Wednesday, May 27, 2009 (0.')
yoyoyo... miss this word ba...haha... wa it been a busy day for me sia... i mean this few day.... haha... erm busy studying and teaching ppl.... i feel tat i like been very hardworking sia.... lol... actually i play even harder...haha... erm and i serious of getting 4 point this time...
haha... i had told myself... not to continue my past de footstep anymore... got to be like how i study in sec life... study hard and play hard le... and not pon-ing anymore lesson just to accompany friend le.... haha... cum this few day got alot of camp coming... haha.. so i wo be blogging for quite some time unless something happen lor...haha... btw i miss playing guitar.. my guitar like rotting le...lol... after common test i got to play le.. i swear... haha.. wat does it mean? is it a change of joy or another disappointment? i donno... i'm confuse... i donno wat to do... seriously.. wat can i do and wat i shouldn't do i reali donno le... maybe i too tired this few day le ba... got to rest more le ba... what you say is what i want.giving you without any chance.shock to you make to laugh.hope this the only last.got to slp le ba... tml quiz... wish me good luck.... =))Label: can i fall in love again??
i will finish my NS, my university and wait for u.
11:50:00 PM
Monday, May 25, 2009 (0.')
hi, here i'm blogging again...lol... bored sia... want to go slp soon le... suddenly feel so sian... donno y also... all right... let tok abt some tin ba... lol...
erm this few day still de same lor.. reali focusing on study... lol... so long nv meet out with some of my friend, den when my friend ask we wat i have been doing this few week, and i say studying they like don believe sia...lol... maybe i had change alot le ba...lol.. think abt it.. i last time like don study de, cos of... but now so hardworking in study le den they don believe lor..lol... erm not only studying la... now i starting to go gym le.. cos i signing on for the army.... hence need to go take my nafa 1st...lol.. sound not like a good idea rite... but no choice lor... haha... want earn some money while studying ma... some more i can focus more on study..haha...
wa that day go gym was like killing sia.. i think i over myself le... i let musle pain for 3-4 day liso still haven ok yet...lol... i think i last time lack of this kind of training tat y i like tat ba...lol.. so i going to train more le...muhahaha... aiming for my pull up is 14 time standard pull up jiu ok le... tat is an 'A' for nafa... lol... i wan to get all 'A' for my nafa sia.. den can get bonus money...lol...
ok other then study and gym, i like got alot of camp now...lol... next week got study camp again.. but tat is for the student leader if EE de,.. hence i have to go...lol... den after tat got common test camp...lol.. tat is to go sch study lor.... so i can no need go home den go sch again ..like very mafan like tat.... so i jiu go for tat camp lor...lol..den can shun bian study with my friend.haha...
erm i like very busy hor... haha... but not reali la... cos there still so free time... those free time is reali for me to relax.. like go play bball.... but these free time is very less...cos most of it was use to study with friend... lol.... i seen like a nerd now sia... study study study...lol... but not reali ok.... lol... cos i not only study i also play very hard ma...haha..
it was u
who lock the door
when u leave
but now
i afraid to open the door
to let any one come in
ok ba...i going to slp le... next time den blog ba...haha... nite readers...
Label: studying hard and playing hard.its u who cause me to put a stop to me...
since tat day and maybe forever
i will finish my NS, my university and wait for u.
12:20:00 AM
Monday, May 18, 2009 (0.')
yoyo long time nv blog le...loll... was very busy this few day... haha.. today nv go sch... cos over slp cum there is only 1 lesson... so nv go lor...lol.... i donno y my alarm nv ring....stupid alarm clock.... lol.... erm 2 day reali feel like resting at home.. don wan go any where le... cos past few week like nv slp dao..... but later i have to go and get a MC 1st..so still have to go out awhile lor...sian..lmao.....
maybe all the study i doing now tired me out le ba....lol... past few night i was thinking... i doing all this now to tired myself is it worth it?seriously, i donno... i just don feel like thinking anything, scare will make me go to a path tat i will regret again.... seriously la... study is reali wat i want now.. but to make myself tired to stop thinking, maybe is just for a time been only la...but i donno how long more.. haix...hope it will be over soon... =[x]
ok..tml i will be going for an interview to sign on for army.... wish me luck...haha.. cos if i get it... i can no need wk during my ploy time.. as i can forcus on my study le... muhaha... cos they will me paying me while i'm studying....haha... and every sem i past all my subject i get additional $1200...wahahaha.. lol... but i cant wk to earn extra income unless the job is no cpf de... but no cpf de job i feel tat no good lea... cant make a saving for myself when i grow old.... sian.... but will think abt it 1st lor.... hope i can get the army sign on 1st.... den consider if wan get any other part time job... haha.. wish me good luck ar...
ok just took a quiz from this site: http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
that my result.. i feel tat almost all i agree except some part of the seriousness of my love. am i so flirt and seductive? lol... and i'm very serious in choosing some to be with... lmao... lol...
haha... past few day was having study camp... fri to sun...teaching those year 1 de ppl lor... lol.. i wasnt tat good at engmec... but while i teach i suddenly know all le...lmao..lol....ltech also.. i like know all also sia,...lol.. funny... some of them is reali waant study de.. but some is like just come to ton de... playing all the while lor... haix... it their ducture anyway... so i don care.. just care for those who are serious in studying..lol... erm and during this 3 day was the day that i was thinking abt wat i have been doing lor...lol.. ok don tok abt it le... erm overall the study camp is fun and worth it... but lea... no food provided and mr lee keep on change the schedule tat i and jm plan b4 the camp de.... causing the whole camp not reali well organize... but it still ok la.... and there will be another camp for me too... is for year 2 de student leader study camp.... den i and my sch clique maybe planning another study camp for our own de... we will be studying hard and playing hard...haha...
ok la.. going to see doctor le..... next time den blog...haha.. wish me good luck...
Label: when will it be?
Label: good luck=))
i will finish my NS, my university and wait for u.
10:22:00 AM
Saturday, May 9, 2009 (0.')
1st of all, hereby have an advance wish of all the mother in the world a happy mother day....=)) kai su abit cos donno when will be my next time i will be blogging again..... haha...
ok... now the time is 1.50am le.... an i not feeling tired... donno y sia...lol.. just cant fall aslp and was like alot of thing flashing in my mind...lol.... ermm..... so i gonna blog till i tired...lol...
later got to wake up at 10am.. cos going celebrate mother day at an advance with my aunties and grandma... erm my mum side de la.... lol... father side de.... donno when...lol.... tin later will be another boring day ba..... haix....
erm currently i was reali studying sia....during this few day,...lol... finally i understand a chapter tat was study by myself... after this 1year pplus de ploy life... it the 1st time i understand a chapter.... lol.... tat y i said, i have been slacking all the while last year.... haix... i reali aiming for very high score this time... got to wk hard Boon Kiat!!!. JIA YOU!!! i gonna get a gpa of 3.9 at least... my target... haha... okok.. i had make a deal with myself... if i cant get it... the 1st 2 week of holiday i won go out... hahaha.... stay at home rot.... haha.... DEAL!!!!
haha... tat my deal of myself...lmao... like idiot rite... tat wat ppl say me sia... sad.. she know who she is...lol... nah just joking;...lol... btw i just love the song photograph alot.... but..... it bring memory back to me.... lol....
Every memory of looking out the back door.
I had the photo album spread out the bedroom floor,
It's hard to say it, time to say it,
Good-bye! Good-bye!
Every memory of looking out the front door,
I found the photo of the friend that i was looking for,
It's hard to say it, time to say it.
Good-bye! Good-bye!
tat my memory ba...lol... not gonna say much abt it.... haha
now i notice something....lol... when wan to say something tat u don think is nice to say out... or like is boring to just say out... it best to make it into a poem...lol.... i feel tat making poem is fun... nice... and interesting....ya....lol... with it emo de or happy de also fun, nice and interesting to do...lol.. haha... next time all my feeling will be in poem ba...haha... if i can make it into 1.....lol....
lamo... still not tired sia... sian... haha.... nowadays.... dota abit sian le... nv play like for going 3 week le...in sch also nv play le...lol... now in sch... erm like not as fun as b4 le.... i not refering to the lesson la... i mean my mate.... other den like some time joke ard... no other event le... all like abit scattered le... sian.... example... some time they go find friend during break or after sch... like no more bonding le.... haix.... sian...
erm..... i still thinking,... other den studies now, wat my other target..... haix... alot of thing are just asking in my mind.. like angel and demon quarreling with one another on my head like tat sia.... erm maybe i think i still need time ba... as it still not yet recovered..... maybe some more time ba....
if the pain and the hurt,
are just as deep as the sea.
the scar and memory,
will always just be there.
ok ba... i think i better force myself to slp ba... if not tml sure tired de....lol... bye everyone.....
Label: memory?the photograph
i will finish my NS, my university and wait for u.
1:48:00 AM
Thursday, May 7, 2009 (0.')
hi... here to blog again.. lmao..... sian... some time some thing just make me very like no mood.... haix...
life are just fill with up and down,
cherish the up and learn from the down.
we were born in an unfair world,
but it doesn't matter.
learn to cherish,
make u happy.
study the mistake,
make life better.
so our life is just study.... study the everything ard u... not only the mistake tat u make... and also those success and happiness tat u have been thru.... thing abt it, i'm still learning... i want to make my life better... but it still the matter of time. however, after so many month of trying, i think i reali tired...is it the time to give up making my life better? NO!!!!! i think ii just need a break...preharp, a short break ... haix.... i maybe have numb myself enuf le ba... all the busy wk in sch, teaching tution to make my time occupied, staying back in sch to play or study all these, playing bball with bro, playing guitar at home, etc... i think i should stop all this for abt 1 or 2 week ba....
i need a long rest will do!!!!!haix... nothing much to say le ba... bye guy..... want to go enjoy pls call me ...... i want to reali enjoy myself for awhile....
Label: REST
我的爱还在吗？
i will finish my NS, my university and wait for u.
12:23:00 AM
Monday, May 4, 2009 (0.')
all righ... done with my new blogskin... nice?....lol... i think ok only la... if not cos there is something wrong with my previous skin i lazy to change de lor....lol...
today nv go sch... wake up headache,.. cum my back have been aching since sat le.. den i suspect is dengue fever... but no fever lea... want to go sch de... cos don wan miss lesson cum today got presentation to do... but my mum ask me stay at home... den i jiu stay at home lor... but sian... scare will deduct my mark den cant get 4 point le.... haix... hope my MC can excuse me....
afternoon ard 2pm den i go see doctor..cos everytime morning i go oso alot of ppl must while slp awhile more den go see doctor...
wah afternoon oso alot of ppl sia... and hg ployclinic has renovate till quite nice...lol... wait till like going 5pm den my turn.. den the doctor like rush train like tat.. very kan jion.. den ask me wat happen den any how check me den ok le...just give me some pain relive de medicine and headach de medcinie and donno wat medicine de... den jiu ok le... it like............ dotsx la....aiyoyo... den go get my medicine den jiu go home le....
at home wan study de... but head pain till no mood to study....haix... next mon den do my revision again ba... haixhaix.....
look like i reali have fall sick le... after so long of "suffering" ba.... like wat my blog say... i may look strong... but i'm weak inside...... i think i need to go have my medicine le... bye bye reader... next time i den blog ba.... bye...
Label: still can't figure out wat it is... and still donno wat i want...maybe there isn't le ba
i will finish my NS, my university and wait for u.
8:29:00 PM
Sunday, May 3, 2009 (0.')
a falling night is when i a wander soul appear.tired thought is what the soul are running away from.life of the soul are bad and disappointed.and the soul are now being appear.running and running,hiding and hiding.but thing away being in the way.full of tiredness is what i can say.thing that i left are nothing but pain.seriously, I'm a bit tired... tired of what?. haha... tired of wandering no where and just studies... know what... suddenly i was like lost... in what way? lost of my target... like lost everything in my life... i was like...... i donno how to explain.... i was like the wandering soul... wandering around doing nothing with no sense of direction some more..... seriously... i feel like giving out everything now... cos i was like start to feel tired.... i donno how to explain my feeling now.... a wandering soul is just an example but is not total what i mean.... haix...
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life are just unpredictable....haix... i was like a bit stressed up le ba.... i donno... i just too.... i donno how to explain.... haix don say le la.... mayb i'm too tired ba... go to rest now le... good nite...
Label: what kind of feeling is this!!!!!!!!!!!!!Label: is this another kind of pain? the numb one?
does love still exist in my dictionary?
i will finish my NS, my university and wait for u.
11:37:00 PM
