank 4 coming to pei me... if not i also donno wan do wat... but sorry also cos make u all abit bored... haha...hope to ton with u all again... but must have event la... haha...

law: thank 4 the wine.... the secret of ur's will be keep a secret... i promise... till u say it out urself... haha... next time den tell u mine xin shi ba.... hope to go out with u again... haha...

kelly: hei sorry keep teasing you... just to make abit of entertainment ar... not cos nv respect you... haha... sorry that nv tell u wat happen cos i reali donno wat to say... as i was in a mixture of feeling... very sorry... next time den tell u kk... hope to go out again with u 2...

you: u know wat... i very sorry... say ok to b friend...but yet we were like stranger in there... it not tat i don want to tok to u... it tat there is no voice coming out from me when i want to... i reali want to tell u something.. i got alot of thing to tell you and ask you... reali... it just tat i donno how to start... and you was like, taking me as an stranger also... it make me... i very sorry...i heard all the thing from wat u tell law and from wat my gugu heard from... every thing was in my heart.... and everything make me very guilty... make me cried... even now.. while typing,, i still thinking wat they had tell me... while tear just rolll down... i reali very..... ..... very very... i just hope 1 day we can go out 2geter and had a good chat.... if u can just give me an sms...

i going to be insane soon... wat u all saw me during those 2 day of chalet may not be me... the real me wont be coming back anymore... cos the real me is nv the good 1... wat u going u saw de boon kiat will nv going to have the 'real' laughter and smile on it anymore... he will reali nv be all the same anymore... not all the same... anymore....

i reali got alot of thing to tok to u........love to u nv fade.... that y it hurt so much....... tat y tears nv stop flowing down... that y it nv going to b real anymore... tat y it nv going to b all the same anymore....that y u are 1 and only..........................................

2008-12-13T01:07:00.002+08:00

life will nv be the same anymore... nv ever... sorry isnt wat i want.. i just... but it will nv be the same anymore... the pain tat i feel, u will nv know... u will nv know.. cos it..........

(the darkness)

life in here are scary,
and it were nv be the same.
evrything have change,
till i cant accept... all... of... it...

the pain i have, the hurt i got,
is the 1st time i got...
but all tis isnt i controlable,
and i had nv wan it... to.... hap...pen.

we just end it with a simple msg from you, and i hap no choice but to agree.
cos i want u to have ur own happiness..
u just say sorry to me, but this isnt wat i want.
i just want a simple life with you
but all this will nv happen at all anymore..

it just a simple ans,
but tat make me miserable 4 ever.
i cant do anything,
and i had to live with it.
just to make you happy.

right here i'm crying,
deeply with my heart.
thinking of our memory,
cos i cant erase it.
i know i have to forget it,
but this will nv just be it.
cos that not an sim....ple mem.or.y..

we just end it with a simple msg from you, and i hap no choice but to agree.
cos i want u to have ur own happiness..
u just say sorry to me, but this isnt wat i want.
i just want a simple life with you
but all this will nv happen at all anymore..

that another song that i created... i think tis is better den previous one...cos i edit from it... haha... the background song.. working on it... hihi... next time i will add it in my music playlist.. let u guy listen.. damn it.. my finger very pain.. been busy learning guitar... busy cos don want tin of something.. numbing myself... feel like drinking... mon mayb going ba... just to drink... haha... tusmaybe not staying ba... going pub... hope my mum allow... sian sia...felling.... undescriblable...
tat it ba...

going back to my darkness home.........
the day will nv be the same again

2008-12-09T20:11:00.002+08:00

nothing much to say hai..

tat day
when i ask you the simple question,
it take me alot of courage.
i had think alot.
everyday, every night, every min.

the bless will be there.
the happiness will be given,
the hope i alwy wan to give you.
will never be missing from me.

so i won hesitate any more,
i keep my promise and u walk ur way.
and i will nv look for u again.
all this isnt wat i want.
but i have to bear with it.

chorus 1:
you.... know how hard i'm trying to 4get everything.
and doesn't wk everytime i trying.
the harder i try the more of u flashing.
so manything around me tat will lead to u,
that make me hard to 4get u.

i....know i had to 4get u anytime,
cos love can't be force anyhow.
but u had make me fall deeply in love for you.
and u just go out of my world like that.
and that make me worst...

(chrous 1 end)

next time you walk pass and saw me,
a smile tat will never be real came out from me.
you can see it is difference,
cos it not going to be the same.

i had surreder my soul the the darkness,
where every thing going to be changes,
as thing had gone out like that,
and there nothing more hope for me to have.

chrous 2:
do u remember every thing tat we had been going thru,
i bet u have 4goten,
but i had remember it alll...
from the day we start to know each other,
to the day how we get to know each other,
and the day when we get together,
by the day when i hold ur hand,
and the day that i kissed u.
till the day that we nreak up.
and alll... this wont get off my mind......

(chrous 2 end)

chrous 1:
you.... know how hard i'm trying to 4get everything.
and doesn't wk everytime i trying.
the harder i try the more of u flashing.
so manything around me tat will lead to u,
that make me hard to 4get u.

i....know i had to 4get u anytime,
cos love can't be force anyhow.
but u had make me fall deeply in love for you.
and u just go out of my world like that.
and that make me worst...

end of the song

the song that i create for some1. i donno, it may not be nice, but once i create the background song den c how ba..

don feel like blogging le... byebye

2008-12-06T09:28:00.002+08:00

hi every1. back 2 blog le...erm donno want blog abt wat lea.. just anyhow say ba..
later i going to teach tution again..teach aunt alison de daughter.. sec 1 math.. haix... lucky the girl is those who can absorb thing 1... wa got 1 tution kid can absorb thing lor... teach also till pehcek. haha... nvm la.. there are diffenert kind of ppl ma... haha.. so i slowly teach the kid.. haha..
erm abt ytd ba
ytd morning have breakfast with k bro and p bro...wa but p bro put aeroplane sia.. nv come... but nvm la... cos i no he tired so nv blame him.. den jiu have breakfast with k bro only lor... haha.. den take bus with k bro.. k bro go wk i go sch... lol.... den in sch study study study till very sian lor.. acctually wan pon the last lesson de... but got test jiu nv pon le lor... sian... den after sch jiu go home le... den at night around 8 plus i leave the house.. cos going to fetch her.. donno y... have the erge to go find her..u now wat.. i reali miss her alot this few day alot... reach taka at around 905.. i tok i will be late cos she tell me she 9 end wk... den i went in taka find her.. she was still wking.. (u look nice in the attire.. reali) den i went out taka de entrance wait 4 her.. den i msg and ask her wat time end... abt 30min to 45 min she den repl.. 10.30, ... den after tell me if wan go can go 1st... i was llike sinking..haix... but i told her nvm i wait lor...

u now y i wait.. cos i miss u.. the day b4 i nv go fetch u cos of study i alreadi sian diao le..when u say if i wan i can go 1st. i was reali going to cry out le. i was thinking if i such go 1st ma. den i ask myself....do i still love u.. my mind start to tin of the past. all the past start to flash in my mind.. and i nv hesitate anymore and i just wait... even though i waited 4 2 hour plus... i don mind.. cos once i saw u... every thing is fine.. and i had forgoten i had waited 4 u for so long..donno wat.. i was waiting for a day.. the day where u give me an ans.. in fact he day which u willl say ily to me again...

i wait and wait and wait.. eat finish 1 packet of tic tat while waiting.. ate a curry puff.. and den i wait again.. although i was tired... but i just wait.. cos i know i miss her alot... and i just need to wait... finally at 11plus she came out le.. den i sent her go home... reach home around 12.45 le... change le den jiu go slp le... cos was reali very tired.. very tired...

erm haix 2 day sure ver bored de lor... don feel like going 4 the wedding dinner.. cos acctually wan bring her go de.. but now nv go le... haix... sian la.... later do wat at home sia... bored to death le la.......... arrrrrrrr

the day when i can say i love you again..

2008-12-03T21:15:00.002+08:00

yoo back to blog le.. haha... this few day abit free... but really very bored..
erm let tok about a poem 1st ba...

a happy day with you,
but end with a disappointed night.
a thunder sudden struck,
deep in my heart.

once 1 heard it,
i don't believe.
but when i recalled,
and that it.

time may heal,
but wont be complete.
fate may kill,
but we cause it.

a poem of a mind,
tok abt my life.
a sky that so high,
make a people die.

life of darkness,
life of bright.
y the happyness
never come..

haha ya lor... when there is darkness, u will never be happy. when there is bright u also won be happy cos u have to stress as there is alot of thing ppl expect from u.. lol... so does that mean ppl have to leave in sorrow forever? haix..

haix... now really very fucking tired.. tired of studying. tired of teaching tution, tired of playing com, tired of alot of thing. i donno y i have 2 live in the life of darkness and bright.. teacher and family expecting alot from me. in sch there only friend for playing.. no caring.. due to i keep pon tan lesson, but den test paper was over wat teacher expected from me, they now having so high expectation on me. wtf sia. how come got such case de. haix.. family, don feel like saying le.. out side friend, haix. left with even 1 hand also can count ba.. maybe they the few 1 care only ba... thank. haix... darkness, no need say la.. this... haix..

let tok abt pass few day ba... monday, ended with disappointment, tues,morning life of bright, but afternoon go out with some friend. 2day, day of boredom..... haha...don tok abt it le ba.. any1 got job can jio... no money le.. haix... need to choing le...arrrr!!! next week test le... so sian.. haven start study lor... wth... lol... hope darkness will leave ba....

u know wat.. reali reali ____ alot...haix..YYYY

2008-11-25T23:02:00.010+08:00

(this is a combination of wat i wan write on 24/11 and 25/11.. this is because on the 24/11 i accidentally press save nv 4goten to post...haha=)...)

24/11/08

yaya i know u guy waiting for my post..=)

here i'm posting=)... sorry tat ytd nv blog... cos sometin coop up den no time to blog... haix don tok abt it ba... just feel tat haixx... YYYY... y this kind of thing just keep happen to me.haix...

erm promised to tell you guy abt my life... here a poem abt my life ba...

everyday I'm waiting.
a simple letter.
a small hug.
a soft kiss.

but every time,
it just make me disappointed.
make me heartbroken.
make me dispressed.

rain started to down pour.
from a sadly cloud.
a cloud that look like me.
the real me.

year pass, time pass.
there wont be anymore me.
as me will nv be like before.
no more happiness.

as it keep on going.
the real me will have died.
never be going to get him back.
never ever.

even if u saw his smile.
that wasn't his real smile.
a pretented smile in front of everyone.
a faked one.

it hard, and it tough.
life for him will never be the same.
even if he get another 1,
he will never be able to fall so deeply again.

you know wat.. that was how i'm feeling ba... can u guy sense it... haha like a riddle rite.. is it good or bad? or is it both good tin and bad tin... don judge the poem by it word ar.. haha... very difficult ba... wan know tag and ask me is it correct lor... haha
erm let tok abt sometin tat i doing this past few day ba... don wish to tok anytin during last week and ytd and jiu day ba.. so i just randomly say ba...
erm guess wat?.. this few day i learning sometin.. haha... secret... next time i take down in a video and post it kk... haha.. i learn this tin cos there a reason de... next time den tell u all=) haha...
erm read a story book ytd day.. quick touching and interesting and meaningful... tis is 1st time i read finsh 1 whole book in a day lea... i can believe myself... cos normally i don read those boring book de... but that book i read (low kay hwa, to forget) is not boring at all.. not say very profound..

this part is for U..the rest of you please skip to the next paragraph... thank...

to forget you is hard.. but not to remember is the only tin i can do ma? all the tin around me, my room, my sch tin, my shirt, my whole life had already been invaded by you.. i reali hope that i'm the superman in the story while u the superwoman in the story... where you will hug me when i'm leaving.. kiss me before i go.. hold my hand when when we go out.. that all the simple thing tat i just wan... i'm also willing to shed a same amount of blood for you to the same amount of tear u drop... mayb u still need time to tin ba... i won force u... the only thing that i can say to you now is this ba: I LOVE YOU ALOT!...

haha... thank to those for skip that part... those who read it you really very kapo lea!!!.. haha...erm ytd she fall sick le... she got high fever... 39.0 lea... WTH rite... still don wan go c doctor.. no choice lor so i go take care of her lor... will she resting i jiu read the story book lor... haha... but thank god that she today recover le... haha but i'm abit sick now... haha... this few day also cant fall aslp early... veryvery late den fall aslp... haix... alot of tin crop in my mind.. hope i can setter all tis tin ver soon ba... this few day realil have to thank my bro... they were the 1 who accompany me when i bored...we go drinking ar,, chating ar,, play ar, and 1 of them teach me something... don worry not smoking... haha... but ANW, Thank guy=)...

other than them there 2tin that also accompany me during the nite

that is dumbo(left) & jumbo(right)

all this day it was this 2 cute little elephant accompany me... even my parent , my sis doesnt care.. in fact find me "not in this world better", maybe... since the day they say i have no boond with them.. even my friend have left me.. those click that alway hang up with me.. left with maybe my 2 brother ba... haix...

this is to someone... u guy may also skip this part ba... in fact just don look at it cos this is to someone... this person may know how i refering to.. some of u maybe will also know...

hi u bastard... now wat u wan.. gave u my position, let u take all the credits, taken alway all my friends..my crew(thoes aunty who have been very good to me),all this i have nv say anything...and now wat??!! now going to take her away from me?? huh??!!! wat u wan from me... u wan me to vanish?? wan me to have left with nothing?? wat right do u have to say that i need to have reflection??! huh wat right do u have... have u seen our sweetness b4. have u seen us enjoying ourself b4.. have u seen us going through obstacle and den being so happy b4.. huh???!!! have u seen us hugging 1 another crying and don wan to be apart b4... have u saw any of that from us b4... are u there when i make her touch. are u there when make her happy..most importantly, have you seen us deep in love before u have not right.. all u saw is the dark side of me right.. wat have u know???!!! tell me... cos i know she will ask u to see my post... as she may not understand wat i mean and ask u 4 comment. this she have ask u to do it b4 ba.. wat do u know????!!! YYYY!!! Y!! tell me YY!!! u know wat i writing abt mea.. u know wat i toking abt in the post mea.. wat right do u have.. y.. Y!! it was u who cos my left to left with nothing.. it was u... no friend, no job, no supporter, NO HER... YYY!!!!arrrrrrrrrr!!!!!

thank again for those who realy skip tat part.. for those who have see tat part again u realy realy very very kapo lea... haha...let tok abt 2day ba... 2day got lesson at 1.. woke up at 9 plus going 10.. 1st tin came to my mind was ... , den suddenly tok of going out with her 2day and catch the madagascar 2 with my small sis. as i promised to bring my sis to go watch with her. i don wish to make anymore empty promise le.. cos i regreted.. regreted for my rest of my life...

read a book again. writen by low kay hwa also... this time is you are here.. erm this time round some part of it look like me. prehap the forgeting part ba... same like the guy in to 4get de story.. i reali recommend u guy to go and see his book man.. reali very nice..

as promised, meet them at around 4plus... manage to catch the 4.30 show.. haha... quick nice the show... u should go see.. hope that u 2 enjoy the day... sorry make u so tired.. nv took any picture..=x.. k ba erm that all 4 some of u ba... the rest u all can skip... cos is only 4 U...

this is for U the rest please skip these part..

please scroll down and read...please...

high light starting from here->

i was actually very happy at 1st cos u call me daring again le.. reali very happy.. i was stun 4 word awhile... u can c tat i was stun ba=)..i was so happy tat u buy give me the patrick again... reali very happy.. i was also very happy tat u will worry tat i won eat enough.. i was also very happy that u finally say thank you to me since very long ago. after all this is some of the thing i wan from u...cos it reali very long u have show concern to me le....but, remember wat u tell me when i say bus 132 can go orhard?u say u forget. tat reali sank my heart.. reali.. u know wat i thinking.. are u like the superman in the story "to forget" or the lara in the story of"you are here".. u had reali forgoten alot of thing.. 4got abt our past being 2geter le.. remember wat i promise u the day before i go ploy?remember u hold my arm very tightly in bus before? remember y u do that?remember u hug me tightly and cry? remember y u did that? all this have been flashing in my mind.. every day.. did u remember wat i promise u tat day? do u know y i make that promise.. during our early relationship remember wat i promised u? remember that i wan bring u go see sunset and sun rise? remember i wan bring u go see star at night? u remember when u 1st cry at my shoulder? u remember?? no! i wasnt angry..now u know y i cut my hand. now u know y i go drink. now u know y i wan numb mysely.. now u know y.. u know wat i reali hope for? Hope that tml u will wear the long necklace that i buy give u, hope tat u will wear the braclet i gave u. wear the ring tat u like to wear de go to ur prom nite. do u also know wat i was hoping all the while when i was going home during the few day where i go ur house? i was hoping u to hug me. i was hoping u to hug my arm to the door... ok this i reali nv blame u. cos u still need time to tin... in fact i nv blame u anything at all..not at all... u remember the day u got high fever? u remember who was the 1 taking care of u?. remember who help u take all the thing tat u wan?. remember who stay by ur side until u fall aslp den go?. u forgoten in just 1 day. u nv mention anytin abt me in ur blog... notin... not at all.not a single thing ... do u know wat i was expecting during the next day which was ytd? a hug friom u followed by a thank you.u may think. so wat u nv ask me to go take care of u. is i ownself wan de ma. who ask me so kapo.. remember i was sick the next day which was ytd? u nv care abt me... this is ok.. u were guilty but i say nvm.. not ur fault.. but u keep insist me to go teach tution.. u remember? u totally 4goten that i was sick.. cos u nv care 4 me at that time.. u don care. maybe u not going to care anymore ba.. maybe u going to forget everything abt us de ba... but u know wat... i will nv be able to 4get. u know y. cos u are my every 1st time.. 1st kiss. 1st time do alot of tin.. and it for u or in fact is with u... do u know i reali miss u alot.. miss do those 1st tin with u again.. miss it alot alot alot.. u know.. u know i'm crying.. every nite since tat day.. even now..do u know y i will fall so deeply in love with u? cos once u told me, u will scare. scare u will lost me... i told u some tin and make a promise to u.. u remember tat?tat day u were hugging my arm tightly.. tat was the day i told myself.. nv going to let this girl sad again.. she sad. i will make her happy. and i told myself nv let u go... nv unless she wan... cos 1 of us have to be hurt.. and i decided to be the 1.. lastly, but actually i got alot of thing wan to say de.. but lastly i hope u will reply me by sms of how u tin...please tell me how u feel… please.. please…please tell me..please tell me tat u have read the post.. and tell me how u feel.. please….and please please don say sorry... please.. please k.. i reali begging u... just don say sorry k... please.. hope u reali won say sorry.. please... 1 more thing... there is 1 thing tat i'm happy.. if i saw u sms me... cos u know the password was our birth day=) I REALLY LOVE U ALOT AND MISS YOU ALOT..

haha cant see ba... haha.. to U... u have to log in to my account to c wat i post..the pass word is in number.. 8 number. _ _ _ _ _ _91... that the clue.. haha please try.. if u reali cant figure it up.. sms and ask me.. please.. try.. i had told u abt this 8 number b4... please even if reali donno... please please sms and ask me..in my account click entry de edit post. click on the post that say "this is a combination of......" and click edit... scroll down to below... high light the word starting from "I" den u saw alot of space de... den change the colour to black.. and read it...Thank

2008-11-22T11:22:00.002+08:00

hi
my new skin not bad ba... 2-in-1..
tml i den start blogging ba... very late le... tml i den tell u guy abt my tin=)

2008-10-12T09:27:00.002+08:00

yoo how u guy?haha... i notice that there is an error on my last post.. haha.. living such be leaving... i had change le... it in my poem part...

i had another poem la... lol had also read abit of the story... but just feel like blogging out 1... erm i blog abt the poem ba... haha

a person is like a sea
it can be clam and it can b fierce
a person life is like time
it can be day and it can be night

ppl will definitly reject night and fierce
but this are the tin that they will nv realize
till some 1 told them
ended in a regreted life

ppl who are clam and day are alway welcomed
but there alway up or down of them
but they don care and continue living
this is wat i wish u are

how i wish i can
give u fortunate
give u happiness
how i wish i can
make u please
make u not lonely

but it too late
cos i'm stepping into the world of night and fierce soon
the world of regreted in the whole life

where i can't
see u
touch u
sense u
non even kiss

tireness come and sadness came
but living with happiness and egnertize infornt of u

this is wat a person does living in the world of night and fierce
a world of no where.....

haha can sense the present of the poem?
haha erm the story next time ba
cos going swimming again
haha byby

2008-10-08T00:29:00.003+08:00

i will promise u wat u say de... but some must try ok....hahahahahahha

i suddenly feel tat i live in a world of darkness
a place tat no 1 can feel me
a place tat no 1 can see me
how i wish the day will nv come.
where i live in total darkness
a world of no where
a world where
u touch no 1
see no 1
sense no 1
feel no 1

i feel like i sinking
down the ocean
with no oxygen tank on me
i feel tat i had no breathe anymore
but my eye was just keep open
i feel tat i leaving the real world soon
but i was still there.

mayb it just a dream
but i know i awake
mayb it my imgination
but i know i'm clear

every day
i saw water droplet
i saw scar
and i saw a word 'hurt'

the scar will nv fate away
the water droplet will alway drip
the word was alway there

this maybe is the world of darkness ba
where no 1 care even if u are died
where no 1 will even look at u
where no 1 will even sense ur present

the world tat u will nv wish to go into.....
but i'm already half inside le.....................

lol nice poem?
haha 2day no story to tell cos nv go c the story... haha
don blame me la... no time ma..
busy ma... will post the story when i go read de la... haha

every 1 must take care ar... hahahahahhaha...

maybe you guy will nv c me again ba... maybe...hahahahahahahahaha