Tuesday, August 5, 2008 (0.')
haix... here i'm.. heart crying again
the pain was undescrible.. i donno wat to say..
tear trying to roll down but i keep blocking it...
i donno... it more hurt..it like cant heal le..
but i don wan b*... i don wan to lost u..
i don wan i don wan!!!!
i was so scare.. cos tis kind of tin happen to me b4...
it the same tin...
same situtation..
same pattern..
same way..
i was very scare..
the feel of this scare was like donno how many thousand of (very) scare..
last time it happen and it took me 1 year to recover half..
now if happen i reali donno when will recover...
mayb won recover ba
mayb will die ba.. haha..=x
i donno... mayb if it happen u guy may not c me again le ba...
mayb ba
mayb...
although this tin happen
i nv feel tat u are a bundle to me...
NEVER... not at all..
been with u is not miserable also.. NOT AT ALL...
hei guy up there... do u tin tat i'm useless?
i feel tat i'm...
u know i crying now?
i cant block it any more..
it flow down..
cant control anymore..
this is not the feel of miserable..
it just the feel of sad..
donno how to describle the sadness..
haix..
LAO PO IT NOT THAT I DON TRUST YOU...
I BELIEVE YOU...
I TRUST YOU...
IT COS I CAN TELL THAT YOUR ANS IS NOT FROM YOUR HEART..
THAT Y I ASK AGAIN..
C YOUR 2ND TIME DE ANS IS DIFFERENT..
I JUST WAN TO KNOW THE TRUTH...
NEXT TIME CAN JUWT TELL ME DE TRUTH
I DON WAN U LIE AGAIN
I DON WAN..
HAO MA?
haix..i cant believe it...
i have fallen in love with a girl till so deep
deeper than the deepest sea in the world..
this time happened mayb will be like wat i say just now ba..
watever it is... i won wan to b*
even it hurt me or wat..
even there a knife pass through my heart.
even my heart is bleeding continously..
even if cos my life..
even if u wan..
i will still wait..
wait.. wait..
and wait till i die..
haha mayb i will die early ba
lol..
you guy may tin tat i mad..
but tis i time reali is not..
although last time i like to play... play till like i'm mad..
but this time i'm serious...
but don worry
i say die doesn't mean i going to do some tin crazy
mayb if that happen u guy will no how i die le ba..
haha
still crying now..
like tap water sia..
haix..
mayb ba.....
i will finish my NS, my university and wait for u.
10:27:00 PM
