Saturday, December 27, 2008 (0.')
here some sight seeing i just saw in my com....

saw the cloud in the middle... like a some 1 riding the horse rite... nice sea viewing rite... btw this the place at sentosa..

this cloud look special rite... like those princess headband rite...

nice sunset rite...haha... wooo i like this... see the line of golden orange line tat link to the sun... like a metro falling down sia... wahhhh
i will finish my NS, my university and wait for u.
5:52:00 PM
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yoyoyo... back to blog le... haha...just finish playing bball with bro n friend.... wth fcuking tired sia... agrrr... thank to some1ask me call them till 3 plus lor...haha thank ar!!!.. lol... but it quite fun la 2day...haha... 9plus bro wak me up sia... actually don wan go de... but he call n call den pah sae ar.... jiu pei my bro go lor...haha... go north ave4 1st but alot ppl play full court... den we sian half... we go eat 1st lor... den decided to go hg point play... haha... play alot match... quite happy with my performent ...haha... wah wah stunner sia me..haha... my full moon finally 80% le...haha... so happy... learning more and more stun ...haha...woooo.... yeah yeah.... lol... crazy sia... erm ok back to topic... play alot of match with 3 other ppl... play 4-4... got win got lose la... but quite fun... den awhile the 3 ppl go le... den jee rui and ben(both my sec friend) came join us... jee rui play awhile den go eat with ben...haha,... den ben come back join us play 3-3... cos jee rui go find gf... play till 4 den go home... wth!! now veryvery tired lor... haha... but nvm... cos think of how i play just now jiu abit happy... cos very long nv play bball le... still can play till wat i nv expected... so abit happy ar... haha...
erm later going rest awhile while waiting 4 mum to da pao from ah ma house...haha... oya... tell u all a story...ytd nite while toking my friend say de... haha...
ok let call the person joker...
morning joker wake up go brush teeth..., brush brush den saw a bush of forest around his mouth.... so after brushing his teeth he shave off the forest... shave half way... joker accidentally shave dao his mouth...(lol)... a loud ouch from him... follow by blood... den he scold... knnbccb...#@#$%%%^$&$^$##@((&*&^%^.... alot of tin from him... den he shave off the remaining forest and get a plaster to nian on the cut.. den he go to the fridge, find something to eat... cos abit hungry... found nothing except an apple... den no choice he ate that apple 1st... while bitting, he broke his teeth..(haha)... den @##$$%^&*(*&@^%$%#)0*#&^ come out from his mouth again... after tat he wan to drink water... he pour a glass of water... and r=drink abit... while he place the cup on the table, the water splash out n went into his nose... n he choke and @#$%^&*()0(*&^$%$#% came out fromn his mouth again... after tat... it the end... haha... lame rite.. lol;...no choice... i bored ma... haha... but this reali from the idea of i n my friend... haha...
k la k la... time 4 me to go rest le... o o... bye bye... c u all again..
label:
fcuking tired ahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!
i will finish my NS, my university and wait for u.
4:51:00 PM
Friday, December 26, 2008 (0.')
ya back here again.... sad sia... boring the whole day.... the rest of my life it the end le ma? haix.... wth manx.... cant go out with my 2 bro also... dont wish to disturb them with their gf sia.... "light bulb"... haha.... sian... reali sian... go out also need waste money...nv go out it so sian... wth man... my life sux after all the changes.... sux!!!!!!... agrrrrr....
haha....boring boring boring boring boring boring sia....... hei guy got job intro lea... haha... wk 2gether also fun ma.... some more help me kill time... so sian sia now... every day at home at home do nothing... waiting 4 friend jio me out play... play le jiu nothing to do le... haix... so bored lor.... agrrrrr........... wth wth wth.... save me... got job just intro me lea... agrrrr....
so sian now trying to fix my guitar... the string tat time my mum make spoilt... just got the string den now figuring how to fix it... agrrrr.... after fix ok le...haha... jiu suan le... can play everyday le....yeah!!!!!!
from tml onward i jiu more sian le lor..... alone le.... agrrrr..... friend around me it like....den me....haix.... sad sia..... wan find ppl go out also donno find who le...agrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!...
kk time to get back to the story ba.... cant tin of any new poem or find any new poem sia...
where we stop...erm let me think....arrr com lag... think next time den tell u all ba...haha... so sian.... nothing to do again le... haix... think i going to slp early ba... slp till tml afternoon.... o my o my... my life reali boring sia... after all the changes... it like........... but nvm... cos i my tat bad feeling is still there.... haha... although abit irritating... but..... nvm ba... no1 care anyway...haha... just enjoy wat i have now lor... but sux sia...sian sian sian.... haha.... k la.... c me blog again tml ba...if i'm bored...haha... seriously... i also donno wan blog wat...haha... k la...bye every1... hope to c u all agian if there is chance...haha....
label 1:
i still haven seen it posted... label 2: i had make a bet on it... but it the wrong 1... isnt wat u wan... mayb we are not fated ba... take care... hope u still can c dao me...
i will finish my NS, my university and wait for u.
10:08:00 PM
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yoo... how christmas... have fun... haha i bet ba... me? erm no... haha... it just a different christmas... every thing different le... mayb cos it different so i nv have fun ba....u nv understand la.... haha... aiyo... y care abt me..haha u guy have fun tat the greatest thing rite..haha.. yoyo... haha... but eve was still ok la... haha... i bet u all must have fun 2 ba..haha... o.o ..... now new year coming le... there alot more tin to do le... o my o my... tat bad(-.-)... erm new target to aim 4 le... aiming to have lot of skill of guitar panio and drum... o my, suddenly had a temp to play music sia... haha...donno y(maybe tat the thing to numb me also ba..) haha.. erm now learning guitar... still know nothing abt panio and drum... tin have to faster go learn le... is it 2 late le... aiya i so clever... very fast jiu will learn dao de la... no problem man.... haha learn panio 1st den learn drum... cos panio like harder... ahaha... next time who know i mayb a superstar sia... or maybe a famous song writer...haha
haix suddenly feel like drinking sia.. bad bad bad... o no!!! i'm addicted to drinking le... shit la... must control le.... haha... arggg... haha... kk k decided not to drink 2day le...next time..haha... aiya c how 1st la... haha....
erm now so bored lor... haix.... later had to pei bro go ployclinic take mc... stupid sia... don wan go wk la...haha... ytd 1plus going 2 slp... den morning 5plus wake up... had to pei my grandpa go SGH cos he going make his eye... haha... so guai rite.. o my... since when i become so xiao shun le...haha... haix.. but very bored sia.. arrrr... sian sian sian... haha.. i tin i going insane le... o no...haha... lol... erm bored sia any 1 wan go out jio me lea,,, haix... agrrrr...haha..
sian sia...this few day the bad feeling is back manx... b4 the break up i got this kind of bad feeling le... i tok something bad going to happen to me le... after the break up the feeling was gone.. but theis few day it came back again... o my... is it something bad going to happen... b4 the 1st time i had this kind of bad feeling i like had a bad dream.... like...haix not to elaborate ba... this thing like onli she know... haha... nvm the less person know the better... haha... mayb my day is numbered...hahaha.. o no no...maybe not..haha just another diaster to me ba... o no... i thinking of something now... haix i also cant force it anyway.. yaya..nvm... haha... the darkness don care manx...haha...
but now having a mix feeling also sia... feeling of go and continue... don understand ba...haha clever ppl will den understand wat i mean de...haha... go n guess ba... wan ask jiu ask me lor..i may or mat not ans u back...haha... k ba i tin rite till here ba..better go find tin to do sia...if not bored like hell agrr!!!!!!
label:
it still not posted.. have u seen the wrong 1 or u didnt read finish...... the darkness don care, but do i care?ans:secret
i will finish my NS, my university and wait for u.
12:27:00 PM
Thursday, December 25, 2008 (0.')
yoo merry christmas... haha... how is everyone.... got recieve lot of present? haha... hope u all have enjoy the day... chinese new coming again.... haha...hope can celebrate with u all again... haha....
2day i 'mayb looking' enjoying... haha...but not in here... my heart...
i nv c it posted out... donno if u had seen wat i saved.... haix... hope u like wat i gave u.... the double star hp accessories tat u wish to have as u mention in ur blog under ur wishlist... i donno if is it tat 1... if not, just hope u can keep it ba... maybe tat fate joking on me lor... if is, i hope u like it....
i donno... day by day passed, my feeling is getting more n more complicated... i getting more and more stress... i getting more and more tired... it tat wat i want... NO... i just numbing myself... wan ppl pei me cos got ppl entertian me den i won tin too much... make myself so tired so i can straight away fall aslp n won tin of anything when going to slp... but it not wat i want... yyy... y m i keep thinking... is it the end.... is it? arrrrrr... tat wat making me stress... tin and tin and tin... nothing come true... all is fake de... FAKE DE.... !!!!... nothing is real in myself le... cos i'm totally change le... totally...he(me) going to act strong le.... u will c him joking abt like there no sadness in him anymore... u will alway c him happy... cos he going to act like a strong man... no more showing his sadness... as he will only keep it to himself...suffering in his own world... tat u all will nv know...tat his darkness world...
this maybe the last time posting all his unhappiness tin in here ba... cos i going to the darkness world le... in here keep on thinking wat i had been think all the while... suffering wat i had been suffering all the while... numbing myself like wat i had been doing all the while... crying 4 wat i had been crying all the while...and make myself unreal... the changed Eu Boon Kiat.... bye bye everyone... enjoy the changed Eu Boon Kiat post from now on ba....
label:
the only one to get me out of darkness is u
i will finish my NS, my university and wait for u.
1:36:00 AM
Wednesday, December 24, 2008 (0.')
2day is christmas eve... got recieve alot of present ba? haha....
2day there will be a surprise 4 u... haha hope you will like it.... hope tat wat u want de....
u know wat willl be best x'mas present 4 me... tat will b .u. ....
tml or thur u free? if u are msg me kk....
to u:remember to login to my blogger to c my post=)(the save draft on 25/12/08)
i will finish my NS, my university and wait for u.
1:33:00 AM
Monday, December 22, 2008 (0.')
remember wat day is it 2day... it such be our 500 day anniversary... remember wat i gave u during our 100 day anniversary? haix i tin wat i bought 4 u de 500 day annivversary is wasted le ba.. the star tat i fold last month i tin can trow away le ba... it another 400 star.. include the 100 i gave u during our 100day it will be 500stars le.... haix i tin the 400 can throw away le ba... hope u are healthy and happy now.. yup remember to get something from ur sis on the christmas eve... thank....
btw i saw this in some 1 blog...
I wrote your name in the sky,
but the wind blew it away.
I wrote your name in the sand,
but the waves washed it away.
I wrote your name in my heart,
and forever it will stay.
it seen true to me...
label: today is the day... nv fade...
i will finish my NS, my university and wait for u.
11:31:00 AM
Sunday, December 21, 2008 (0.')
erm pls don come and read this 1st... read it only after u recieved something from ur sis....
remember=)...
i not going to post... i will save as draft.... u just come in and c ba...hope u will do it... thank...
Btw x'mas is coming... happy christmas everybody=)....
yaya i know u guy may tin tat i ok le.. just remember wat my last few post say ba.... tat now de me k....yup...take care every1.... u guy will onli c the post after she have seen ba... haha.,...byebye
i will finish my NS, my university and wait for u.
12:01:00 AM
Saturday, December 20, 2008 (0.')
hei do u still remember we had a very nice time 2gether b4? maybe u had 4goten... but i will nv... cos i wont be going to 4get we once had a beautiful memory b4... although it reali hurt me now... but it worth.. don u tin so?our happiness... our toughnes?remember?.. still remember how i make u don angry me b4? remember the 4 word i write and send it to u by mms.... remember how many sorry i had worte to u by hand... d u still have it?... haha... it doesnt matter... cos it doesnt matter to u... anymore... it doesnt matter anymore... cos love there only need 1 person to remember every thing... do u still remember all the beautiful memory?take care ba............
the beautiful memory... will nv
fade....
last word 4 u: i love you
i will finish my NS, my university and wait for u.
3:38:00 AM
Thursday, December 18, 2008 (0.')
haix.... bad feeling manx..
i nv tin tat it ur fault at all u know?u know?.. can u ans me?... i'm reali very very heart pain on wat u say in ur blog.... very very... from wat u say to gs, i tin i know wat u wan to do to me from him... is tat reali wat u wan... u reali wan me to give up?...is tat wat u wan?... is tat????...am i so hateful? am i?yyyy????
ya love sux to my life.... ARGRGGRR
i hate it.... y this kind of painful feeling nv end.........
god are u joking to me??
damn it laAaaaA..
i hate myself to the core.....
Eu Boon Kiat u are an IDIOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i tin i'm drunk... don feel like blogging le...
btw same thing if u wan c it...and the colour is the 2nd grey beside white..
i will finish my NS, my university and wait for u.
6:44:00 PM
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nothing going to be the same again ma?
y am i keep having this kind of feeling...
y i cant get over it... it been 1 week plus le...y i still cant get over it...
yyy... y am i nv realise it till ytd night... y... it 2 late le ba... i tin...
i tin i can only watch it happening ba... u know wat... i just cant believe 1 year plus de relationship and u say fade jiu fade... i reali don believe... is this reali wat u want..? reali?
ya wat can i do.. nothing but secretly do thing 4 u, care 4 u, and love u...
i feeling damn terrible now... any1 can save me........ reali feel like crying le
u know wat... nothing can change me back le... only u... but u don wan also dosent matter...
i just cant force u... i reali hope tat u will be happy without me... reali hope tat 1 day u will still....
hope to get some thing from christmas from some1... reali hope....
hope u will msg me again..
hope we can be like b4...
sorry guy... some part are only for her... if u wan c go my blog post and c ba... password ever thing also nv change dao...
label:i will wait 4 you to reply....
i will finish my NS, my university and wait for u.
12:53:00 AM
Wednesday, December 17, 2008 (0.')
back for chalet.... quite tired... haha... cos nv slp well...
first day in chalet:
shi wei they all come our house 1st den we go 2gether... acctually going with bro de... but he got something on so at night den go... reach there we check in den prepare all the thing... buy, play, gamble, cook... yup... erm den ard 8, bro and karim come... den go fetch them.. den we go outside eat cos they pah sae... lol... saw her when they eating at tea valley... wanted to call her... but donno y no word come from my mouth... den finish we go back chalet slack awhile... after tat we go walk walk den rent a bicycle and cycle ard the park till like 6plus am....den wait till 10 return the bicycle... den send them go take cab home...
second day:
after send them take cab, i and law c tat they all haven wake up, den we decided to go play pool 1st den have our breakfast... haix geting lousy and lousy in my pool le... haix... erm play finish pool den we go play acarde awhile den we go buy our breakfast... have our breakfast in the chalet... after eating finsh go bath den suddenly become very high... donno y... not sleepy at all... haha... den thay wan go watch movie but i don want so i stay with yi jia at chalet... den after they come back salck slack slack... till night go find kelly jie and her...do u know u make me very worry... walk the whole pasir ris park just to look 4 u...do u know how worried i'm?i was very tired but i still carry on looking... but ended up had a called saying that u all reach chalet le... so late le next time don go out drink ma... wat if something happen to u all!!!! haix... den i and law abit fan xin when we heard that they reach chalet le... den we drink the brezzer and cas... wa lao next time nv ever going to drink cas again... yuck...thank law 4 the wine... and THANK 4 UR YUCK CAS... haha... joking la... den we went back chalet after drinking the drink... we nearly lost inside the park cos we like walking round and round the park.... luckily i know the road... haha... at the end we went back safely to the chalet... at night was quite boring and abit moody... had a tok with my gugu outside the chalet... thank... maybe wat u say are right ba... went back chalet agian...den they paly game ... punishment drink the wine law mix... lol... but i didnt play... cos i was like very tired le... when lie down jiu feel like closing my eye... scare if i continue to play with them i will drunk... den donno will do wat... so nv play with them... went up and slp...but was........
till today we finally come home le... got a nice bed at home... but not sleepy lea.. cos just eat my breakfast... haix again... now abit high... but nothing to do sia... so here blogging...
sure blog till here ba...still writing some song.. wan to write chinese de.... any1 can give me any lin gan?
below is 4 some 1:
bro and karim: thank 4 coming to pei me... if not i also donno wan do wat... but sorry also cos make u all abit bored... haha...hope to ton with u all again... but must have event la... haha...
law: thank 4 the wine.... the secret of ur's will be keep a secret... i promise... till u say it out urself... haha... next time den tell u mine xin shi ba.... hope to go out with u again... haha...
kelly: hei sorry keep teasing you... just to make abit of entertainment ar... not cos nv respect you... haha... sorry that nv tell u wat happen cos i reali donno wat to say... as i was in a mixture of feeling... very sorry... next time den tell u kk... hope to go out again with u 2...
you: u know wat... i very sorry... say ok to b friend...but yet we were like stranger in there... it not tat i don want to tok to u... it tat there is no voice coming out from me when i want to... i reali want to tell u something.. i got alot of thing to tell you and ask you... reali... it just tat i donno how to start... and you was like, taking me as an stranger also... it make me... i very sorry...i heard all the thing from wat u tell law and from wat my gugu heard from... every thing was in my heart.... and everything make me very guilty... make me cried... even now.. while typing,, i still thinking wat they had tell me... while tear just rolll down... i reali very..... ..... very very... i just hope 1 day we can go out 2geter and had a good chat.... if u can just give me an sms...
i going to be insane soon... wat u all saw me during those 2 day of chalet may not be me... the real me wont be coming back anymore... cos the real me is nv the good 1... wat u going u saw de boon kiat will nv going to have the 'real' laughter and smile on it anymore... he will reali nv be all the same anymore... not all the same... anymore....
i reali got alot of thing to tok to u........love to u nv fade.... that y it hurt so much....... tat y tears nv stop flowing down... that y it nv going to b real anymore... tat y it nv going to b all the same anymore....that y u are 1 and only..........................................
i will finish my NS, my university and wait for u.
2:30:00 PM
Saturday, December 13, 2008 (0.')
life will nv be the same anymore... nv ever... sorry isnt wat i want.. i just... but it will nv be the same anymore... the pain tat i feel, u will nv know... u will nv know.. cos it..........
(the darkness)
life in here are scary,
and it were nv be the same.
evrything have change,
till i cant accept... all... of... it...
the pain i have, the hurt i got,
is the 1st time i got...
but all tis isnt i controlable,
and i had nv wan it... to.... hap...pen.
we just end it with a simple msg from you, and i hap no choice but to agree.
cos i want u to have ur own happiness..
u just say sorry to me, but this isnt wat i want.
i just want a simple life with you
but all this will nv happen at all anymore..
it just a simple ans,
but tat make me miserable 4 ever.
i cant do anything,
and i had to live with it.
just to make you happy.
right here i'm crying,
deeply with my heart.
thinking of our memory,
cos i cant erase it.
i know i have to forget it,
but this will nv just be it.
cos that not an sim....ple mem.or.y..
we just end it with a simple msg from you, and i hap no choice but to agree.
cos i want u to have ur own happiness..
u just say sorry to me, but this isnt wat i want.
i just want a simple life with you
but all this will nv happen at all anymore..
that another song that i created... i think tis is better den previous one...cos i edit from it... haha... the background song.. working on it... hihi... next time i will add it in my music playlist.. let u guy listen.. damn it.. my finger very pain.. been busy learning guitar... busy cos don want tin of something.. numbing myself... feel like drinking... mon mayb going ba... just to drink... haha... tusmaybe not staying ba... going pub... hope my mum allow... sian sia...felling.... undescriblable...
tat it ba...
going back to my darkness home.........
the day will nv be the same again
i will finish my NS, my university and wait for u.
1:07:00 AM
Tuesday, December 9, 2008 (0.')
nothing much to say hai..
tat day
when i ask you the simple question,
it take me alot of courage.
i had think alot.
everyday, every night, every min.
the bless will be there.
the happiness will be given,
the hope i alwy wan to give you.
will never be missing from me.
so i won hesitate any more,
i keep my promise and u walk ur way.
and i will nv look for u again.
all this isnt wat i want.
but i have to bear with it.
chorus 1:
you.... know how hard i'm trying to 4get everything.
and doesn't wk everytime i trying.
the harder i try the more of u flashing.
so manything around me tat will lead to u,
that make me hard to 4get u.
i....know i had to 4get u anytime,
cos love can't be force anyhow.
but u had make me fall deeply in love for you.
and u just go out of my world like that.
and that make me worst...
(chrous 1 end)
next time you walk pass and saw me,
a smile tat will never be real came out from me.
you can see it is difference,
cos it not going to be the same.
i had surreder my soul the the darkness,
where every thing going to be changes,
as thing had gone out like that,
and there nothing more hope for me to have.
chrous 2:
do u remember every thing tat we had been going thru,
i bet u have 4goten,
but i had remember it alll...
from the day we start to know each other,
to the day how we get to know each other,
and the day when we get together,
by the day when i hold ur hand,
and the day that i kissed u.
till the day that we nreak up.
and alll... this wont get off my mind......
(chrous 2 end)
chrous 1:
you.... know how hard i'm trying to 4get everything.
and doesn't wk everytime i trying.
the harder i try the more of u flashing.
so manything around me tat will lead to u,
that make me hard to 4get u.
i....know i had to 4get u anytime,
cos love can't be force anyhow.
but u had make me fall deeply in love for you.
and u just go out of my world like that.
and that make me worst...
end of the song
the song that i create for some1. i donno, it may not be nice, but once i create the background song den c how ba..
don feel like blogging le... byebye
i will finish my NS, my university and wait for u.
8:11:00 PM
Saturday, December 6, 2008 (0.')
hi every1. back 2 blog le...erm donno want blog abt wat lea.. just anyhow say ba..
later i going to teach tution again..teach aunt alison de daughter.. sec 1 math.. haix... lucky the girl is those who can absorb thing 1... wa got 1 tution kid can absorb thing lor... teach also till pehcek. haha... nvm la.. there are diffenert kind of ppl ma... haha.. so i slowly teach the kid.. haha..
erm abt ytd ba
ytd morning have breakfast with k bro and p bro...wa but p bro put aeroplane sia.. nv come... but nvm la... cos i no he tired so nv blame him.. den jiu have breakfast with k bro only lor... haha.. den take bus with k bro.. k bro go wk i go sch... lol.... den in sch study study study till very sian lor.. acctually wan pon the last lesson de... but got test jiu nv pon le lor... sian... den after sch jiu go home le... den at night around 8 plus i leave the house.. cos going to fetch her.. donno y... have the erge to go find her..u now wat.. i reali miss her alot this few day alot... reach taka at around 905.. i tok i will be late cos she tell me she 9 end wk... den i went in taka find her.. she was still wking.. (u look nice in the attire.. reali) den i went out taka de entrance wait 4 her.. den i msg and ask her wat time end... abt 30min to 45 min she den repl.. 10.30, ... den after tell me if wan go can go 1st... i was llike sinking..haix... but i told her nvm i wait lor...
u now y i wait.. cos i miss u.. the day b4 i nv go fetch u cos of study i alreadi sian diao le..when u say if i wan i can go 1st. i was reali going to cry out le. i was thinking if i such go 1st ma. den i ask myself....do i still love u.. my mind start to tin of the past. all the past start to flash in my mind.. and i nv hesitate anymore and i just wait... even though i waited 4 2 hour plus... i don mind.. cos once i saw u... every thing is fine.. and i had forgoten i had waited 4 u for so long..donno wat.. i was waiting for a day.. the day where u give me an ans.. in fact he day which u willl say ily to me again...
i wait and wait and wait.. eat finish 1 packet of tic tat while waiting.. ate a curry puff.. and den i wait again.. although i was tired... but i just wait.. cos i know i miss her alot... and i just need to wait... finally at 11plus she came out le.. den i sent her go home... reach home around 12.45 le... change le den jiu go slp le... cos was reali very tired.. very tired...
erm haix 2 day sure ver bored de lor... don feel like going 4 the wedding dinner.. cos acctually wan bring her go de.. but now nv go le... haix... sian la.... later do wat at home sia... bored to death le la.......... arrrrrrrr
the day when i can say i love you again..
i will finish my NS, my university and wait for u.
9:28:00 AM
Wednesday, December 3, 2008 (0.')
yoo back to blog le.. haha... this few day abit free... but really very bored..
erm let tok about a poem 1st ba...
a happy day with you,
but end with a disappointed night.
a thunder sudden struck,
deep in my heart.
once 1 heard it,
i don't believe.
but when i recalled,
and that it.
time may heal,
but wont be complete.
fate may kill,
but we cause it.
a poem of a mind,
tok abt my life.
a sky that so high,
make a people die.
life of darkness,
life of bright.
y the happyness
never come..
haha ya lor... when there is darkness, u will never be happy. when there is bright u also won be happy cos u have to stress as there is alot of thing ppl expect from u.. lol... so does that mean ppl have to leave in sorrow forever? haix..
haix... now really very fucking tired.. tired of studying. tired of teaching tution, tired of playing com, tired of alot of thing. i donno y i have 2 live in the life of darkness and bright.. teacher and family expecting alot from me. in sch there only friend for playing.. no caring.. due to i keep pon tan lesson, but den test paper was over wat teacher expected from me, they now having so high expectation on me. wtf sia. how come got such case de. haix.. family, don feel like saying le.. out side friend, haix. left with even 1 hand also can count ba.. maybe they the few 1 care only ba... thank. haix... darkness, no need say la.. this... haix..
let tok abt pass few day ba... monday, ended with disappointment, tues,morning life of bright, but afternoon go out with some friend. 2day, day of boredom..... haha...don tok abt it le ba.. any1 got job can jio... no money le.. haix... need to choing le...arrrr!!! next week test le... so sian.. haven start study lor... wth... lol... hope darkness will leave ba....
u know wat.. reali reali ____ alot...haix..YYYY
i will finish my NS, my university and wait for u.
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