Saturday, September 27, 2008 (0.')
yoo... back to blog... u know wat... i wrote sometin in my secret diary again... hai...
let continue with the story ba..
i will just continue where i remember ba... u know wat? during the period where the by was wking and when the girl go out with other ppl, the girl start to like some1 else.. (shock ba...) the boy only know when he saw the girl e-mail... tat was when the boy start to cry every day... the boy try to be ok... although the girl tell him 1day, the boy still nv say anytin.. the boy try 2 be very strong..n pretend to be ok every time he saw sometin in the girl msg... acturally the boy have been crying everyday without letting the girl know...during their 1 year anniversary the actually had write sometin in the present tat wan to give the girl... but the boy didnt dare to give the girl at the end... so the boy hid it boy... and didnt give it to the girl...
this is wat he writen in the present:dear when u c this i may had die le ba.. but 1st i had to say sorry cos i had wet the letter with my tear... actually i had live a happy life with u... with u i reali enjoy alot.... but sometin change ur heart cause my life to change..
seriously.. after the day i saw ur e-mail, i had been crying every day.. i had been pretend every thing is ok... i had trying to act strong.. i had trying not to let u tin tat i was sad, disappointed, heart broken, stress.. but when u had seen this letter is when i cant hold on anymore le...
tin went across my mind when i writing this letter..alot of our happy moment.. u know wat came across my mind? the first time i saw u.. the first time u msg me.. the first time u tell me abt ur problem.. the first time u give me support and confident 4 my test through sms. the first time u send me good nite msg and had been sending me till 1 day... the first time i hold ur hand..the first time i hug u.. the first time i kiss u... the first time i give flower to u. the first time i go out with u... the first time i had watch so many movie with u.. the first time i go ur house.. the first time u come my house... the first time u cry on my shoulder... the first time i catch so many tin 4 u... the first time u say i love u in our good nite msg... the first time u call me lao gong...... (alot more, total almost 1.5 page) ....
i miss all of it alot... i reali miss it... however i didnt dare to ask 4 u... cos i don wan to stress u... as ur test is coming soon.... if u reali choosen him, den i reali had noting to say...just wan to tellu tat i will just be waiting.. waiting 4 u to saw me..the 1 who had fall in love deeply with u...and nv change again... the 1 who try to make u happy away... i reali tried to make u happy every day... but ever since i saw the e-mail.. i had reali donno how to make u happy any more... i reali hope tat u will still remember me..i hope tat u will nv 4get me... cos i will nv 4get our memory... nv ever... just hope that u are happy aways... don wish tat u will be sad... take care... mayb tis is the last tin tat u recieve from me on earth ba... haha... dear, i love alot.. so deeply tat no word can explain how deep it is... the 1 who nv 4get u and love u always(the boy)...
this is wat the boy had writen... the boy didnt give it to the girl... cos the boy was very scare... so the pretend every tin to b ok again... he try to act strong again... even in front of his friend... it had been very hard 4 him... he every day still cry... his heart get more pain each day pass by... till 1 day he reali cant take it le... he fall sick le.. the boy told the girl.. the girl was busy... so she only go visit after dhe is not busy... but the boy was already very happy when the girl got go and visit the boy... but tin got worst... the boy go find the girl the next day although the boy was still sick... u know wat... the boy saw sometin in the girl e-mail again... the feeling 4 the boy is like happily go out to the top floor and den sometin happen and fall down to the ground floor..., he was so sad tat his illness worsten.. but the boy pretend he is ok...
ok ba say till here ba cos haven read finish... the story is like very long... haha read from internet de... cannot tell u all from where cos next time i donno wat 2 write i can tell u all a story...haha..
hai i feel i very useless lea... do u all tin so?
i will finish my NS, my university and wait for u.
11:57:00 PM
