Tuesday, November 25, 2008 (0.')
(this is a combination of wat i wan write on 24/11 and 25/11.. this is because on the 24/11 i accidentally press save nv 4goten to post...haha=)...)
24/11/08
yaya i know u guy waiting for my post..=)
here i'm posting=)... sorry tat ytd nv blog... cos sometin coop up den no time to blog... haix don tok abt it ba... just feel tat haixx... YYYY... y this kind of thing just keep happen to me.haix...
erm promised to tell you guy abt my life... here a poem abt my life ba...
everyday I'm waiting.
a simple letter.
a small hug.
a soft kiss.
but every time,
it just make me disappointed.
make me heartbroken.
make me dispressed.
rain started to down pour.
from a sadly cloud.
a cloud that look like me.
the real me.
year pass, time pass.
there wont be anymore me.
as me will nv be like before.
no more happiness.
as it keep on going.
the real me will have died.
never be going to get him back.
never ever.
even if u saw his smile.
that wasn't his real smile.
a pretented smile in front of everyone.
a faked one.
it hard, and it tough.
life for him will never be the same.
even if he get another 1,
he will never be able to fall so deeply again.
you know wat.. that was how i'm feeling ba... can u guy sense it... haha like a riddle rite.. is it good or bad? or is it both good tin and bad tin... don judge the poem by it word ar.. haha... very difficult ba... wan know tag and ask me is it correct lor... haha
erm let tok abt sometin tat i doing this past few day ba... don wish to tok anytin during last week and ytd and jiu day ba.. so i just randomly say ba...
erm guess wat?.. this few day i learning sometin.. haha... secret... next time i take down in a video and post it kk... haha.. i learn this tin cos there a reason de... next time den tell u all=) haha...
erm read a story book ytd day.. quick touching and interesting and meaningful... tis is 1st time i read finsh 1 whole book in a day lea... i can believe myself... cos normally i don read those boring book de... but that book i read (low kay hwa, to forget) is not boring at all.. not say very profound..
this part is for U..the rest of you please skip to the next paragraph... thank...
to forget you is hard.. but not to remember is the only tin i can do ma? all the tin around me, my room, my sch tin, my shirt, my whole life had already been invaded by you.. i reali hope that i'm the superman in the story while u the superwoman in the story... where you will hug me when i'm leaving.. kiss me before i go.. hold my hand when when we go out.. that all the simple thing tat i just wan... i'm also willing to shed a same amount of blood for you to the same amount of tear u drop... mayb u still need time to tin ba... i won force u... the only thing that i can say to you now is this ba: I LOVE YOU ALOT!...
haha... thank to those for skip that part... those who read it you really very kapo lea!!!.. haha...erm ytd she fall sick le... she got high fever... 39.0 lea... WTH rite... still don wan go c doctor.. no choice lor so i go take care of her lor... will she resting i jiu read the story book lor... haha... but thank god that she today recover le... haha but i'm abit sick now... haha... this few day also cant fall aslp early... veryvery late den fall aslp... haix... alot of tin crop in my mind.. hope i can setter all tis tin ver soon ba... this few day realil have to thank my bro... they were the 1 who accompany me when i bored...we go drinking ar,, chating ar,, play ar, and 1 of them teach me something... don worry not smoking... haha... but ANW, Thank guy=)...
other than them there 2tin that also accompany me during the nite

that is dumbo(left) & jumbo(right)
all this day it was this 2 cute little elephant accompany me... even my parent , my sis doesnt care.. in fact find me "not in this world better", maybe... since the day they say i have no boond with them.. even my friend have left me.. those click that alway hang up with me.. left with maybe my 2 brother ba... haix...
this is to someone... u guy may also skip this part ba... in fact just don look at it cos this is to someone... this person may know how i refering to.. some of u maybe will also know...
hi u bastard... now wat u wan.. gave u my position, let u take all the credits, taken alway all my friends..my crew(thoes aunty who have been very good to me),all this i have nv say anything...and now wat??!! now going to take her away from me?? huh??!!! wat u wan from me... u wan me to vanish?? wan me to have left with nothing?? wat right do u have to say that i need to have reflection??! huh wat right do u have... have u seen our sweetness b4. have u seen us enjoying ourself b4.. have u seen us going through obstacle and den being so happy b4.. huh???!!! have u seen us hugging 1 another crying and don wan to be apart b4... have u saw any of that from us b4... are u there when i make her touch. are u there when make her happy..most importantly, have you seen us deep in love before u have not right.. all u saw is the dark side of me right.. wat have u know???!!! tell me... cos i know she will ask u to see my post... as she may not understand wat i mean and ask u 4 comment. this she have ask u to do it b4 ba.. wat do u know????!!! YYYY!!! Y!! tell me YY!!! u know wat i writing abt mea.. u know wat i toking abt in the post mea.. wat right do u have.. y.. Y!! it was u who cos my left to left with nothing.. it was u... no friend, no job, no supporter, NO HER... YYY!!!!arrrrrrrrrr!!!!!
thank again for those who realy skip tat part.. for those who have see tat part again u realy realy very very kapo lea... haha...let tok abt 2day ba... 2day got lesson at 1.. woke up at 9 plus going 10.. 1st tin came to my mind was ... , den suddenly tok of going out with her 2day and catch the madagascar 2 with my small sis. as i promised to bring my sis to go watch with her. i don wish to make anymore empty promise le.. cos i regreted.. regreted for my rest of my life...
read a book again. writen by low kay hwa also... this time is you are here.. erm this time round some part of it look like me. prehap the forgeting part ba... same like the guy in to 4get de story.. i reali recommend u guy to go and see his book man.. reali very nice..
as promised, meet them at around 4plus... manage to catch the 4.30 show.. haha... quick nice the show... u should go see.. hope that u 2 enjoy the day... sorry make u so tired.. nv took any picture..=x.. k ba erm that all 4 some of u ba... the rest u all can skip... cos is only 4 U...
this is for U the rest please skip these part..
please scroll down and read...please...
high light starting from here->
i was actually very happy at 1st cos u call me daring again le.. reali very happy.. i was stun 4 word awhile... u can c tat i was stun ba=)..i was so happy tat u buy give me the patrick again... reali very happy.. i was also very happy tat u will worry tat i won eat enough.. i was also very happy that u finally say thank you to me since very long ago. after all this is some of the thing i wan from u...cos it reali very long u have show concern to me le....but, remember wat u tell me when i say bus 132 can go orhard?u say u forget. tat reali sank my heart.. reali.. u know wat i thinking.. are u like the superman in the story "to forget" or the lara in the story of"you are here".. u had reali forgoten alot of thing.. 4got abt our past being 2geter le.. remember wat i promise u the day before i go ploy?remember u hold my arm very tightly in bus before? remember y u do that?remember u hug me tightly and cry? remember y u did that? all this have been flashing in my mind.. every day.. did u remember wat i promise u tat day? do u know y i make that promise.. during our early relationship remember wat i promised u? remember that i wan bring u go see sunset and sun rise? remember i wan bring u go see star at night? u remember when u 1st cry at my shoulder? u remember?? no! i wasnt angry..now u know y i cut my hand. now u know y i go drink. now u know y i wan numb mysely.. now u know y.. u know wat i reali hope for? Hope that tml u will wear the long necklace that i buy give u, hope tat u will wear the braclet i gave u. wear the ring tat u like to wear de go to ur prom nite. do u also know wat i was hoping all the while when i was going home during the few day where i go ur house? i was hoping u to hug me. i was hoping u to hug my arm to the door... ok this i reali nv blame u. cos u still need time to tin... in fact i nv blame u anything at all..not at all... u remember the day u got high fever? u remember who was the 1 taking care of u?. remember who help u take all the thing tat u wan?. remember who stay by ur side until u fall aslp den go?. u forgoten in just 1 day. u nv mention anytin abt me in ur blog... notin... not at all.not a single thing ... do u know wat i was expecting during the next day which was ytd? a hug friom u followed by a thank you.u may think. so wat u nv ask me to go take care of u. is i ownself wan de ma. who ask me so kapo.. remember i was sick the next day which was ytd? u nv care abt me... this is ok.. u were guilty but i say nvm.. not ur fault.. but u keep insist me to go teach tution.. u remember? u totally 4goten that i was sick.. cos u nv care 4 me at that time.. u don care. maybe u not going to care anymore ba.. maybe u going to forget everything abt us de ba... but u know wat... i will nv be able to 4get. u know y. cos u are my every 1st time.. 1st kiss. 1st time do alot of tin.. and it for u or in fact is with u... do u know i reali miss u alot.. miss do those 1st tin with u again.. miss it alot alot alot.. u know.. u know i'm crying.. every nite since tat day.. even now..do u know y i will fall so deeply in love with u? cos once u told me, u will scare. scare u will lost me... i told u some tin and make a promise to u.. u remember tat?tat day u were hugging my arm tightly.. tat was the day i told myself.. nv going to let this girl sad again.. she sad. i will make her happy. and i told myself nv let u go... nv unless she wan... cos 1 of us have to be hurt.. and i decided to be the 1.. lastly, but actually i got alot of thing wan to say de.. but lastly i hope u will reply me by sms of how u tin...please tell me how u feel… please.. please…please tell me..please tell me tat u have read the post.. and tell me how u feel.. please….and please please don say sorry... please.. please k.. i reali begging u... just don say sorry k... please.. hope u reali won say sorry.. please... 1 more thing... there is 1 thing tat i'm happy.. if i saw u sms me... cos u know the password was our birth day=) I REALLY LOVE U ALOT AND MISS YOU ALOT..
haha cant see ba... haha.. to U... u have to log in to my account to c wat i post..the pass word is in number.. 8 number. _ _ _ _ _ _91... that the clue.. haha please try.. if u reali cant figure it up.. sms and ask me.. please.. try.. i had told u abt this 8 number b4... please even if reali donno... please please sms and ask me..in my account click entry de edit post. click on the post that say "this is a combination of......" and click edit... scroll down to below... high light the word starting from "I" den u saw alot of space de... den change the colour to black.. and read it...Thank
i will finish my NS, my university and wait for u.
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